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3.13.2010

Ellen's house, a Godsend to my work; becoming even more of a Miracle?

When I started this work in DC, years ago now, I didn't expect to survive
more than a few months.  I was, and remain ENTIRELY, AND TOTALLY unwilling
to divert energy, ANY OF MY ENERGY, from the neediest of Our Family, to my
own survival.  But here I am.  Thomas was the first to reach out, years ago,
with sandwiches he placed on the bench where I'd sleep sitting up all night
on vigil for Darfur.  There they'd be when I awoke.  :-|

Then he, with Ellen's approval, brought me in to their base of operations so there would
be a roof over my work for Darfur.

Even after Thomas' passing I've been blessed by Ellen,
and another benefactor of the house, with a bed
and a public space where I can sleep and work when not on my daily
shifts at the White House vigil.  I'll do my work living in the streets when
that is what Our Father wants, but my productivity certainly has been
infinitely higher in the space I've had in Ellen's house.

BUT MAYBE NOW MY PRODUCTIVITY WAS JUST PROVIDED A MASSIVE ADDED
BOOST!!!!  At least for the moment I've just been afforded a more secluded
room in the house.  The house is busy, circumstances are such that
there are frequent interruptions so far in this room... but in the last week I've had two 5 hour
or so uninterrupted blocks of solitude for my work.  MY STRESS LEVEL HAS
GONE DOWN BY HALF, IT SEEMS.  This room supports a 2nd computer, so
I just purchased one on CraigsList, a 2004 $85 job, but it works.  With
it and the laptop Ellen and the other benefactor provided me, by keeping both
loaded down with my video processing, etc, MAJOR BOTTLENECKS
ON MY YOUTUBE WORK HAVE BEEN LIFTED!  I feel like one feels when they've
maybe had emphysema, didn't know they had it, but were just put on
OXYGEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Life!

I never count on something like this lasting, not for an hour, not for a second. 
That is Our Father's business, not mine.  But oh my Goodness, the two glimpses of
solitude, space and technical capacity I've had since this recent room change ARE OF AN EVEN
GREATER GOD-SEND.  Maybe.  We'll see.

SL dying in prison - Starts this Monday in Federal Court?

I am not worried or concerned.  Our Father's Will be done.  But you few
I've copied, I feel I owe such a "heads up," as this.

The several premonitions I've had like this before have come to pass -
For 5 years or so now it has seemed inevitable to me that I will die
in prison.  This doesn't trouble me.  It has never been a nightmare for
me, literally; never a cold sweat; never an elevated pulse (hmmmm, except
the adrenalin from an expected conflict).  I suspect it will come to pass in time,
but maybe it is just an acute clarity of how society's ways and mine are anti-matter
and matter - mutually annihilating.  Some of you have personally encountered
how stubborn I can be on what seems Important.  :-)  :-(  Standing as close
to the Truth as I do now will likely get me killed, one way, or another - exposure,
starvation, prison, murder....  He certainly does NOT want me by natural causes
just yet, having saved me from two near, might have been fatal near-car hit's last week -
neither my fault.  What am I rambling about?  This essay grasps the macro-physics-
reality that seems to have me (thank God) and society (thanks to unopposed
Satan / Evil / dEvil), in its grasp:  

THE MEANING OF THIS HOUR, ABRAHAM J. HESCHEL
The single most sacred essay I've ever encountered.

Monday, I've been subpoenad to appear in FEDERAL court.  No, nothing I've done,
yet.  As a witness.  Late fall, early winter, as I ever sooooooooooooo
vvvvvaaggguuueeeellllllyyyyyyyy recall, upon returning about 11pm from
my evening shift in the Park, in front of Ellen's house was a police cruiser(s),
group of officers, and someone being arrested (I'm pretty sure, I never
looked to see, as I recall).  There was a fence slat missing that I'd not
noticed missing before and a police woman, seeing me approach the house
asked if I lived there.  I said I did - I respect, and cooperate with the
police, IF and WHEN they operate within their job.  ('The only group in this
country I have any respect for is our men and women in uniform - they are
the only group that puts their life on the line for others,' I say to folks
every day at the Park.  Gandhi felt similarly.)

She explained that the person they were arresting had pulled the slat off
to attack them with, and that he (?) had done similar things ever so many
times, and that it would be a great kindness to HIM if I "witnessed" that
the slat was from the fence and it had repair worth that I set at $100 or
so.   The vaguest of recollections.  I DISTINCTLY recall the impression that
my "witnessing" that night  WAS ABSOLUTELY THE LAST I'D HEAR OF THIS!
Last week the subpoena arrived.

I gave them my name, the only name I'm known by in DC - Start Loving.
On prior arrests - Pentagon, White House... I've thought to give my old
name as well, but this time, it absolutely never even occurred to me -
I was doing her, the officer, and the person being arrested a "favor!"

Will I be jailed for giving the Feds a "false" name tomorrow?  What DID I witness
to?  I gave it almost no thought at the time, so I CERTAINLY don't recall now!
I'm required to bring ID.  I HAVE NO ID, refusing to have such under Bush.
What if what I can testify to now is in opposition to what I testified to
then?  I'LL NOT LIE.  I'll be sworn to "tell the whole truth, and nothing
but the truth, so help me God."  AND THIS I'LL DO.  This is where I expect
they'll get me, cuz I AM IN CONTEMPT OF OUR IN-HUMANE "LEGAL" SYSTEM.
I'LL NOT, NOT, NOT, NOT REFER TO SOME OVER-PRIVILEGED WHITE GUY,
OR WHATEVER, AS "YOUR HONOR."  ETC, ETC, ETC.

"Contempt of Court" - is this how the end will start for me?  Cuz, I AM TOTALLY in
contempt of a system that incarcerates 2 million poor folks in this country.
Gandhi was asked - 'What do you think if Western Civilization?'  He
responded - 'I think it would be a good idea.'  He wasn't kidding.  Neither
am I.  Neither was Heschel (above).

3.11.2010

Refusing to Leave Heaven EQUALS Refusal to Leave the Neediest." SL

Refusing to Leave Heaven

EQUALS

Refusal to Leave the Neediest.

This is the Truth of Human Psychology"  SL

"Living, Leading, Peace Making equals Generating Universal Love. Period." SL

"Living,
Leading,
Peace Making

EQUALS

Generating
Universal Love. Period."  SL

I've been working  toward this evolution of clarity on
Leadership, my core interest, hope, competency
for a decade and a half now.

Hmmmm, a 15 year pregnancy is loooooonnnnggggggggggg!

3.07.2010

SL, 25 yr computer exec: "The purpose of automation is to take salaries of the poor for the rich."

SL, 25 yr computer exec:
"The purpose of automation is to take salaries of the poor for the rich."

NO!  I didn't see it that way.

NO!  I'm not saying it is an explicit plot.  CANCER is not an explicit plot.
Both kill.

BOYCOTT AUTOMATION.  PATRONIZE PLACES THAT EMPLOY PEOPLE
INSTEAD OF MACHINES OF THE RICH.