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star·tle Pronunciation verb, -tled, -tling, noun
–verb (used with object)
1. to disturb or agitate suddenly as by surprise or alarm.
2. to cause to start involuntarily, by or as by a sudden shock. –verb (used without object)
3. to start involuntarily, as from a shock of surprise or alarm. –noun
4. a sudden shock of surprise, alarm, or the like.
5. something that startles.
[Origin: bef. 1100; ME stertlen to rush, caper, equiv. to stert(en) to start + -(e)len -le, or continuing OE steartlian to kick, struggle] —Related forms
—Synonyms 1. scare, frighten, astonish. See shock1.
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USCCB - NAB - Matthew 7 13 7 8 "Enter through the narrow gate; for the gate is wide and the road broad that leads to destruction, and those who enter through it are many. 14 How narrow the gate and constricted the road that leads to life. And those who find it are few.
If you settle for the "good" you will not obtain the "great," you will not live with and walk with God, you will not know Heaven. You will not live a life of Joy, nor will your "children," nor your spouse, nor others that you lead.
I just cannot explain the power I have experienced / witnessed any different. Any miracles for which I have been midwife can only be explained through this almighty power that is released when Love is released / awakened to reign among men.
Not yet family to everyone, or fully dedicated to be so? Not yet Christian.
Never have I borne such physical suffering and sacrifice. Never have I been filled with such Joy / Peace / Love / Life.
They answered and said to him, “Our father is Abraham.”
Jesus said to them, “If you were Abraham’s children,
you would be doing the works of Abraham.
But now you are trying to kill me,
a man who has told you the truth that I heard from God;
Abraham did not do this.
You are doing the works of your father!”
So they said to him, “We were not born of fornication.
We have one Father, God.”
Jesus said to them, “If God were your Father, you would love me,
for I came from God and am here;
I did not come on my own, but he sent me.”
I recall reading or hearing little if anything disucssed about these passages or this concept Jesus put forth of 2 families, 2 Fathers. I recall discussions ad nausum about DO NOT JUDGE, nonesene by fauxChristians to enable "Christain" to be a club membership and not a RADICAL WAY OF LIFE - GLOBAL FAMILY.
To serve our brothers we need to become wise in what choice we AND THEY have made. Otherwise, how can we be "Saved," or to "Save?"
1ST EXAMPLE OF GOD'S ECONOMY: "...He said to Jesus, "And who is my neighbor?" 30 Jesus replied, "A man fell victim to robbers as he went down from Jerusalem to Jericho. They stripped and beat him and went off leaving him half-dead. 31 12 A priest happened to be going down that road, but when he saw him, he passed by on the opposite side. 32 Likewise a Levite came to the place, and when he saw him, he passed by on the opposite side.
33 But a Samaritan traveler who came upon him was moved with compassion at the sight. 34 He approached the victim, poured oil and wine over his wounds and bandaged them. Then he lifted him up on his own animal, took him to an inn and cared for him.
35 The next day he took out two silver coins and gave them to the innkeeper with the instruction, 'Take care of him. If you spend more than what I have given you, I shall repay you on my way back.' 36 Which of these three, in your opinion, was neighbor to the robbers' victim?" 37 He answered, "The one who treated him with mercy." Jesus said to him, "Go and do likewise." The victim (brother in need) did not request help, did not pay, yet he was fully and lovingly cared for. How did this happen? He had a genuine, Humane need. A brother, and un-dehumanized fellow being "saw" the need.
2ND EXAMPLE OF GOD'S ECONOMY: 2ND week of January 2007 Start Loving arrived at the White House with a few $'s in his pocket, zero plan for "survival" but a determination to give his life as effectively as possible to save his Darfur family. Well almost five months later Start Loving is alive and well. If he has "earned" his "survival," his "flourishing" actually it has been through continuing to give his life to "the least of these," and this has evoked Love / God in others to keep Her Son, Her brother alive. Three people in particular, but dozens in small ways have made it their business to keep their "brother" Start among them - alive and well. The only time I can remembering asking for anything is this weekend when my beloved sister who along with her husband have offered "whatever you need, whenever!" was asked by me to fund a book I desperately wanted for her family, the price of coffee and a plain bagle, Septa fare of $4.00, and $10 for a new watch battery. Over all that time Love / God through Her instruments large and small have "seen" the need and provided with no request of any kind from me:
* five months of food
* warm clothes
* shelter agains extreme weather
* transportation as required
* assistance with the campaign - blogging, promotion, networking...
* new posters ($130)
PLEASE PONDER THESE TWO EXAMPLES: [TO BE CONTINUED]
I posted this title yesterday. Since 10:15am this morning I've been sponging free wi-fi and coffee refils off of Panera bread while my Phila family does their retail business. Panera is a pretty upscale, sophisticated clientelle.
45 minutes ago the manager came over to my table. One might have expected a bit of irritation at a "sponger," "wierdo" in an orange sweatshirt with a TATTO ON HIS HEAD!
The manager is maybe 25. A big, handsome fella. Slight baby face. Strong people skills. Well suited to managing a pretty big, prestigeous business like this.
Well, he did come over because of the tattoo. HE WANTED TO TALK JESUS. And we did for about 20 minutes. No hold barred. He was pleased and excited by the tattoo. He knows scripture 100 times better than me. Obvously he is not nearly as radical as me, but he is a genuine seeker - not a dogmatist.
If you and I were sitting together at this moment within feet of one another and I was bouncing, shaking, jerking, rising, falling... you'd be pretty concerned and freaked out! In fact, under conditions that we in this sick society consider "normal" I too would be freaked out!
Unless we were sitting together in a raft going down Class 5 Rapids. You would not be freaked out because of course you could see that I was being acted upon by forces way beyond my control (unless I chose to steer over to the bank and got on dry land).
Well, not Class 5 Rapids have I thrown myself on, but rather the ultimate force of Jesus / God / Love / Life. RESULTS INCLUDE:
- My hair is extremely long.
- My clothes are border getto / sloppy.
- Homeless, pennyless living on the street.
- The tattoo!??!? Oh my.
You who know me know that I am a pretty observant, sensative guy. You who do not know me can somewhat assume this when you consider that my livelyhood (pretty big bucks) has depended on such traits - executive management, sales, retail.... Well, these characteristics have only improved and using them I'll report that since the tattoo, clothes, hair... what encounters I've had these have not yet been any sort of negative! Yes, it is possible that they have prevented encounters that otherwise would have happened; AND DOUBLESS THIS WILL BE THE CASE AS MONTHS AND YEARS GO ON! But those are by definition encounters I don't have time for now, and for the role I need to play on earth, I never will have time for (See post: STARTING A MOVEMENT? EXCLUDE THE MASSES!!!!!!!!).
- And, would there have been a sectional front page big spread, highly favorable article in the Washington Post (A Hunger For Justice - washingtonpost.com) if I had NOT had these new, abnormal attributes? WITH 2 HUGE PICTURES? WITH FEATURING ON THEIR WEB PAGE?
- And would the Panera manager have come over for an important, Sacred encounter?
- Would a handful of the finest young souls imaginable, real Truth seekers, have at significant effort made and maintained contact with me?
- Would a woman in Camden on the bus have come and sat next to me having seen the tattoo to ask about it, smile, and deeply enjoy the encounter?
- Would several of the most heroic activists in the world be deeply in support of my efforts (Ellen, Thomas, Dianne, Anne).
It proves nothing, but I find it more than an interesting comparison:
MatthewChapter 11 6 Jesus began to speak to the crowds about John, "What did you go out to the desert to see? A reed swayed by the wind? 8 Then what did you go out to see? Someone dressed in fine clothing? Those who wear fine clothing are in royal palaces. 9 Then why did you go out? To see a prophet? 7 Yes, I tell you, and more than a prophet. 10 This is the one about whom it is written: 'Behold, I am sending my messenger ahead of you; he will prepare your way before you.' 11 Amen, I say to you, among those born of women there has been none greater than John the Baptist....
- Marines are a specialized role. They do not look "normal" except in the context of being a Marine.
- Bouncers do not look normal, except in the context of their jobs.
- M.D.'s are usually in scrubs and nurses in uniforms.
Start Loving is a would be Saviour.
That Panera manager just came back and we talked Jesus for another 20 minutes. :-)
"What do you think Jesus, our Brother, or God our Father will examine us regarding when they are deciding whether for us it is Heaven or Hell? From your site in my reading last night it seems you believe They will focus on what we believed - whether we ascribed to the right dogmatic beliefs [professing Resurrection, "Son of God," etc]. Do you think God and Jesus are gamers? Are they so narrow, bored, twisted, sadistic... that you think they have set up some sort of Beliefs Obstacle Course and if you obey the right few rules, recite the correct Dogma, have the right few "beliefs" you win; otherwise hell forever. Come on folks, that is Satan! Satan would do that.
God is our Father/Mother. Jesus is our Master and Brother. They love us. They don't need anything from us. Like all good Family they only WANT FOR us.
They want us to LOVE OUR BROTHERS AS OUR SELF, for our Joy of it, for the Kingdom Coming of it. This, THIS is the only thing they will discuss with us, examine us regarding as to our destination of Heaven or Hell. 'Did you love your brother as yourself? Did you do unto the least of these All that you would have them do unto you,' THIS is all they will discuss with us.
To decide anything else from Jesus words is to decide again that He is a trickster, with an enormous ego that wants to be amused and flattered by watching us writhe around trying to guess what He wants to please / pleasure Him. If that is what they are, God and Jesus, I'll take their Hell any day.
But that is not them. The are pure love for us as Father / Brother / Mother / Master. Like all such, they want Heaven on Earth for us that as they promised is guaranteed: THY KINGDOM COMES AS THY WILL IS DONE. Doing Their will as best we can imagine it for the least of these their family...
1. Gives the doer complete Joy, Peace, Love, Life exactly as Jesus promised;
2. Moves the material world in the direction of what our Father's Kingdom here should be - Perfect Brotherhood.
Your always Loving brother, Start
Matthew 6 25"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life[b]?
Probably for every person that goes hang-gliding (wind surfing, parasailing, parachuting, skiing, mountain climbing, whitewater rafting...) 1,000 thrill to the idea because their nervous system resonates positively, but do not try it for a variety of related reasons: too dangerous, too scary, too hard, too weird.... They just cannot imagine doing it themselves: deficient VISION, IMAGINATION, COURAGE, PSYCHOLOGICAL HEALTH... and yes, maybe physical, financial or moral reasons!
Hay START!!!!!!!! to the point please!!!! Hmmmm.
FOLLOWING LOVE / LIFE / JOY (JESUS / GOD) IS LIKE THESE OTHER "DANGEROUS," "TERRIFYING" ACTIVITIES. IT REQUIRES TREMENDOUS VISION, IMAGINATION, COURAGE, PSYCHOLOGICAL HEALTH!
WHY? BECAUSE FOLLOWING JESUS / GOD DEFIES ALL THE COMFORT-ZONE ISSUES OF THE FLESH / BODY / SELFISHNESS!!!
BUT I AM DOING IT NOW, FOR MONTHS NOW (and really pretty extremely for going on 12 years now). OH MY GOD, IT IS AWESOME:
- It looks like you will literally starve, but you do not. You have everything you need!!!!!!!!!
- It looks like your life will consist of misery, but it is nothing but Joy / Life / Love every second. Yes, and Agony (but in the background).
- It looks like you will be alone, but you have true family / friends in abundance for the first time, or to an extreme for the first time.
- It looks like you are leaving behind the ability to impact the world (no resources, transportation, technology, connections...) but actually you gain participation in / partnership with Life / Love - GOD - the greatest power in the universe!
Why would I lie about this? THERE IS NOTHING FOR ME TO GAIN SELFISHLY BY LYING TO YOU.
Well duh, but for me only within recent days is this scripture coming alive for me. It is coming alive as I watch / experience the results of various encounters I have with folks as they encounter what is up with my walk / path / Life:
* Someone says after asking what I need: "Oh, I'll bring you water!," and then never comes back. SEED ON THE PATH.
* Another says: "I'll be back!" and is, once, and never again." SEED ON THE ROCKY SOIL.
* Another says: "Wow, this guy might be the most courageous guy, Jesus following guy, I've ever heard of!" But their friends say different and contact ends. SEED AMONG THE THORNS.
* Another says (though their behavior): "What an irritating jerk!" And then brings water and whatever is needed every day, day after day." SEED ON FERTILE SOIL.
And there are many cases I am experiencing and recognizing in these four categories as the days go on.
How long will we choose Hell by ignoring the directions to Heaven that Jesus gave us?
As always in my life of recent years, I'm doing stuff led by Love (God) and therefore my Head can't make sense of what I am doing till quite a bit afterward. This occurs almost daily - beginning to realize way after the fact what sense there is in this or that decision that I've made or path that I've been walking.
That Jesus somehow Ransomed our Lives and Redeemed us is written of in the Bible.
Now this is beginning to make sense to me as I see what Love / Life / Truth (God) has me doing.
THE ONLY WAY TO ESTABLISH THE PRICE / VALUE OF SOMETHING AND TO ACQUIRE IT IS TO PAY THE PRICE WHEN NECESSARY / REQUIRED. THERE IS NO OTHER WAY. RIGHT? A PHYSICAL IMPOSSIBILITY; OR AT LEAST VIOLATING THIS TRUISM IS AN EXTREME IMPRACTICALITY. [In other words how to you establish the fact of extreme Love / Unconditional Love without - SHOWING COMPLETE, UNCONDITIONAL LOVE; THE EXISTENCE OF GOD.]
The point?!?!?! To show us how desperately important it is to purchase our lives back from Selfishness / Lust / Flesh in order to return us to the health of our "home" state / condition of Love / Life / Joy... Jesus had to PAY THE PRICE / REDEEM US / RANSOM US - BY GIVING HIS LIFE FOR US.
Well, the price (ransom, redemption) in such matters does not have to be either set or paid in 100% of the transactions. (Ahh, that this were true in the purchase of AIDS drugs for example; that we could purchase one prescription and then get refills for a lifetime!) But it DOES have to be done (Set, Paid) in some %: 1%? 10%? For example, for a child to truly know that his/her parent loves them to the extreme, the parent does not need to surmount an emergency out of love for them every hour. But it probably does need to happen several times within the child's youth!
We shouldn't need a Jesus in our lives sacrificing His life for us to the extreme every day or year. But WAY MORE THAN ONCE EVERY 2,000 YEARS IS NEEDED!!!!
[Start, you are rambling!] Hmmm. I'm called to BE Ransom, the price of Redemption... for Chester children, Darfur.... and maybe many causes in the future. And, YOU are AT A MINIMUM called by Love / God to be the price Ransom / Redemption for some Loved one(s) in your life in an obvious emergency.
ALL HUMAN BEINGS FORTUNATE ENOUGH TO ATTAIN RELATIVELY FULL PSYCHOLOGICAL HEALTH (a tiny minority of us in today's ultimately TOXIC CULTURE tragically) are called to be Redemption / Ransom for Humanity pretty extremely as a mainstay of our lives until the planet begins to get back on track.
By the way, being called to a life of extreme Redemption / Ransom within the realm of Joy / Love / Life is the equivalent of winning the $1 billion Lottery in the world of Selfishness / Flesh / Mammon. Life does not get better than this.
[I hope you stayed with this post. Sorry I couldn't do better with it. Yet.]
"I will admit but one tyrant in my life, the still small voice within," Gandhi.
If I am inebriated out of my mind, hit by a car, bleeding to death on the side of the road, an MD walks by and in my stupor I yell that I do NOT want help, what is the moral / humane responsibility of the M.D.? She, the M.D. is obligated by her independence, knowledge, ability and humanity to help, TO DIAGNOSE THE NEED AND ACT TO HER BEST ABILITY, DESPITE MY STATED WISHES.
YOU ARE IN NO DIFFERENT OF A POSITION. You can never defer your responsibility to another. If you defer to the desires, wishes, judgement of another, including your dearest (spouse, child, parent...) THAT IS YOUR RESPONSIBILITY.
YOU AND ME must always judge what is best for our brothers and sisters and to act accordingly, exactly as the M.D. is obligated to do. We can never escape this.
We must keep ourselves before (what we can imagine or pretend of an all knowing, all Loving) God as judge of what we do.
Clearly God will never accept from me or you, "Well Father, I did it because it is what so-and-so wanted!"
Pretty lame, huh?
Even in death, even after our individual death, our life will go on influencing everyone that was influenced by us in life, and everyone and everything that they influence.
This is an awesome, wonderful opportunity.
YOUR LIFE HAS MEANING. You cannot escape this. What will the meaning be for your "dearest," for "the least of these," etc, etc....
"Never think that an individual cannot change the world. It is the only thing that ever has," Start Loving.
What this situation proves is that Joy (that comes from advancing the life of "the least of these" - her baby in my example) trumps Pleasure ($10 trillion). THIS IS ROOTED IN OUR DNA.
What I give my life to lead people to is - all waking hours experiencing Joy / Life / Truth fully. Experience of Joy / Life / Truth happens with certainty, and only happens at all when one keeps theirself, acting from from their heart Heart / Soul, in the service of "the least of these (their baby, Darfuries, Palestinians, inner city youth....)" When the nervous system senses that service of "the least of these" is happening, the chemical cocktail Joy is released. Unlike the cocktail "pleasure" the Joy cocktail can flow with undiminished effect the waking part of 24/7 X 100 years!!!!!!!!!!!!
If you keep my commandments, you will remain in my love, just as I have kept my Father's commandments and remain in his love. I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and [that] your joy may be complete. (Jn. 15:9-11)
The next times I recall hearing "witness" was from the God-send of a writer of the Washington Post article Start Loving, Day 64 Sudan Embassy Hunger Strike (A Hunger For Justice : Darfur Becomes One Man's Cause for Deprivation Delphine Schrank, C01 (Post) Washington Post, April 14, 2007). She frequently spoke of "witness" in conjunction with me.
Now, what I HAVE long associated with myself is Vision - seeing things that others don't: crucial situations, dire threats, enormous opportunities, paths toward achievement of those opportunities. I suspect that what these others have called "witness" corresponds closely to the capacity I seem to have for Vision.
I'm guessing that their word "witness" captures an aspect of behavior - the "witness" becomes a moral captive of what they have seen - knowledge is responsibility. The witness is obligated to act.
This is how I feel when a Vision developes within me and captivates me. Currently the Visions that captivate me are of:
- The easy and crucial Rescue and Restore of Darfur;
- The Redemption of our lost Humanity by the crying need of our Darfur family before so little Humanity is left on earth that entropy finishes us off;
- That "global family" must finally and immediately come to reign or it is game over for InHumane earth;
- That Heaven on Earth is immediately available to each and any person that dedicates themself to being "family" to all of Humanity.
Now, it is quite significant to me - because it has become concrete and clear for me that it is absolutely and completely true.
We choose the Kingdom in which we reside. The vast majority of us select the Kingdom of Selfishness / Evil. This kingdom is a cesspool of pleasure, completely devoid of Joy, Life, Love, Peace, Hope, future.
Jesus died to get us to choose His Father's Kingdom - THE HEART - Love, Life, Joy, Truth, Peace, Hope, Future. I live there now pretty much. IT IS THE ONLY KINGDOM, the only place to Live. It is the greatest power in the universe- Love, Truth, Life ARE God - the all powerful. This is the Kingdom / Life of Glory, there is no other.
Then it would seem you do not have a family to you. This is quite endurable, but profoundly tragic.
Oh God, we must "wake up and see we are all family;" Start Loving.
Yes of course you are always a family to all.
Every week maybe two marvelous young souls find me. They don't have a chance. Who will encourage their Humanity? Who will shelter, encourage, train, teach, labor with them? They are completely at the mercy of the Beast - the US military industrial complex.
There is no hope until this changes. We must become the Church in fact, not name. We must protect our "children" from otherwise certain death.
Today for example a group of DC university student "activists" had a meeting with the Sudan Embassy Ambassador ostensibly to convince him to end the genocide. There were about 20 0f them. Most arrived late. Their attire, posture and demeanor said, "F--- man, kill the dude's if you want, I've gotta go party." Shorts, headphones, late, casual, jocular....
Oh my God, these children are walking corpses / consumers. They are screwed into The Matrix and loving it. Never has the status quo devoured our young at such an early stage in their lives. This is the mark of the Beast; a precurser of the end-times.
No matter what the circumstances, the worst betrayal will always be to subordinate ourselves to this Apparatus, and to trample underfoot, in its service, all human values in ourselves and in others..." Reflections on War, Simone Weil
Complete quote: "But the impotence one feels today—an impotence we should never consider permanent—does not excuse one from remaining true to oneself, nor does it excuse capitulation to the enemy, what ever mask he may wear. Whether the mask is labeled fascism, democracy, or dictatorship of the proletariat, our great adversary remains The Apparatus—the bureaucracy, the police, the military. Not the one facing us across the frontier or the battle lines, which is not so much our enemy as our brothers’ enemy, but the one that calls itself our protector and makes us its slaves. No matter what the circumstances, the worst betrayal will always be to subordinate ourselves to this Apparatus, and to trample underfoot, in its service, all human values in ourselves and in others."
Start, how can it be so simple? Trivial but apt analogy: You have 10,000 numbers to add; how can it be so simple as turning on a computer with Excel spreadsheet software?!??!
The Heart is God (Love, Life, Truth) - the all-powerful. The Heart is what is wise enought, strong enough, courageous enough, miraculous enough to create Heaven on Earth.