nd. When earlier in my years I was becoming a technically world class skier, there were mtns that terrified me, made my stomach churn... until I learned to metabolize them. Every moment my life is agony... refusing to turn away from, choosing to sprint toward... the world's horrors. But I've learned to metabolize them, devoting my life to gain this capacity, so my life is Heaven, and HELL, each moment. Near-pure Loving, every breath, the most profound Peace, and Agony. The agony AND the ecstasy.

When earlier in my years I was becoming a technically world class skier, there were mtns that terrified me, made my stomach churn... until I learned to metabolize them.  Every moment my life is agony... refusing to turn away from, choosing to sprint toward... the world's horrors.  But I've learned to metabolize them, devoting my life to gain this capacity, so my life is Heaven, and HELL, each moment.  Near-pure Loving, every breath, the most profound Peace, and Agony.  The agony AND the ecstasy.