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1.16.2017

Standing Rock update. I stand with dignified Behavior. I stand with self-possessed Behavior. I stand.....

Standing Rock update. I stand with dignified Behavior. I stand with self-possessed Behavior. I stand with responsible thoughtful action and strategy. So I stand with 90% of the behavior that I see in this Camp day in and day out. Almost everyone I have met here from all walks of life came here prepared to die to protect Mother Earth, to protect future Generations, to protect human rights. That is pretty dignified. I do not stand with the behavior therefore that has been reported to me in the so-called actions today on the bridge and elsewhere. I do not deny the right of indigenous, Indian, people to do what they did. By international law the oppressed have a right to resist by any means available. But I do not stand with the behavior as it was reported to me today. Impulsive, acting out, self-indulgent, without strategy. It seems they do not understand the power of dignified, prayerful, Solmn, self-sacrificial, dignified Behavior which is what people do all day long in these incredibly harsh hostile conditions here. A media Bonanza was handed to Our Sick brothers and sisters in the fossil fuel owned government of North Dakota,  as near as I can tell. If I learn that today's actions were designed and authorized by the Indian leadership of this Camp I retract some of my opposition. Otherwise I can only think of my reading of Bury My Heart at Wounded Knee which is story after Story of Indian tribes being slaughtered because of the unauthorized hot-headed behavior of a few infantile people..

1.15.2017

I see not one in a million in today's America that cares about their children's future. Deeply, if I think deeply, I realize the question, then why should I care about their children?

I see not one in a million in today's America that cares about their children's future. Deeply, if I think deeply, I realize the question, then why should I care about their children?

1.12.2017

"James, I like you the best because you have to humble yourself the most to fit in here." This from C. , a middle aged young person with a.......

"James, I like you the best because you have to humble yourself the most to fit in here." This from C. , a middle aged young person with a Charming little dog that always ignores me,  lol, with whom I've never really had a conversation but for many weeks we have enjoyed warmly saying hello to one another. I don't know what C. sees in me. I don't know what others see in me,  or what they think about me. I'm amazed when people make such statements. But they do rather regularly here.

"James, you are perfect." To this I erupted in an uncontrollable belly laugh. This to the young man......

"James, you are perfect." To this I erupted in an uncontrollable belly laugh. This to the young man who said this as he was sobbing in my arms this morning. He had just learned that within hours his sacred fire, and the other, would be extinguished and despite that this was for good reason from the Council of fires, the indigenous headsman, it was a devastating blow to this Godly good young man who for weeks had near single-handedly kept the fire going, an extraordinary heroic loving Act. I had a hunch and went to the fire and had the blessing of being there at the right time to help him deal with the grief. After moments of holding him and letting him grieve into my shoulder I shared some words that seemed to give him great comfort, especially my thought that despite how important the physical fire was, that he had given us a much more important fire that would never go out, it would always burn in my heart and others, the fire of his passionate dedication and loving contribution to the camp. "James, you are perfect," he said. I burst out in laughter. "I am nothing," I said. "I have simply learned to get out of the way of the heart. The Heart is what is perfect." A big hug he gave me at those words. What an incredible blessing, what an incredible privilege it is to be here right now.

"What is it that you don't understand about the fact that there are people on the hill up there that would love nothing better than to kill us all, and that.......

"What is it that you don't understand about the fact that there are people on the hill up there that would love nothing better than to kill us all, and that it is minus 8 degrees headed to -19 degrees tonight?"  This I just said to the 5 or so young people laughing joyfully banter about things in one of the mess Halls here in a grungy army tent on a straw floor with no Creature Comforts. I'm not sure that I know any of them or that any of them know me. They looked a little confused. So I continued, What is it that the larger culture doesn't understand about Joy being in the opposite direction of pleasure, safety, Creature Comforts? That Joy is in the direction of where people desperately need help?" They looked less confused.  I added, "I was simply trying to draw attention to your joy. I hope you don't mind." They expressed that they were deeply glad for my comments.

"My life is my message," said Gandhi. Me too.

"My life is my message," said Gandhi. Me too.

1.06.2017

### James, you are so........

### James, you are so inspiring to us. James, you make me so happy when I see you. James, I am so glad that you have stayed in the camp and not left..... Almost every day people say stuff like that to me. Fortunately, people are very supportive and appreciative to each other in this camp. But it is genuine towards me and I know practically no one in my life that has ever felt that way toward me with almost no exceptions except for my father and God knows why that was.. This is only the second time or third time in my life that I have been with a group and not felt like a total and complete alien. A species that did not belong on planet Earth. (10 days of democracy spring last year being another.) Whereever I've been before almost no one wanted to talk about the things I wanted to talk about. Here people are already talking about, thinking about, exploring, living the things that I care about. This is the rebel alliance. I never thought I'd see it. I've always wanted to be among people with the same father, the same grandfather, the same Creator as I,  Loving, and long ago it became clear to me I would never see that. But now all day long I experience it.

12.30.2016

Standing Rock update : the extreme darkness is lifting. My experience of this camp, and I think I was not alone, is that weeks ago , 10 days ago, tremendous Darkness had descended upon the camp. 10000 Souls, many.......

Standing Rock update :  the extreme darkness is lifting. My experience of this camp, and I think I was not alone, is that weeks ago , 10 days ago, tremendous Darkness had descended upon the camp. 10000 Souls, many of them very brightly burning spiritual Jedi, Departed and this was appropriate as the legal battle was initially won. Yet, tho appropriate, this departure of so many bright lights introduced a tremendous stress on the camp. Those Bright Lights many of them did tremendous amounts of work everyday to feed, heat, provide water for, construct for the others in the camp. That Workforce Departed. What was left for a while was a fairly corrupt power structure. Again, probably I was more acutely aware than most but I am not the only one that was aware. Slowly I learned the lesson to stop attempting to help by coming alongside those in power, and instead to avoid at all costs those with ego issues and to seek out the more lowly who were of good spirit and providing some level of help, and to see how I could support them. Surely my days are infinitely more joyful now, I am more productive personally, and those good souls and I are undoubtedly feeding and amplifying and encouraging one another. Decades ago I brought to one of the largest computer companies in the world a training system for salespeople the heart of which was the idea of not seeking those in official power but rather to seek those more lowly who were hugely influential but not of official power. Finally I am again avoiding that mistake. There are beautiful souls here that move me with great emotion. The young indigenous man from Florida who is here in the camp awaiting his trial 4 unviolently standing against theft of Native American land and resources and the destruction of their water. A beautiful soul. Earlier in his life he told me involved with a gang. Clearly saved now spiritually in part due to being introduced to Serious Sign Language in prison and now doing coursework to become an interpreter. his profound love and admiration for those without the gift of speech is very very deep and genuine. He must have a record. So the risk, the huge costs that this young person faces to fight for the future of us all must be enormous. But his spirit is so totally selfless, so light. A young mom who runs a kitchen, 1 of 8 or more in the camp, and probably my favorite. 2 absolutely adorable Kids approximately 3 and 5 years old. With her in the kitchen every moment. Infinite patience for them and us has this young woman. cooking simple healthy meals for us from 7 in the morning until 8 o'clock at night. College students, people normally employed in everyday life , who have in the face of existential species emergency, existential emergency for all creation, have said goodbye to their normal lives and work from sunup till sundown to help those in need in this community. The Dark Souls remain. I have removed myself from much ongoing visibility to their activities. but I have a hunch that this unofficial tribe of good Souls is growing in strength and number and thereby in some cases converting and in other cases obscuring these points of Darkness that were so strong only 10 days ago. And I know that my sun up till bedtime menial manual pitiful weak labor is one of those candles encouraging others. I get thanks and feedback every day. Recently I saw one of the folks who exhibited considerable darkness of Soul only 10 days ago or so, saw me on my daily rounds spanning the camp serving those in greatest need,  asked if we could talk,  said,  I appologize. We exchanged glad hugs. Daily I repeat and will repeat again here my favorite quotation, a quotation from Albert Schweitzer , example is not the major thing in influencing people, it's the only thing. we had our first serious Storm 2 days ago, 10 inches of snow, 40 mile-an-hour sustained winds, 10 degrees Fahrenheit, minus 40 degrees wind chill , gusts exceeding 60 miles an hour. clearly I have no conception of the strength of tents. How mine and hundreds of others survived that wind is beyond me. I suspect that this storm will be viewed as very very gentle within another month or so. many of our finest Jedi, some very mature, some very immature, are gathered in this space. By the way, since the storm the Verizon signal has not been available down in the camp, only on a small hill in this very cold weather where I currently sit. Hence my access to Internet is greatly curtailed for now. I can't know whether Verizon plans to repair the Tower or whether they have decided it is not worth maintaining it with a camp of only a thousand people.

12.23.2016

### "A person who experienced any six or more of the categories” of childhood trauma, Dr Felitti tells me, “was 4600 percent more likely to become an IV [injecting] drug user later in life than a person who experienced none of them.”

http://www.alternet.org/drugs/tragedy-whitney-houston-and-her-daughter-surprising-factors-can-make-people-4600-percent-more

12.21.2016

### The Israeli collective psyche is shaped by coercive pressures: It is post-traumatic; it cannot forgive the Jews their victimization in Europe; and so it is intoxicated by power and the use of violence against the weak; and is in a state of denial about its own aggression toward Palestinians. Staying alive by whatever means, the ethos of Netanyahu, has replaced traditional Jewish ethics of loving the neighbor, says psychiatrist Ruchama Marton, founder of Physicians for Human Rights, Israel.

http://mondoweiss.net/2016/12/forced-existence/

12.19.2016

### This is a big f****** deal. We have never loved our children. Not in my lifetime have we loved our children. Not in the last century did we Americans love our children. Have we ever in America loved our children? A moral tenant for......

### This is a big f****** deal. We have never loved our children. Not in my lifetime have we loved our children. Not in the last century did we Americans love our children. Have we ever in America loved our children? A moral tenant for me until recent months has been that at least the prior generation loved their children, meaning, they would gladly give their lives for them. This is not true. This is a lie. I have built much of my understanding on this life. Why do I say this? My parents generation that I have held up as the Paragon, the greatest generation, they fed us into the Vietnam War Machine. They demonized us for fighting the Vietnam War Machine. Why? Their own selfish interests. They would lose their jobs. They would lose their standing. They would lose their comforts. World War One. How were we so easily seduced? We fed our children by the millions into the killing machine. Why? We didn't love our children. We loved our jobs. We loved our status. We loved our illusions National Supremacy period did we ever love our children? We love the idea of our children. We love the idea of loving our children. We love how our children make us feel when they are very very young, and sometimes older. That is lust, that is not love. Yes there are one in a million, rare, exceptions, and by their very existence they prove the almost total rule. One of my last shreds of hope that we were a species worth saving has just gone down in flames. What are the implications for me and my missions, what are the implications for my behavior? I know what will not change for me, it will continue that for the greedy Joy of it I will continue to devote every breath in attempted alignment with Creator, and the attempt to  fight alongside creator for the world as it should be, not as it is, a world of needless suffering, and near total absence of joy,  near total absence of unconditional, Universal loving. This is simply who I want to be. Everything else is what I wish not to be any longer. And I know in doing this that there is the slightest chance that the one in a million today or ten Generations from now might receive the slightest bit of encouragement and/or inspiration from the pitiful example I attempt to give now, and that is enough. Had those one-in-a-million in prior Generations not done what they did that which I value in my life would not exist for me today. That's how it works. If somehow the numbers changed and instead of one in a million it was 2, 5, 10, 1000 then the course of history could change. That's the only way that history can change for the positive. That's the only Revolution and it looks like we will never try it.

12.11.2016

Regarding Trump: as I've said, he's a godsend. Equally evil to Hilary, he is so much more grotesquely evil......

Regarding Trump: as I've said, he's a godsend. Equally evil to Hilary, he is so much more grotesquely evil in appearance, such unvarnished evil, that he will either be our last wake-up call to the goodness inside ourselves to throw he and his satanic minions away where they can't hurt us, hopefully to convert some back to sanity, or we just have finally totally proven that we are not an Adaptive species and it is time for us to go for the safety of all of the rest of creation on Earth and in the universe.

12.07.2016

If in the human species there is so little good that we do not rise up unviolently and stop Trump ism, that we do not rise up un violently and stop global warming, if we do not rise......

If in the human species there is so little good that we do not rise up unviolently and stop Trump ism, that we do not rise up un violently and stop global warming,  if we do not rise up un violently and stop us Empire, then it is time for our species to end and for the universe to be protected from us. Life taught me this by 5 years ago or so.  I find young person after young person after young person, these young Jedi, here in the camp, that are of the same mind before I speak the words.

12.05.2016

Is it time for an immediate deliberate aggressive brain drain from America? It may be. Yes, if all......

Is it time for an immediate deliberate aggressive brain drain from America? It may be. Yes, if all decent people leave and go to civilized countries then it leaves the nuclear keys in the hands of Barbarians. But if they blow us all up is that really so horrible? Not to me. Will we live our lives being held hostage by these Savages? Not I.  I expect I'll stay and fight from within. But many can fight this by taking their social emotional and intellectual Capital abroad. That too can be an effective step to protect the future.

12.03.2016

The hope of Standing Rock is the many Divine Souls that have been called here from all over the world. The weakness of Standing Rock is the absence of all leadership of..........

The hope of Standing Rock is the many Divine Souls that have been called here from all over the world. The weakness of Standing Rock is the absence of all leadership of competence and devoted decent intent. The rare exceptions prove the prevailing overwhelmingly prevailing rule.. Oh, there are dozens and dozens that assert themselves as leaders. Some are sort of trying. Most are various layers of drunk on their position of power and keeping and enjoying that power rather than devoting themselves to winning the war so their motives and the impact of their efforts is commensurately dangerous, damaging, damaged , deflating , deadly. The incompetence is fully understandable. No training, no experience, no track record, no centrally excellent leadership to learn from. Well, that's not true. No excellent indigenous leadership to learn from and because the dozens and dozens of appointed leaders operate primarily out of ego they are thereby prevented from learning from those who know better,  and especially to learn from their own mistakes which they are because of ego unwilling to even acknowledge. Rather they resent them, those non-indigenous that could help them,  they Target them, denigrate them,  and also the indigenous who don't go along with them. No different than the corporations they revile. Again, totally understandable. Totally deadly. But there is a collection of divine Souls here, mostly non-indigenous. And something may come of them staying and fighting and intermixing and energizing and educating one another for as long as they are together. Those strong Souls are strengthening the brightness of each other's flames and that certainly counts for something. I had forgotten that the Jedi were led by consummate evil and it wound up in their destruction. This has been true of most non violent revolutions or promising social revolutions throughout history that the top was rotten and initial successes turned into festering death. And there is growing concern that the indigenous leadership are selling out to the government betraying the reason that thousands of people have come here. Time will tell.

12.02.2016

Standing Rock update: this is the largest collection of healthy Souls that I have ever personally witnessed. It is a substantial collection of evil, corrupt, destructive Souls as well. Although......

Standing Rock update: this is the largest collection of healthy Souls that I have ever personally witnessed. It is a substantial collection of evil, corrupt, destructive Souls as well. Although I did not anticipate this, I realize it could hardly have been otherwise. Being good does not require intentionality nor does being evil. I consider neither to be a compliment nor slander. I consider it a very crucial, the most crucial, responsibility of discernment,  first, within ourself, but then responsibly among our companions. And which collection of souls stands the strongest will determine of what impact or none for the good this stand at Standing Rock turns out to be. And of course, in every one of us, the spirit of good and the spirit of evil exists. So too the effectiveness of Standing Rock for good or for evil depends upon within each of us causing the good to burn so bright that it all but extinguishes the evil, and thereby helping that fire of good rage and win out within those around us. I think the Outlook is very dim but it is the fight most worth fighting that I see on Earth right now. Here at Standing Rock. But also everywhere.

11.28.2016

Read this. James, a very well intended kind friend wrote, you think that you are all being set up for a Slaughter at Standing Rock, so that you are an example to anyone that.....

Read this. James, a very well intended kind friend wrote, you think that you are all being set up for a Slaughter at Standing Rock,  so that you are an example to anyone that would make the mistake of considering nonviolent resistance in the future. Keep your thoughts positive. There's no way they can do that to you all. My reply:  I know you intend well, as do I. Please let's both remember that. No one that is not here with their life In Harm's Way has the right to offer optimistic thoughts to anyone that is here. No one has the right to judge that this is not a life-and-death situation that is not here. What, they say to themselves after 1 or 10 or hundreds of us are hurt or maimed or destroyed for Life legally or dead... , oh goodness it was worse than I thought, I didn't know? Well, if I had known I would have.... That is immoral,   unrighteous, and in most cases sheer cowardice. No. No one not here has the right to minimize the risk.

A note to a dear girl that has been in my life for more than forty years:  This will be short because my battery is dying. last night was arrival at Standing Rock after 2 months of traveling. 7 o'clock......

A note to a dear girl that has been in my life for more than forty years:  This will be short because my battery is dying. last night was arrival at Standing Rock after 2 months of traveling. 7 o'clock in the rain in the dark on the verge of hypothermia. after sweating from pedaling all day. Exhausted. a kind young man helped me into the refugee camp, LOL, and moments later I was in a sleeping bag under 4 blankets. One of my key garments is a hooded sweatshirt and when I awoke this morning it was wet with sweat. a snowstorm hit over the night with fairly high winds. I've been carrying a waterproof army bag with some warm undergarments in anticipation of this cold weather and haven't checked it in months. It was a problem but that hooded sweatshirt was wet because it is key to my warmth. I expected there was nothing in that army bag that would be helpful to me. I laughed a belly laugh when I opened it and saw this red fleece jacket that you sent me. it is just the warmth that I needed. I think we are being set up for a Slaughter here so that anyone in future years that thinks about nonviolent resistance will know not to do it. This could be goodbye. James

11.24.2016

### Stop. Read this,  EVERY WORD. Ponder this deeply. Share this. Soldiers going to make a stand at Standing Rock.

### Stop. Read this,  EVERY WORD. Ponder this deeply. Share this.

http://reverbpress.com/news/calvary-meet-veterans-deploying-standing-rock/

Gandhi,  " I consider myself a soldier, though a soldier of peace.... Give me a military person to fight alongside any day, don't give me any cowards." From the article:  “We’ll have those people who will recognize that they’re not willing to take a bullet, and those who recognize that they are,” says Wood. “It’s okay if some of them step back, but Wes and I have no intention of doing so.”

11.23.2016

If I were the global fascist power Elites I would not allow Trump to become president, I would make sure that Hillary became president. Electoral......

If I were the global fascist power Elites I would not allow Trump to become president, I would make sure that Hillary became president. Electoral College, vote recount, whatever. They can do what they like. Why? Because Trump might just be enough to wake up the sleeping masses in time. Probably not, but it's possible. Hillary would get them to the same place, global domination, Global fascism, and there's no chance that the sleeping giant would awake.

Note to self: it is imperative that you move Beyond your inclination to protect the innocent of this moment. It is too late for that. The only hope is to be a tiny part of the Cure of the.......

Note to self: it is imperative that you move Beyond your inclination to protect the innocent of this moment. It is too late for that. The only hope is to be a tiny part of the Cure of the massive empathy deficit disorder that is destroying everything, massive empathy deficit disorder. This will be hard for you. It must not be impossible. Everything depends upon it. Decent lives for millions of us us, for billions of us, are already lost. That can't be stopped. What might be stopped is the loss of decent life for everyone now and in the future. everything depends upon curing the massive empathy deficit disorder. We must resist the temptation to save each other. We must focus on being sacrificed to make the disease, the massive empathy deficit disorder, visible,  and thereby curable. Remember.

Dear friends, I have been writing about the impending 4th Reich for years. I've been writing about the impending, the unfolding, the near inevitable ecological and economic Armageddon, for years. If you doubt any of this please look at my blog. My point? I am.......

Dear friends, I have been writing about the impending 4th Reich for years. I've been writing about the impending, the unfolding, the near inevitable ecological and economic Armageddon, for years. If you doubt any of this please look at my blog. I have been living accordingly,  waging my life against these disasters is best  I could figure out,  for 15 years now. I've devoted to making of my life asbestos solution I could, devoted study learning practice failure trial learning.... Look at my blog, look at my life. My point? I am an extremist. I think that anyone that is alive in their soul today is either an extremist or an extremist wanna be. An extremist of loving,  has called for and exemplified by dr. King. Looking to use their own body as constructively as they can to purchase a livable future for all future creation, though not for themselves. My life, my work, my Facebook page, my blog, my time, my any resource, is for those who also are extremists for love, or who desperately and seriously want to be and are becoming. Others are welcome to observe my work but any comments or demands on my time will be less and less and less and less and less welcome here. And any criticism of my extremism including my harshness? Including my calling out the timid cowardice of my sisters and brothers on the left? Are entirely unwelcome as of now. Please understand this. I will never be Unaware of criticisms outside me or Within Myself on such matters. I don't have time for further Dialogue on this. Your brother forever, no matter what, James

11.22.2016

I am an extremist, and I call for extremism. Everyone that isn't comfortable with that, for God sake, unfriend or unfollow me now. Why should we antagonize each other? Your brother, forever, no matter what. was dr. King wrong? He said we are all extremists, the......

I am an extremist, and I call for extremism. Everyone that isn't comfortable with that, for God sake, unfriend or unfollow me now. Why should we antagonize each other? Your brother, forever, no matter what. was dr. King wrong? He said we are all extremists, the only question is, are we extremists For Love or extremists for hate? And yet the left with almost no exceptions is pathologically terrified of extremism. What f****** Madness. Extreme danger is going to be met by what?

The Magnificent human beings are the ones who will be the first to be exterminated now. And these will be the lucky ones in many ways and they will consider themselves so. They will leave only the Living Dead behind.

The Magnificent human beings are the ones who will be the first to be exterminated now.  And these will be the lucky ones in many ways and they will consider themselves so.  They will leave only the Living Dead behind.

***** The only important question for you Today, in the age of trump, and the age of Hillary Clinton, in the age of the totally corporate Democratic Party, in the age of the right-wing sweeping government in America and Europe, is, which side are you on? Oh, you can't answer the question with words, even in your own mind. You.........

The only important question for you Today, in the age of trump, and the age of Hillary Clinton, in the age of the totally corporate Democratic Party, in the age of the right-wing sweeping government in America and Europe, is, which side are you on? Oh, you can't answer the question with words, even in your own mind. You have to look at your hour by hour Behavior. Where are you spending your money? Where are you spending each minute of the day? Where are you devoting your passion? Are you at extreme personal risk because you are getting in the way? If the answer is to get in the way of the destruction of all that is decent, then you have chosen the side of good. If that is not the answer, then you have chosen the side of evil.

11.20.2016

Mr. Trump is betting on the stupidity, ignorance, self-centeredness, smallness of heart, bigotry, fearfulness, inhumanity of Americans, and the cowardice of the ones who are not so hard-hearted. It looks like he's made the right bet.

Mr. Trump is betting on the stupidity, ignorance,  self-centeredness, smallness of heart, bigotry, fearfulness, inhumanity of Americans, and the cowardice of the ones who are not so hard-hearted. It looks like he's made the right bet.

Did you ever see the movie An Officer and a Gentleman? That's what my God is like, officer Foley. A Relentless Taskmaster, a real son of a b****, who......

Did you ever see the movie An Officer and a Gentleman? That's what my God is like, officer Foley. A Relentless Taskmaster, a real son of a b****, who is brutal on me to try and keep me alive (Soul,  not body) in a satanic, Evil, hateful world, by pushing me, by equipping me, to go into the battle to try and help the least of these my sisters and brothers. I don't know if I find anyone else Experiencing God, conscience, the divine within, heart, soul, the same way. Maybe I'm wrong about God. But that's my God, it's taken me a long time to find that God, and I don't want any other. It is pure hell, and Pure Heaven, pure Agony, and pure joy. The Peace of heart that surpasses all understanding.

If you are not yet risking your life, limb, and treasure, for the future of creation, you are not yet living. Paraphrase of Martin Luther King jr., with Liberties taken.

If you are not yet risking your life, limb, and treasure, for the future of creation, you are not yet living. Paraphrase of Martin Luther King jr., with Liberties taken.

'I can't leave my normal life right now because of my responsibilities to my family.' You have to leave your normal life right now exactly because of your responsibility is to your families.

'I can't leave my normal life right now because of my responsibilities to my family.' You have to leave your normal life right now exactly because of your responsibility is to your families.

With almost no exceptions churches, synagogues, are death camps for the soul, Heart, conscience, empathy, solidarity. I don't yet know about mosques.

With almost no exceptions churches, synagogues, are death camps for the soul, Heart, conscience, empathy, solidarity. I don't yet know about mosques.

***** MEDD (2). I am beginning to Pray Again. No, I will never believe in a being that can hear those prayers, some super being. I'm sure I will never believe that. All evidence.....

MEDD (2). I am beginning to Pray Again. No, I will never believe in a being that can hear those prayers, some super being. I'm sure I will never believe that. All evidence to the contrary. But nor is math existent in nature, nor language , nor technology and I gladly use those. They are all products of imagination. This specific prayer that I am beginning to practice is to speak in my mind and even vocalizing with an all loving father, or mother, that I can imagine. An all-knowing mother or father. Why am I beginning to practice this,  again? Because dialogue and or writing, is necessary to sanity and learning and growth. And this pretty well requires speaking to someone, knowledgeable, that cares,  and hears. Yes, but why prayer? Why to an imaginary figure? Because there are so few sane caring people available to dialogue with. Used properly, which almost always prayer is not, but used properly, it is a way of connecting more deeply with conscience, soul, heart , creation. And because I am preparing for what I anticipate which is to more and more be in the presence of sisters and brothers suffering from massive empathy deficit disorder, MEDD, hatred, fear, rage , violence, lies, deceit, ignorance, disinformation, on the road, and conversations, at Standing Rock, in prison, in court. I will need all of the tools at my disposal to maintain my sanity. I do not know how my current thinking will play out, but I believe that on the tombstone of all of creation being destroyed by we humans will be the words massive empathy deficit disorder,  MEDD,  unless some of us stand up and use our bodies to cure it in time. This is the disease that true revolutionaries treat and cure in their sisters and brothers that have that disease. The man Jesus showed us the way. To allow one's body to be used to make manifest the evil, the hatred, the inhumanity that infests one's sisters and brothers that they might see it and repent, and be healed, and have their empathy re-awakened, exercised and restored there by. First making of ourselves as pure and white and blank a canvas as possible, and then putting it and keeping it directly in  the way of the harm that is being delivered on the Innocents. We really have three choices, only 3. Kill them, or heal them, or be killed by them. I'm willing to be killed by them, and more and more I expect it, at least life in prison for non-violent opposition. I am unwilling to kill them because then I become them and there's only more killing and that future. I am unwilling to go down without fighting to cure them, my sisters and brothers all, and only too much me in my earlier life.

MEDD. To a dear sister that beautifully answered my question, where is the joy in shooting a beautiful deer, my reply : The economics, I get. I have no......

MEDD. To a dear sister that beautifully answered my question, where is the joy in shooting a beautiful deer, my reply : The economics, I get.  I have no question of that. I am glad that sisters and brothers in such need have that available. I think you have beautifully expressed much of what is going on, the unity with nature that is involved in the hunt even when a creature is not secured. Thank you. I think the Tombstone on Humanity, on Earth that humanity is destroying, will read something like massive empathy deficit disorder,  MEDD. There was a time when I was a teenager that a friend and I went out one day with shotguns and slaughtered dozens of birds. It was thrilling. It was inhumane. It was subhuman. I cringed in pain at the thought of my grotesque and Humanity. I would never do that again. But regarding hunting, it really isn't so much different regarding working in the healthcare industry, working in the defense industry, serving food to people that work there, working in Wall Street, working in government, being a lawyer, laying pipe for the fossil fuel industry , selling crap at Walmart.... We are all killing. When we pay taxes we are paying for the murder of non-white people all around the world. The movie Powder.

11.18.2016

My father's generation, the greatest Generation: I have to risk everything because of my responsibilities. I have to risk everything because of my family and my children. My generation: I can't risk anything because of....

My father's generation, the greatest Generation: I have to risk everything because of my responsibilities. I have to risk everything because of my family and my children. My generation: I can't risk anything because of  my responsibilities. I can't risk anything because of my children. What the f***. Gandhi called it cowardice. My father's generation and earlier Generations called it hiding behind Apron Strings. We don't f****** love our children and grandchildren anymore.

11.17.2016

Which is worse, having cancer or having cancer and not knowing that you do until it's too late to cure it? We should be thankful for Trump. It is not........

Which is worse, having cancer or having cancer and not knowing that you do until it's too late to cure it? We should be thankful for Trump. It is not too late to cure the cancer of hatred. What do we care enough to do so? Probably not. But we can't say we didn't know in time. The cancer is not from. The cancer is not our sisters and brothers who voted for Trump. The cancer is the hatred practiced by the Democratic Party Kama by the Republican Party, by liberal apathy, by conservative hatred and discrimination.

11.16.2016

***** Friends, I owe it to us all, I owe it to the Future, to be really clear. I consider my harshness out of extreme tough love, a virtue. My virtue? A virtue. I'm at War. I am at all out War for.......

Friends, I owe it to us all, I owe it to the Future, to be really clear. I consider my harshness out of extreme tough love, a virtue. My virtue? A virtue. I'm at War. I am at all out War for the future of all creation. How would you expect a warrior, me, or anyone, to be? What kind of intensity? What kind of dedication? What kind of devotion? What kind of Demands on them self? What kind of seriousness of purpose, Focus? What kind of personal risk? What kind of personal pain? A soldier in the midst of a firefight, you do not expect harshness of such an individual? Would you not question , Wonder at, have doubts about, a soldier in the midst of a firefight that was unwilling, and never seen to be, extremely profoundly harsh even toward beloved fellow soldiers? I sure the f*** would. I consider myself a soldier though a soldier of peace,  as did Gandhi before me. I say again, until we see millions of soldiers, soldiers, soldiers, soldiers ... of Peace there is not a f****** shred of Hope. Millions, millions, millions, millions.... I can't be Millions. But I will be one. If you are not or cannot become one who Embraces what I'm saying you probably should detach from me for your own peace of mind and so that we use each other's time well and do not misuse it.

11.11.2016

***** The central questions of life are, right now, where does Creation need me to be, what right now does Creation need me to attempt? Only those who every breath live those questions, make of their life an answer to those questions, have the ultimate human experience of feeling Alive.

The central questions of life are,  right now,  where does Creation need me to be,  what right now does Creation need me to attempt? Only those who every breath live those questions,  make of their life an answer to those questions,  have the ultimate human experience of feeling Alive.

11.10.2016

The physical risk of trying to be a decent, a Godly, human being in the world has just gone up enormously.

The physical risk of trying to be a decent,  a Godly, human being in the world has just gone up enormously.

11.02.2016

Do you work for God, the nine year old boy asked? I I try to, I responded. This at the Aldi on the southside of Chicago in a poor part of town.

Do you work for God, the nine year old boy asked? I try to, I responded. This at the Aldi on the southside of Chicago in a poor part of town.

10.18.2016

Are you a Christian? You love America? Ru for Palestine and against Israel? Unbelievably hideous , dishonest......

Are you a Christian? You love America? Ru for Palestine and against Israel? Unbelievably hideous , dishonest, ignorant, hateful questions. Are you a Christian? What does that mean? Do you hate gays or give your life to protect them? Do you hate undocumented immigrants or give your life to protect them? Do you hate transgendered people or give your life to protect them? Do demonize the poor or give your life to protect them? Do you hate Muslims or give your life to protect them? Do you love America? See the above. Are you against Israel and for Palestine? Are you for your wife's side of the family or your own? Do you love your sons and hate your daughters or do you love your daughters and hate your sons? Am I a Christian? My religion is trying to be like Christ, trying to be completely loving. Do I love America? I love what I was taught in kindergarten. I hate the way we behave in the world today. I am for the human rights of everyone, Israelis, Palestinians, whites, blacks, Christians, Muslims, liberals, conservatives, etc etc etc.

BIAS, against any individual or group is discrimination, bigotry , Racist,  elitist, evil, unacceptable, dehumanizing, sin. No honest, no........

BIAS, against any individual or group is discrimination, bigotry , Racist,  elitist, evil, unacceptable, dehumanizing, sin,  anti-Christ. No honest, no sane, individual can believe or assert that America, that the u.s. people, that law enforcement, the government, is not biased against exactly those who Jesus Championed, exactly those who Jesus elevated, exactly those who were the Center of Jesus family. The disadvantaged,  the minorities, poor, the different, the marginalized, the weak, the unreligious, the unpopular, those of a different faith, the non-conformist.... That one received such negative bias, or the group that receive such negative bias, not for an instant does it justifying or forgive bias against in return. Love those who persecute you. Do good to those who persecute you. They will know you by how you love. I don't know about your father, but my Father loves every individual exactly the same , and experiences immense pain with even a disrespectful,  harmful,  unkind word thought or uttered toward one of His children. Okay, he loves those who experience bias against them, more. As you do unto the least of these, the least of these my Family, every creature, you do unto me.