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3.21.2014

I OD'd on meds last night. :-( Overwhelmed at the world. Loving (Serving from the Soul in Solidarity), each hour, as best I can see, is all that makes sense to me - my would-be Religion; there is none other as High. I'm a life-long night-teeth-grinder beyond what dentists have ever seen, while I sleep. Within the last week the symptom they long feared for me has blossomed - '8-9' level pain of TMJ joint muscle spasm starting about 1 hour after I go to sleep - may have been triggered by work my dentist is doing, whatever. He prescribed 800mg Ibupropen that doesn't TOUCH the pain - but 1600 mg does! But I figured there would be something bad as a result of doubling the already large dose - and I was as weak as a kitten all day today, bedridden. Looks like hours of '9' level pain each night for me going forward. Not fun. I'm really overwhelmed by how near totally evil the world is - yes my overprivileged friends - 'near totally' - including our consumption levels at tens to hundreds of times what half our brothers and sisters can even imagine; my own included. I'm trying to see a way thru, even theoretically, for us as a species were we to be open to the Path - regarding ecocide, animal cruelty, human destitution, oppression by the disgustingly over-privileged; the cowardly, insane denial of the liberals as to the price they must pay to match their rhetoric; mass US incarceration; chronic psychic starvation of the US poor.... The list of our systemic evils is sooooooooo long. I think there may be no 'answer' to any of these things, other than individually,, pitifully, 'Loving the global neediest,' as much per hour, as one can, as inadequate and pitiful as it may be - with as many of us, as fast as possible, reaching world-class standards of this Loving, Giving, Self-Giving. If there is a 2nd aspect to the solution I think it is Supporting the Practitioners of that Religion of Loving (Serving the Global Neediest, from the Soul, in Solidarity).

I OD'd on meds last night.  :-(  Overwhelmed at the world.  Loving (Serving from the Soul in Solidarity), each hour, as best I can see, is all that makes sense to me - my would-be Religion; there is none other as High.  I'm a life-long night-teeth-grinder beyond what dentists have ever seen, while I sleep.  Within the last week the symptom they long feared for me has blossomed - '8-9' level pain of TMJ joint muscle spasm starting about 1 hour after I go to sleep - may have been triggered by work my dentist is doing, whatever.  He prescribed 800mg Ibupropen that doesn't TOUCH the pain - but 1600 mg does! But I figured there would be something bad as a result of doubling the already large dose - and I was as weak as a kitten all day today, bedridden.  Looks like hours of '9' level pain each night for me going forward.  Not fun.  I'm really overwhelmed by how near totally evil the world is - yes my overprivileged friends - 'near totally' - including our consumption levels at tens to hundreds of times what half our brothers and sisters can even imagine; my own included.  I'm trying to see a way thru, even theoretically, for us as a species were we to be open to the Path - regarding ecocide, animal cruelty, human destitution, oppression by the disgustingly over-privileged; the cowardly, insane denial of the liberals as to the price they must pay to match their rhetoric; mass US incarceration; chronic psychic starvation of the US poor.... The list of our systemic evils is sooooooooo long.  I think there may be no 'answer' to any of these things, other than individually,, pitifully, 'Loving the global neediest,' as much per hour, as one can, as inadequate and pitiful as it may be - with as many of us, as fast as possible, reaching world-class standards of this Loving, Giving, Self-Giving.  If there is a 2nd aspect to the solution I think it is Supporting the Practitioners of that Religion of Loving (Serving the Global Neediest, from the Soul, in Solidarity).

3.18.2014

AS TO HOW HARSH, HOW BRUTAL I AM, OFTEN, TO LIBERALS (reply to a rebuke from my treasured sister RC): Which is more promising, speaking to a stone or a person? Which is more promising, speaking to a Republican or a Democrat? With the ending of the civil war, a temporary victory, did the Slave Owners have a change of mind, or did they concede to pressure? I understand my liberal friends being upset with me, but I perceive you are dead wrong. I am HORRIFIED by all the postings concerning Republicans - rebuking, excoriating, lambasting, attacking..... Why? BECAUSE THEY ARE OBVIOUSLY WASTED BREATH. BECAUSE THEY ARE DONE TO SUBSTITUTE FOR POTENTIALLY CONSTRUCTIVE ACTIONS, WHICH I CONSIDER SO TYPICAL OF LIBERALS, DEMS, AND SO COWARDLY. LIP-SERVICE, INSTEAD OF LIFE SERVICE. I don't lambast republicans because there is zero chance they will change. I lambast liberals because they are capable of so much more. As to how harsh I am - I am no more harsh than the words liberals have for the republicans. On what basis do I understand the double standard you would have me observe? It is somehow correct and appropriate for liberals to be harsh to republicans but not for someone, liberal or not, to be harsh to them? Liberals are talkers, and blamers, with infinite excuses why this is fine. They hold everyone to impossible standards, except for themselves, ever. If the shoe doesn't fit, don't wear it. The exception is proof of the rule. (((HUGS))) No reply needed. ps: Why lambast, and not be 'encouraging,' gentle? Which sweet 16 coach would you suggest be 'encouraging', 'gentle,' in the last seconds of overtime? Maybe in the first few days of training, but NOT IN THE LAST SECONDS OF OVERTIME, RIGHT??!!?!?!?

AS TO HOW HARSH, HOW BRUTAL I AM, OFTEN, TO LIBERALS (reply to a rebuke from my treasured sister RC):  Which is more promising, speaking to a stone or a person? Which is more promising, speaking to a Republican or a Democrat?  With the ending of the civil war, a temporary victory, did the Slave Owners have a change of mind, or did they concede to pressure?  I understand my liberal friends being upset with me, but I perceive you are dead wrong.  I am HORRIFIED by all the postings concerning Republicans - rebuking, excoriating, lambasting, attacking.....  Why?  BECAUSE THEY ARE OBVIOUSLY WASTED BREATH.  BECAUSE THEY ARE DONE TO SUBSTITUTE FOR POTENTIALLY CONSTRUCTIVE ACTIONS, WHICH I CONSIDER SO TYPICAL OF LIBERALS, DEMS, AND SO COWARDLY.  LIP-SERVICE, INSTEAD OF LIFE SERVICE.  I don't lambast republicans because there is zero chance they will change.  I lambast liberals because they are capable of so much more.  As to how harsh I am - I am no more harsh than the words liberals have for the republicans. On what basis do I understand the double standard you would have me observe?  It is somehow correct and appropriate for liberals to be harsh to republicans but not for someone, liberal or not, to be harsh to them?  Liberals are talkers, and blamers, with infinite excuses why this is fine.  They hold everyone to impossible standards, except for themselves, ever.  If the shoe doesn't fit, don't wear it.  The exception is proof of the rule.  (((HUGS)))  No reply needed.  ps: Why lambast, and not be 'encouraging,' 'gentle?' Which sweet 16 coach would you suggest be 'encouraging', 'gentle,' in the last seconds of overtime?  Maybe in the first few days of training, but NOT IN THE LAST SECONDS OF OVERTIME, RIGHT??!!?!?!?

Climate change is putting world at risk of irreversible changes, scientists warn. The Guardian

Climate change is putting world at risk of irreversible changes, scientists warn

The Guardian

3.16.2014

Teresa of Calcutta: "I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurst, there can be no more hurt, only more love."

Al Gore - Here’s THE Inconvenient Truth: Stopping the Fossil Fuel Mercenary Hoards would take literally hundreds of thousands of militant, unviolent citizens, risking all they have, and all they are to stop them, NOW, 2014... And neither I, nor anyone else, loves our children, or creation, enough to do that.