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6.02.2012

Day 38 Holding. Friends, IMPORTANT - Planning from here forward of Death Fast

I'm holding on day 38, taking half ration calories so I can think again, and finish book 2, and maybe replan.

I expected zero interest, as that is what I've had on every campaign since the Darfur campaign 5 years ago.  Yet:

*  The world's leading activist, Diane Wilson, endorsed the book 1, "Global Warming's Death. Fast.", and by implication, applauded the Death Fast weapon.

*  There has been interest, from my friends and Family in Occupy DC since day 1, AND IT SEEMS TO BE MATURING, AS ACTIVISTS SHOW RAPID MATURING, BY THE DAY.

*  Hope and Brian have really invested themselves near full-time on getting up to speed on the details of the campaign, issues... approaching true partnership.  Two others are showing some inclinations to move in that direction as well.

*  There has been an international article, thanks Brian, LA Times, and also Chicago Trib, Vancouver, International Hispanic....

*  Hope penetrated Earth Policy Institute and they took an endorsing stand - Lester Brown's group, Plan B 3.0.

*  It appears that with fiery passion, clear vision, deep wisdom and humanity, someone is near joining the Death Fast, but with a question about optimal timing....


What does this mean for the current Death Fast?  I don't know yet.  I'd rather not decide in a vaccuum, but this is way to advanced for input from those that are not yet equipped, in my view.

Book 2, Resurrecting the Insanely Humane Unviolent Warrior in You - a Personal Trainer, is soon to be completed.  It is a much more challenging book to write, and to use, than the first, so it is going slower than I anticipated, but coming along well.  It so happens, that anyone that reads it in DETAIL, and uses the tool a few times deeply, would in my eyes, be qualified to provide useful input to me as to what Loving should do now to best serve humanity - A.  Resume the Death Fast when the book is written (the current 80% probability), or B.  Consider leveraging the points above and moving from this Death Fast, into recruiting mode for one to begin in about 6 months?  or C. ?

As soon as the book 2 is sent to you in a better edited draft from me than book 1, 2-4 days from now, I'll resume the Death Fast, currently holding at day 38.  But I'll be plenty lucid for another 3-6 days for review of incoming major issue/suggestion edits from EACH of you I pray, and for those who do so, and who indicate that they are seriously using the Trainer, I'll invite them to submit input/join in a discussion of how Loving, and the Death Fast, should go forward.

Loving



Friends, IMPORTANT - Planning from here forward of Death Fast

I'm holding on day 38, taking half ration calories so I can think again, and finish book 2, and maybe replan.

I expected zero interest, as that is what I've had on every campaign since the Darfur campaign 5 years ago.  Yet:

*  The world's leading activist, Diane Wilson, endorsed the book 1, "Global Warming's Death. Fast.", and by implication, applauded the Death Fast weapon.

*  There has been interest, from my friends and Family in Occupy DC since day 1, AND IT SEEMS TO BE MATURING, AS ACTIVISTS SHOW RAPID MATURING, BY THE DAY.

*  Hope and Brian have really invested themselves near full-time on getting up to speed on the details of the campaign, issues... approaching true partnership.  Two others are showing some inclinations to move in that direction as well.

*  There has been an international article, thanks Brian, LA Times, and also Chicago Trib, Vancouver, International Hispanic....

*  Hope penetrated Earth Policy Institute and they took an endorsing stand - Lester Brown's group, Plan B 3.0.

*  It appears that with fiery passion, clear vision, deep wisdom and humanity, someone is near joining the Death Fast, but with a question about optimal timing....


What does this mean for the current Death Fast?  I don't know yet.  I'd rather not decide in a vaccuum, but this is way to advanced for input from those that are not yet equipped, in my view.

Book 2, Resurrecting the Insanely Humane Unviolent Warrior in You - a Personal Trainer, is soon to be completed.  It is a much more challenging book to write, and to use, than the first, so it is going slower than I anticipated, but coming along well.  It so happens, that anyone that reads it in DETAIL, and uses the tool a few times deeply, would in my eyes, be qualified to provide useful input to me as to what Loving should do now to best serve humanity - A.  Resume the Death Fast when the book is written (the current 80% probability), or B.  Consider leveraging the points above and moving from this Death Fast, into recruiting mode for one to begin in about 6 months?  or C. ?

As soon as the book 2 is sent to you in a better edited draft from me than book 1, 2-4 days from now, I'll resume the Death Fast, currently holding at day 38.  But I'll be plenty lucid for another 3-6 days for review of incoming major issue/suggestion edits from EACH of you I pray, and for those who do so, and who indicate that they are seriously using the Trainer, I'll invite them to submit input/join in a discussion of how Loving, and the Death Fast, should go forward.

Loving

1000 on Death Fast. Is the fastest road to that: A, or B.

Till enough are seen dying for it Global Warming won't stop.  This is the answer.

The question, how to make that happen the fastest.

1000 on Death Fast. Is the fastest road to that:

A.  Loving's Death Now as a tool for others to use to fan the flames?

B.  Loving and others (???) recruiting, promoting, full time, beginning soon, traveling (???) for a larger restart, here in front of the Embassy, in, oh, say, January?

This is a question that has recently been raised to me.  It is somewhat rhetorical, but, if there were any deeply responsible thoughts that any of you had, I'd be open to hearing them.

Loving

I've just stepped back, 1st time, to look at Book 2 - Resurrecting Potent Activism

I've just stepped back, 1st time, to look at Book 2 - Resurrecting the Insanely Humane Warrior in you... a Personal Trainer.  (Title still in flux).

I was worried as I began to do so, too long?  Missed the point? 

Bulls-eye.  

I can only think of two person that are at all likely to use it every day, to be what the world needs them to be, but I think of another two who I know that just may, and over time, there may be others.  Everything now depends on moving from 1 in a million of us that are Insanely Humane Warriors, to 2 in a million, 3... and those wanna-bees that learn of this book will be accelerated at light speed by it. 

What others do is not my business, just what I do, and in finishing this Personal Trainer I will have provided what nowhere else exists, a Personal Trainer capable of condensing what took me decades to learn and become, onto weeks and months.

The slightly updated first pages attached.  The draft of the rest - I can't tell - tomorrow?  Monday?   Tuesday?  I can't tell how long it will take me to pull it all together.

Loving

Death Fast Day 39 - partial hold till book are done

Unless I consume moderate calories the books will not get done.

The books must get done. 

I'll be taking roughly half rations, about 800 calories per day until the books are done.  Weight loss will continue, but moderated, and my mind and strength should stay sharp and strong enough to finish.

Loving

6.01.2012

Headed into Exhaustian, Very Fragile mode. Need your compliance.

Headed into Exhaustion, Very Fragile mode.  Need your compliance.

Dozens, and dozens, and dozens of times throughout my life I've executed missions successfully exactly like this one, just different.  It is territory I know like the back of my hand.

You may think that now I need lots of support, and that is true, but not what you think.  More than ever, with the exception of Brian, Hope, and one other who has committed in an important way to partner in the campaign, and will visit with me Sunday, I need SPACE, that you have acceded to in recent days.  

My energy, powers of focus, etc are waning, but that's par for the course.  IF you continue to comply with my wishes and allow the uninterrupted seclusion I need, I'll be able to do my part. 

I will not allow interference with the mission, especially now that I'm entering a very very depleted, fragile zone for me.

As Brian and Hope know, I am TOTALLY available to the press, serious interviews, potential Death Fasters - and entirely functional in that regard.  That's the point, what I have left WILL complete the books, and WILL meet the needs of the mission, and I'll not allow that to be interfered with.

BTW, I dragged all my stuff up hill just now to a power outlet so I can recharge and complete working on the book.  Expect to be back on site by 1 or 2 am Sat am.

BTW, Finnis newspaper, 800000 readers, came for a photo shoot, 30 min today.

ALSO, a Canadian woman stopped by, is doing my portrait, said the story is in the Vancouver Press.  Thanks Brian.

Loving you all

Day 38 Death Fast status report

Audio on 21 of the previously uploaded video logs was incapable of being electronically transcribed, and I just don't have the speed, and strength, if I ever did, to manually transcribe them all  So I re-shot all 21 this morning, argh, and they are uploading now, and the transcriptions are moving ahead. 

It seems that despite my best efforts, not  ;) winking, I haven't totally done my part yet of driving everyone away.  Thank goodness. Not totally anyway, yet.  John, of Occupy DC, the one of strong heart, unwillingness to turn away from decency no matter what, brought me electrolytes and some other equipment I'll need as the end draws near here.  A number of you have sent encouraging emails while affirming recognition, as John did, my need for total solitude to finish the books, granting me the freedom to not reply.  Thank you, friends and Family.

I'm very tired.  I'm very weak.  I'm very, very, very thankful for this mission.  This is why I was born.  I knew it, from my earliest memories, not the exact 'what,' but the nature and magnitude of it.  I knew I was here to try to help, all of humanity.  To many I've appeared crazy for decades.  I knew what I was called to race toward, hopefully, in time.  Ultimately, this was it, tho I've done a lot of other important, consequential, large magnitude good along the way.  But this Death Fast, these books, ultimately this is why I was put on Earth.  I've been preparing, and I am fully, Joyfully, ably, capably ready to do my final parts. Thank the Creator.  Inexpressible joy and gratitude to be doing my part.

But I can't do anyone else's. 

And humanity is irredeemably doomed if others don't join.  Now. Forever.


5.31.2012

Status Update - Death Fast Day 36 - Canadian Embassy, DC

Thank the Creator, with the exception of maybe an hour or so per day, I remain sharp and sufficiently strong, uh, barely.

Thanks to friends at Occupy DC I've made it to day 37 relatively in tact, funcitonal, and I'm fairly sure now, able to get the books completed sufficiently. Wouldn't have been possible without them.  But I'm operating now at about 50% of normal capacity, haven't a fraction of the powers of focus I've enjoyed throughout my life, hence I've placed myself in isolation so the work can get finished.

Thanks to Brian, and a good hearted soul at my preferred US Newspaper, an article appeared yesterday in the LA Times - http://www.latimes.com/news/nation/nationnow/la-na-nn-hunger-striker-20120530,0,4694549,full.story . Despite the astonishing riggor, wisdom, discipline of this wonderful writer, I'm gussing editors removed much from his story that is what the Death Fast is really about, to make it more like all the others, so you can't learn much about it, other than the dates and stuff, from the article. But all that matters on Earth right now, is that if there are 1000 people in the US that Love Humanity more than they Love their own life, that they come and join the Death Fast, now.  And they can't very well do that if they don't know of it, so this LA Times article is a Godsend, thanks to Brian and the writer.  THANK YOU.

Thanks to Hope, my sister from California, coming here soon to help hands on, Lester Brown, Plan B 3.0 has given a postitive mention on their site (?) - See end of this email.  HUGE HOPE!

The Book 2, inspired by my glimmerings of hope for Occupy DC, that they can grow to be a hope for themselves and for their world, the transcriptions should be finished today - a Draft 1 should be forthcoming tomorrow.  I PRAY, IF THERE REMAINS ANYONE I'VE NOT YET TOTALLY DRIVEN AWAY, that you immediately read the draft and provide top level comments, major suggestions, major input.  Use Word revisions if you have it, and if not, just make the comments, suggestions, changes in the text and two 'compare' programs should be able to find them.

The first several pages are attached.  Please read them, now.  Send any comments with a clear subject line about the book, pls.

I have an electricity arrangement with a local store from whom I picked up bread for the homeless, for years.  I can quickly walk up with a dead laptop, leave it to charge, while I return and use the other. Last night I was being interviewed by Occupy I (?)  and missed their close time so I bundled up all my stuff (leaving the water, HEAVY, under a bench, and went to an outdoor receptical elsewhere in the city. Was back by midnight).

Have placed myself in total seclusion for as many days as it takes until the book is done.  I've requested no visitors but the press, anyone doing interviews, interested 1st time visitors, or either of the two  individuals (one coming now from California) that I've named elsewhere, that have repeatedly shown devotion to the mission of the Death Fast. in whole, and in detail, have gotten themselves up to speed, are staying in lockstep with me, with great and obviously necessary discipline and care.  This BECAUSE I love you all, and must get this work done for you; and because the integrity, consistency, focus, Heart of this Death Fast must be protected and carried forward.  Yes, I make no assumption you or anyone will ever read or use what I'm offering you.in the 2nd book  But that's not my business.  Making it available to you, is.

I've also announced that until the books are done, I'm reading emails only from the two that have stepped up as emerging partners for the Death Fast, or from the press, etc.

Ok, back to work.

--------- Plan B 3.0 ---------------

Hi Hope,
 
Not sure what you plan to do with our comment, but here is our comment, which you can attribute to Lester Brown.
 
Fasting is an historically valuable way to draw attention to a cause. Religious and national leaders have either fasted or called on their nations to fast and pray for healing, such as Mahatma Gandhi and President Abraham Lincoln. Women fasted for the right to vote. Start Loving's hunger strike is drawing attention to our need to shift from environmentally destructive fossil fuels, in particular the tar sands in Canada, to clean renewable energy. We at the Earth Policy Institute admire his courageous effort.
 
Best,
 
Reah Janise Kauffman
Vice President
 
 
From: EPI
Sent: Tuesday, May 29, 2012 7:42 AM
To: Reah Janise Kauffman
Subject: FW: Death Hunger Strike in support of 3.0






5.29.2012

I have a confession.

I've been fighting alone, against impossible odds, for humanity, as best I knew how, my entire adulthood, and winning way more than my share.

I can fight alone, forever.  I have, I will. 

But I am totally unable to fight on two fronts, especially when the new front is on what I thought was my side, and for days now, my fault, no one elses, I've been trying to fight on multiple fronts last few days.

No more.  Enough.  Finished, as of now.

I've just f*cked up on this campaign for the first time.  I'm on day 35, I'm told, not 34. I'm exhausted, weak, depleted.  But make no mistake, I can and will do my part. 

But from now on, anyone, regardless of motive, regardless how nice or well intended or understandable, anyone wanting to talk to me about other than how to win this, now, how they can help, based on what I've already been clear on, will receive zero attention from me. ZERO.  Anyone that sees a way to help, I think you are crazy if you don't, help every young person you know, by helping this.  Frickin join it.  But if you want to talk about me, me stopping - go talk to someone else, cuz I won't.

I just flipped the 1 finger salute to the two most disgusting, sneering, filthy guys in a Mercedes, with a camera, just scum.  I don't regret it 1 bit. If it appears all over the internet, you won't like it, but I stand with the truth, and I gave them the truth.  And the 1 in a million, the 1000 we need to join this now, they won't be dissuaded one spec. Nothing else matters.

I'm sorry if this isn't clear, but it is the best I can do.

Loving you all

Partial Playlist - Resurrecting the INSHE Unviolent Warrior in You (INSanely HumanE)

ps: Fw: Status Update. Death Fast Day 34

ps:  Just whining, looking for sympathy, or maybe just sharing.  Wow, on top of everything else, day 34, the heat and wind is really showing me how much resilience, flexibility, and reserves are totally gone now.  Must sprint on, hoping to be fast enough for book 2.  Desperately needing your read and comments when and if you get it, 2 days now, maybe.  I'm worried I won't finish.  Oh well.  Upsetting.

Loving

----- Forwarded Message -----
From: Start Loving <start_loving@yahoo.com>
To: Loving [Start] <start_loving@yahoo.com>
Sent: Tuesday, May 29, 2012 1:06 PM
Subject: Status Update. Death Fast Day 34

Friends, Family, fellow travelers,

Thanks to friends and Occupy DC, John, Johnny, Louise, Brian, Jesse...

Book 1 is complete, available, and final edits due for inclusion in a week.

Book 2 - video logs are 98% shot and uploading last 24 hours.  Whew!
"Resurecting the INSHE (INSanely HumanE) Unviolent Warrior in You - the Potent pre-1970's Activism."  A Personal Trainer.

Still praying on the LA Times article but nothing yet.  Brian, awesome attempt.

Hope did a God-send of a video that I sent to you yesterday.  Should fill some of the yearning that some of you folks have had for something simpler, more compact, and it IS targeted at the younger activists.

Tho the hospitalization on the 15th included no calories, as per my request, the massive blood work they did surely is in large part why I'm still so lucid, that, and the zero cal electrolytes many have kindly brought me, that I'm allowing myself so the books can get done.  Then just water from there out.

Two days ago I had a 2 hour period of mental decay that alerted me that time is running out in terms of acuity.

Hence, I'm sprinting alone now till the books are done, in terms of daily maintenance and operation. Thanks to my Occupy DC friends and family, they brought me to that point. We've found enough outlets around the embassy area that worst case, I can keep myself powered with only 6 hours per day at a coffee shop, outside powering, at night, and more likely, zero time away at all - shuttling one machine to a friendly coffee shop to charge while I drain the other.  Risky, cuz I'm not supposed to leave my stuff, but I don't abuse the effort, so I keep the trip away to 1-15 min  Should be fine.  I hope I can be forgiven the exclusion of normal contacts, so the work can get finished.

This way, I'm wearing myself out, but, uh, big deal.  The important thing is to leave these two books.

Some significant mental degradation again today, lack of sharpness, but not too severe.  It'll be ok.

I'm gussing that mortality is still 3-4 weeks away, but one can never tell with these things.  In an hour I could go blind.  It happens sometimes right around day 34, but never to me, yet.

Hoping for your understanding, and patience.

Loving


Status Update. Death Fast Day 34

Friends, Family, fellow travelers,

Thanks to friends and Occupy DC, John, Johnny, Louise, Brian, Jesse...

Book 1 is complete, available, and final edits due for inclusion in a week.

Book 2 - video logs are 98% shot and uploading last 24 hours.  Whew!
"Resurecting the INSHE (INSanely HumanE) Unviolent Warrior in You - the Potent pre-1970's Activism."  A Personal Trainer.

Still praying on the LA Times article but nothing yet.  Brian, awesome attempt.

Hope did a God-send of a video that I sent to you yesterday.  Should fill some of the yearning that some of you folks have had for something simpler, more compact, and it IS targeted at the younger activists.

Tho the hospitalization on the 15th included no calories, as per my request, the massive blood work they did surely is in large part why I'm still so lucid, that, and the zero cal electrolytes many have kindly brought me, that I'm allowing myself so the books can get done.  Then just water from there out.

Two days ago I had a 2 hour period of mental decay that alerted me that time is running out in terms of acuity.

Hence, I'm sprinting alone now till the books are done, in terms of daily maintenance and operation. Thanks to my Occupy DC friends and family, they brought me to that point. We've found enough outlets around the embassy area that worst case, I can keep myself powered with only 6 hours per day at a coffee shop, outside powering, at night, and more likely, zero time away at all - shuttling one machine to a friendly coffee shop to charge while I drain the other.  Risky, cuz I'm not supposed to leave my stuff, but I don't abuse the effort, so I keep the trip away to 1-15 min  Should be fine.  I hope I can be forgiven the exclusion of normal contacts, so the work can get finished.

This way, I'm wearing myself out, but, uh, big deal.  The important thing is to leave these two books.

Some significant mental degradation again today, lack of sharpness, but not too severe.  It'll be ok.

I'm gussing that mortality is still 3-4 weeks away, but one can never tell with these things.  In an hour I could go blind.  It happens sometimes right around day 34, but never to me, yet.

Hoping for your understanding, and patience.

Loving

5.28.2012

Loving, here. FOR GOD'S SAKE, GET THIS SEEN. Hope, has given us some Hope here.

Loving, here. FOR GOD'S SAKE, GET THIS SEEN.  Hope, has given us some Hope here.

5.27.2012

Day 32: Starting to fade. THANKS to those helping me finish my work

Hi, I don't sense mortality for weeks, but I do feel my physical stamina slipping, and my strength of mind, and it worries me in this race I'm running to get the 2nd book drafts done, and both 1 and 2 reasonably, crudely edited.  I'm making good progress on #2 so far, but the tough parts are ahead.  I think I'll last, I must, but it is a sprint.

From the bottom of my heart I thank those of you that:

1.  Are helping me run the race by keeping me in electrons.

2.  Understand, by  giving me space, equipment, patience and time.

Loving