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5.18.2013

***** to close Guantanamo Diane Wilson day 19 hunger strike at the White House .

5.17.2013

Could Supreme Court stall climate change regulations?

The EPA Could Lose Its Power to Fight Climate Change Before Using It. Atlantic wire.

http://m.theatlanticwire.com/global/2013/05/epa-could-lose-its-power-fight-climate-change-using-it/65354/

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I'd TREASURE your help now.... COMMENTS, SUGGESTIONS, ALTERNATES....?

In whatever weeks I likely have left that I'm functional,
based on yesterday's 2nd opinion on the cancer, I want to
do what I can to...

be,

to plant,

to scream this message (in whatever final form)....






I'd plan to have two 24x18" rigid, plastic, signs made of these and have the at the Canadian Embassy, 24/7 vigil, as long as I an hold out.

Others, like Brian, Diane, others ??? could use them when I'm gone, or, whatever.

From sister Phyllis: "My home is yours.I have a room and a half efficiency but we do what we must..."

[[NOTE: Creation is NOT being destroyed by fossil fuels!!!!!

Creation is being destroyed by western-led, global, cruel, deadly Famine for Universal Family (the ENTIRETY, THE 100% OF THE Gospel of Jesus, MLK Jr, Gandhi, Tolstoy, Montagu, Sorokin... and others [LIBRARY TAB above]. FULL STOP.).  UNOPPOSED Ecocidal Fossil fuel use is just one of the SYMPTOMS.

CREATION IS DYING FOR LACK OF EXAMPLES OF UNIVERSAL FAMILY.  The following is one such example. Hence, I've reposted this private conversation, not to violate privacy, but to remind us of what Still, in these remaining moments we have to turn the Titanic, what Still could Save us, individually, and collectively. More HERE.]]...

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From sister Phyllis, a high school friend (she to me, I was a creep),
who I've not seen since then, but we've emailed since she lovingly
reached out to me several years ago, refusing to let go, since, ....

In reply to my note this morning of...

"Subject: 05.17.13 Cancer updates -

http://jesusgodgoodetcnjay.blogspot.com/"...

She replied -

"maybe just maybe ..you could relocate and continue to work online -while receiving treatment. Go where you need to go. People are offering-maybe broaden the horizon of how you could succeed in functioning at your best with what God has challenged you with. I am here. My home is yours.I have a room and a half efficiency but we do what we must to survive:-) xoxo"

Loving's reply -

"Sister, you've been there for me for years now. Creator, bless your Heart, as you Bless mine.

We'll know a lot more in 3-4 weeks.

Thank you, from deep in my Heart."

Calif Sis Hope: "I can send you a one way ticket to here and tend you here."

[[NOTE: Creation is NOT being destroyed by fossil fuels!!!!!

Creation is being destroyed by western-led, global, cruel, deadly Famine for Universal Family (the ENTIRETY, THE 100% OF THE Gospel of Jesus, MLK Jr, Gandhi, Tolstoy, Montagu, Sorokin... and others [LIBRARY TAB above]. FULL STOP.).  UNOPPOSED Ecocidal Fossil fuel use is just one of the SYMPTOMS.

CREATION IS DYING FOR LACK OF EXAMPLES OF UNIVERSAL FAMILY.  The following is one such example. Hence, I've reposted this private conversation, not to violate privacy, but to remind us of what Still, in these remaining moments we have to turn the Titanic, what Still could Save us, individually, and collectively. More HERE.]]...

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Several weeks ago, learning that lack of housing acceptable to the hospital (fixed address, not living on street), AND acceptable to me, letting me WORK when not sick from treatment...

Sister Hope emailed:

"If I had space in DC, I would share it ... I can send you a one way ticket to here and tend you here, but you already know that, I think."

My reply:

"I do know that Dear Sister.

Hugs and HUGS."

From K, 'Loving, are you traveling north to live in my one-room with me and treat?'

[[NOTE: Creation is NOT being destroyed by fossil fuels!!!!!

Creation is being destroyed by western-led, global, cruel, deadly Famine for Universal Family (the ENTIRETY, THE 100% OF THE Gospel of Jesus, MLK Jr, Gandhi, Tolstoy, Montagu, Sorokin... and others [LIBRARY TAB above]. FULL STOP.).  UNOPPOSED Ecocidal Fossil fuel use is just one of the SYMPTOMS.

CREATION IS DYING FOR LACK OF EXAMPLES OF UNIVERSAL FAMILY.  The following is one such example. Hence, I've reposted this private conversation, not to violate privacy, but to remind us of what Still, in these remaining moments we have to turn the Titanic, what Still could Save us, individually, and collectively. More HERE.]]...

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My last night's cancer report to sister K, in reply to her inquiry how it went -

"What a sweet, caring Blessing you are in my life.

http://jesusgodgoodetcnjay.blogspot.com/2013/05/georgetown-cancer-doc-loving-you.html

HUGS."

Her reply -

"You going to treat in DC or in my state, living with me, in my one room, for the 6 months of chemo?
Please advise.....
Love K"

My reply -

"BLESS YOUR .

Looks like it is 4 months too late to treat, but will know for sure within the
next 4 weeks.

I'm well satisfied with Georgetown Cancer Cent.  If by some Miracle, literally, it
isn't 4 months too late to cure, I'm sure that's where I'll treat.  And with an offer
like yours, but here (link below), even the lodging might work out, for chemo.
http://jesusgodgoodetcnjay.blogspot.com/2013/05/loving-do-you-want-to-die-here-in-our.html

[Creator, bless K's huge , will you please!!!!!!!! What the Hell are you
doing???  Move your butt Father.]

Loving K

"Loving, do you want to die here in our home?" Angels Bruce and Kathleen

[[NOTE: Creation is NOT being destroyed by fossil fuels!!!!!

Creation is being destroyed by western-led, global, cruel, deadly Famine for Universal Family (the ENTIRETY, THE 100% OF THE Gospel of Jesus, MLK Jr, Gandhi, Tolstoy, Montagu, Sorokin... and others [LIBRARY TAB above]. FULL STOP.).  UNOPPOSED Ecocidal Fossil fuel use is just one of the SYMPTOMS.

CREATION IS DYING FOR LACK OF EXAMPLES OF UNIVERSAL FAMILY.  The following is one such example. Hence, I've reposted this private conversation, not to violate privacy, but to remind us of what Still, in these remaining moments we have to turn the Titanic, what Still could Save us, individually, and collectively. More HERE.]]...

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They live about 10 miles NE of DC.  Met Bruce, his below shoulder length hair and beard, 50ish, in Feb, when he appeared with a huge bag of food, canned stuff, etc, as one of the now 50+ bags he and his Loving partner, wife, Kathleen deliver every Saturday to we DC area homeless - driving to spots only Angels could see.  , Met Kathleen this last week - they picked me up at the end of their 3 hour trek of delivery, and took me out to vegetarian feast and to their wonderful warm house to chat.

Breathtakingly Loving.

He found and watched last night's video log (must be one of the handful that have subscribed to the blog, or now that I have my FB blog-feed fixed, maybe he caught the repost on FB):
http://jesusgodgoodetcnjay.blogspot.com/2013/05/georgetown-cancer-doc-loving-you.html

His comment on FB that I just saw?

"I know how important the vigil is to you. I know this is especially more so with limited time. I also know how hot this summer is going to be. Do you want to stay with us? Die here in our home? I don't want to leave you out there when you're not well. I didn't even show you our backyard. It's a little nature haven with privacy and a tent and a chiminea. if you do not want to be indoors much but somewhere safe and clear of anything that can be a problem. I am your brother and I have to put this out there cause I care greatly for your well being and comfort in this time of less time."

Loving's reply:

"WOW.  WOW.  WOW.  WOW.

WOW.

WOW.

Well, it LOOKS like I'm gunna die pretty fast but we don't KNOW that yet.  Let's not rush things!!!

*=)) rolling on the floor
*=)) rolling on the floor
*=)) rolling on the floor
*=)) rolling on the floor
:-)  !!!  We'll know in about 3-4 weeks.

Bruce, you and Kathleen are Angel Wings to me.  I'm crying now at your Good offer.  Not crying for myself, at all.  I just cry when I feel the beat of Angel Wings. So rare.

That could work,  your tent in your back yard, that could work, to die, or for 2 months chemo (you have metro access, don't you?), tho before the real serious dying part happened I'd move to Peter's House(?) a real nice hospice in DC for we homeless.  Deeply nice place, and they could give me whatever pain meds I'd need. 

Oh, the 'vigil important to me?' No.  The vigil is important to YOU, and every young person you'll ever care about.  That's why I do it, and will, I expect with any and every functional moment I'm given.

Let's see what the next 3 or 4 weeks tells us.

Loving u and Kath

[Bruce I reposted this important dialog here - . If you feel this inappropriate of me, pls just let me know (no explanation needed) and I['ll take it down immediately. But as I said ad nauseum on Tues, we're dying from lack of Examples of Loving, and you two have just given us a big one.]"

His reply -

"I am happy to know that you have a plan. Yes we are 4 blocks from one metro station (pg plaza) and 7 blocks from another (west h...) both on the xxx line. I feel like this back yard thing is the perfect time out for you. You can have access to the house but also come and go at anytime without it being a factor in any way. You let me know when to put up the tent. We also have a hammock which is very comfy too that I am about to rig up in a private spot also. We don't use a lawnmower with an engine anymore neither do our neighbors. The back yard is free from traffic fumes and city sounds or very many places you can even be seen by any of our neighbors. I say it is peaceful and private and it belongs to you now. <<>>. My cell # is <<>>  but it doesn't work on rainy days. Okay move here when you're ready!"

Loving's reply -

"There, you made me cry again. Here's where I posted - http://jesusgodgoodetcnjay.blogspot.com/ . Hugs to you both.

Unless all of a sudden the cancer does what is supposed to be doing by now, crippling me, I'll greedily do every second I can, here, maintaining my post at the embassy. But, if you remain willing, you guys would be my current, pirmary plan for 2 months of chemo, if they determine that in the last 4 months this didn't become un-curable. Hugs."





5.16.2013

videolog Georgetown Cancer Doc - 'Loving, you shouldn't be functional at this point....'

More recent updates HERE.


Prayer is lip service. Jesus was life service.

Prayer is lip service. Jesus was life service.

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CT, NJ Settlement To Shut Down PA Coal Plants. Hartford Courant

CT, NJ Settlement To Shut Down PA Coal Plants

Hartford Courant - ‎19 hours ago‎
Two eastern Pennsylvania coal power plants are shutting down as a result of a lawsuit filed by Connecticut and New Jersey to enforce the federal Clean Air Act.

05.16.13 Status: At Georgetown Cancer Center for Consult...(detail)

[Spirit of Christ-mas Present to Scrooge:

"Are there no Prisons?

Are there no Workhouses,"

Scrooge's words fed back to him.  We've escaped Dicken's attempts to Humanize us for well over a century now, unscathed!]

Hopefully, and I expect, today I'll learn what I need to know to decide whether or not treatment of the cancer in my liver is the best thing for me to do in service of our progeny -  can Georgetown give me enough years, at a low enough cost to our children to make that the right investment for our kids?

I don't know of anyone that understands my need to make this decision.  Those that might, kindly, honestly, tell me things like - the money you would leave untouched would go toward the military, not toward the global neediest.  That may be true, but all I'm responsible for is what I do, not what others do.

And I think that is how it works - the only hope is to do our part, personally, individually.  There is no other solution.  There has never been, and never will be, any other solution.

Near-Pure Loving, Universal Family, Personal Responsibility. It can be mass-infectious, tho no one's yet has gone mass-viral, before the 'enviornment' mutates it into something that is non-threatening to our virulent self-centeredness - think Jesus, and cHRISTIANITY.

My expectations about accepting Treatment are up to about 50% because I've concluded from my efforts of the last 13 years that humanity en mass is way, way, way beyond hope, beyond Saving, walking dead already  - our culture/religion of self-centeredness (aided, abetted, enabled centrally by cHRISTIANITY, is way, way, way, way too entrenched to displace, in time, en mass, in time stop Ecocide.  ALL EVIDENCE INDICATES WE WILL NOT STAND FOR OUR CHILDREN.  WE WILL NOT STAND.  WE WILL PAY NEAR ANY PRICE TO NOT  STAND, TO NOT PAY THE PRICE FOR THEM TO HAVE A LIVABLE FUTURE. 

However, for as long as the human species exists there will be the possibility of individual cells, individuals, tiny groups,to be Healthy, Essentially, Massively, Fundamentally Loving, and in service of these cells (the only possible individual or collective antidote) is where I expect I'll center my every remaining breath.

And this is a much longer fight than Stopping Ecocide that I now see as a totally lost battle - never to be waged.  And the battle of supporting the one in a million Healthy Cells of Loving is what I expect to center my fight on now - Waging Loving.

HOUSING - WHAT I'M LIKELY TO DIE FROM LACK OF.  LOL. So, with an adjusted mission, if the hospital can give me enough years, at a low enough price, I'll go for it, if I can arrange housing that lets me work those 80% of days I'm not physically disabled. Yet all indications are that such housing will not be forthcoming - the corner of a DC accesible garage or basement.

I will ask Georetown, if everything else looks acceptable, if they will allow me to take the treatment while continuing my vigil in front of the Canadian Embassy, and this has always been my preference.

5.15.2013

***** Climate change activists say they blocked freighter from delivering coal to Mass. power plant

Climate change activists say they blocked freighter from delivering coal to Mass. power plant

http://www.bostonglobe.com/metro/2013/05/15/climate-change-activists-say-they-blocked-freighter-from-delivering-coal-mass-power-plant/gjnEb86grXDaFflJPVynTI/story.html

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***** TIME TO REVERSE THINGS: STAND WITH JESUS; ABANDON THE cHURCH. Friends, please view these two jpgs and advise me.

TIME TO REVERSE THINGS - TO START STANDING WITH JESUS, ABANDON THE cHURCH.&nbsp; Friends, please view these two jpgs and advise me.

I hope you take a look at these two images. You may find them upsetting. You may like them. You may have some suggestions for me.

Why am I sharing with you? Because I feel some of us are responding to the same call, and these express how I hear the call. More than ever, the Jesus many of us love? I see how the 'church' is the anti-Christ, the anti-Jesus.

&nbsp;In his day, he called us to COME OUT of that day's religion, and to simply be RELIGIOUSLY LOVING, NOT to repair the beyond-repair cHURCH of His day..

I hear him screaming the same thing today.

I suspect that within 2 weeks THESE will be my uniform, pending better ideas from you -











my friend commented.. Cool beans!

. My reply

On Wed, May 15, 2013 6:44 PM EDT Start Loving wrote: >:-) it's the closest I've gotten to the rock to stand on. The wall to keep my back to and to fight from. I'm in the midst of readings these last couple of weeks. I read a book called gorillas of peace about the Jesuit heroes, .... priests and nuns students serving on the side of people in El Salvador who Reagan was determined to bomb back into the Stone Age protecting the ultra wealthy. Right now I'm in the middle of my first ever book I'm serious study of American Indians, a book called God is red.
....
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On Wed, May 15, 2013 6:56 PM EDT Start Loving wrote:

>Continued...  The author, vine Deloria, was for decades on the faculties of universities in Colorado and Arizona. Breathtakingly scholarly, intelligent, and in a few cases maybe wacky. Massively valuable for me. Far ranging. First published in the 70's I think and republished around 2000. Though he lived on a reservation growing up, his father was a Lutheran minister I believe. From the perspective of a Native American with all that background, he really put into words some of what I've felt in my entire life about so called Christianity.  He really has an extraordinary perspective that is mentally useful to me.
>
>That plus the gorillas of Peace book, and my personal experience as time after time I hurl myself toward what should be the heart and soul of a Christian Nation only to find a consummately self centered cancerous mass of off dead toxic waste.
>
>Well, all that's to say that I experience myself moving ever more towards the important truth, towards the essential battle, and it really is well captured in the message on that hat and on that shirt.
>
>Hugs.
>
>Sent from Yahoo! Mail on Android
>

What is creation dying from? Please think about this for a minute. Ready?...

What is creation dying from?  Please think about this for a minute.  Ready?  Culture we live by.  But culture we live by - hour beliefs, values, including religion, especially religion.  Indigenous religions would not be creation destroying creation.  Right?  Right. 

The more I seek our cure  these last 13 years the more I'm drawn to the teachings and life of Jesus.  The more I am drawn to the life of Jesus, the more I detest the religion that has destroyed and supplanted his Teachings - christianity - Paul's creation, Pope's creation, Luther's.... EVERYONE BUT JESUS.  It is killing all Creation.

Our religion is loving. No, I am NOT a Christian, and neither was Jesus.

Our religion is loving. No, I am NOT a Christian, and neither was Jesus.

5.14.2013

Heaven, Salvation: The crucial Elements of Viable Culture, Religion

Heaven, Salvation: The crucial Elements of Viable Culture, Religion

[The following - understanding, developing, discovering, studying, promoting, practicing, proliferating... is likely to be at the center of rest of my days -]

For the first time in my life, (OMG, soooo late)  for the first seconds, nanoseconds of my life, I've just this morning focused my lifetime of undeserved experience, education, resource, heinous over-privilege...

...on the question, not of product development, not of money-making, not on stopping genocide (symptom), not on stopping ecocide (symptom), not on western Matrix-ism/Zombi-ism ... 

...but of that which is of THE ULTIMATE importance to your child, niece, grandchild (even if 50 years in the future) - what 'operating system,' what 'software'... Culture, 'Religion (that about which they are religious)' is, would be OPTIMAL for the individual, group, all of humanity?

The current one - western, capitalistic, fleshly gratification centric (sensate) IS DYING, cuz it it killing all life support.  What should, must replace it if ecocide is to be bearable?

These are the two dimensions I've considered thus far - Characteristics, Fruits:

Characteristics:

  • subsistance level economically - what is needed, not greeded
  • universal family
  • perceptual reality
  • soul
  • solidarity
  • serving
  • as if Creator existed
  • reverence for creation
  • loving
  • growing
  • forgiving
  • patient
  • reverent
  • respectful
  • zero ego
  • zero anxiety, fear, worry
  • active immunity to fleshly addiction
  • active immunity to mind addiction
  • low maintenance
  • low cost
  • highly extensible
  • durable
  • high survival value in toxic world
FRUITS
  • joy
  • passion
  • peace of heart
  • freedom from fleshly addictions
  • freedom from mind addictions
  • infinite loving
  • continuous flow
  • free of fear
  • psychologically immune to plagues of the flesh and mind
Any and all comments from deep in  your soul would be deeply welcome.

5.13.2013

The existential issue of our time - a new culture, religion, that's sustainably produces superior joy thereby displacing the cancerous pleasure that is destroying earth...( more)

The existential issue of our time - a new culture, religion, that sustainably produces superior joy thereby displacing the cancerous, intoxication, pleasure-seeking, that are destroying earth. Just as an otherwise empty teenage mind feels better in the presence of a video game the human nervous system feels best in the presence of a well-designed culture or religion. This is an un alterable truth of our nervous system. Our computer hardware is incomplete without software. Human beings are incomplete without culture, religion.

And if all that proliferates around us is a sick, twisted, cancerous, self-centered, hateful, intoxicating... rELIGION, that's what we'll install.

Lovings status update

i am in a time of years delayed study that I am sure I am to complete while I wait to see what the Creator has in store for me, cancer and lodging for treatment. I'm spending every waking second reading, while maintaining the vigil in front of the Canadian embassy.

All of my study is one way or another about the ills of the world, and what individual and collective cure there can be, those who are heroicly loving, and doing so in a most informed way, that is, living each breath to be as meaningful , as helpful, to humanity and all of creation, because all of the wise up until and through today point to that being the only life of joy .

It appears that even if Georgetown can offer me enough years at a low enough price I'll need to decline the treatment for lack of suitable housing, that will allow me to fully work on those days I'm healthy. It appears I am to die for lack of a corner in someone's garage or basement, which would be too inconvenient to provide. This appears to be my inconvenient truth. Lol.

Loving is, equals, is serving from the soul in solidarity

Loving is, equals, is serving from the soul in solidarity

5.12.2013

Can I learn? Will I ever learn? I must immediately turn my efforts from: attempts to save from material horror to attempts to save from the horror of lovelessness self centeredness, dead heartedness, soul-deadness. This for itself, and as the only means of eliminating our material horror.

Can I learn? Will I ever learn? I must immediately turn my efforts from: attempts to save from material horror to attempts to save from the horror of lovelessness self centeredness, dead heartedness, soul-deadness. This for itself, and as the only means of eliminating our material horror.

This is neither complaint nor whine. I've been trying to help everyone, but no one wants my help. They desperately need it but the central feature of selfcenteredness, addiction, is the violent opposition to being cured, to being helped.

This is neither complaint nor whine. I've been trying to help everyone, but no one wants my help. They desperately need it but the central feature of selfcenteredness, addiction, is the violent opposition to being cured, to being helped.

I'm finding my blindness truly stunning. Jesus by the end saw that not one in 10000 would ever saved. Ever. He devoted his life to saving that one in ten thousand. He rightly saw that the state of loving is certain, absolute Salvation regardless of all other circumstances.

I'm finding my blindness truly stunning. Jesus by the end saw that not one in 10000 would ever saved. Ever. He devoted his life to saving that one in ten thousand. He rightly saw that the state of loving is certain, absolute Salvation regardless of all other circumstances.

Diane Wilson, to close Guantanamo, chains neck to fence at White House.

http://www.presstv.ir/detail/2013/05/11/302964/americans-demand-gitmo-closure/

Americans demand closure of Guantanamo Bay Prison Press TV - 21 hours ago The protesters in Washington DC wore prison-style jumpsuits in support of the 166 ... you're probably going to die from it,” human rights activist and hunger striker, Diane Wilson said.