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Charlie Chaplin: "You need Power, only when you want to do something Harmful, Otherwise, Love is Enough to get everything done."
nd. SPDF Day 33: Creator Willing, tomorrow I'll spend the day with Jesus, fighting for the Least of These our Family, in front of the White House.
***** SPDF Day 33: vid. 2 min. You ARE choosing. Which are you choosing - Equality for Everyone or Supremecy of Israel?
***** Pr. Carter Severs ties to Baptist sect over subjugation of women. "The carefully selected verses found in the Holy Scriptures to justify the superiority of men owe more to time and place - and the determination of male leaders to hold onto their influence - than eternal truths. Similar biblical excerpts could be found to support the approval of slavery and the timid acquiescence to oppressive rulers."
vid. 1 min. US rejects Netanyahu’s demand for Iranian recognition of Israel State Department says agreement with Tehran is ‘only about nuclear issue’. White House bids to prevent congressional interference Read more: US rejects Netanyahu's demand for Iranian recognition of Israel
US rejects Netanyahu’s demand for Iranian recognition of Israel
State Department says agreement with Tehran is ‘only about nuclear issue’. White House bids to prevent congressional interference
Gandhi was adamant and explicit that he was just scratching the surface of the practice, perfection, expression of nonviolent action.
So I'll not apologize for my own self recognized inadequacy in expressing, let alone fully grasping, my own attempts at radically powerful, utterly transformative, world direction changing.... If only in the attempt, efforts.
And let me be explicit on this last point. No part of me is interested in being a band aid, a slight dragon on, the extermination of the Palestinians, the elimination of the final shreds of democracy in the United States, or the end of all livable life on earth. I'm not interested in 'doing something about' these issues. I'm interested in stopping these atrocities, or failing spectacularly in the attempt as is of course profoundly likely.
I have no respect for the efforts of me or anyone to confront these issues. I disrespect that. I profoundly disrespect that. I see it as profound cowardice. If your child is dying and only an impossible miracle can save your child, I have nothing but the profoundest disrespect for the efforts of the parent that 'tries to do something' rather than devotes their very being to trying to be the miracle. And so I feel about my efforts, and those everyone else above the age of 12, in the face of these three unfolding Armageddon's that I frequently mention.
As I've spoken before, and as I will continue to speak, each time trying to better understand, and better articulate, what has me in its grasp... Why this playing chicken with death that I am now in the midst of being past 30 days of no food, and thereby passing the time threshhold when physical death, permanent mental impairment, blindness and such things become a physical potentiality?
Why playing chicken with death as I am? Well, I am not 'playing' anything.
I am waging every breath, every be of my heart, to beat all three of these impending Armageddon's. And that's impossible, and that has never been done, and no one has tried, and no one is trying, so I'm on my own to plan, strategize, analyze, attempt, invent, articulate....
Early in this death fast I wrote a centrally important post, must read, on the law of social change, which is the law of suffering, which is the law of paying a high enough price. If I had $1,000,000,000,000 it would not be enough to stop all three, or even one, of these impending Armageddons.
I do not have $1,000,000,000,000. I do not have $1000. I have no care about either because they are irrelevant to what is needed.
What I do have is that which is of ultimate value among the few human beings that are alive, the ultimate value, a human life, my own human life. This is what Gandhi recognized in himself and others as the ultimate value to be wielded for goal. This is what Martin Luther King Jr. recognized as the ultimate value that if wielded intelligently, boldly, aggressively, with consummate generosity, with total courage... could buy a substantial if not huge change in world, or at least national, direction.
What I'm doing is nothing more or less than what these greatest among us have attempted before. I have studied, and I study, with every fiber of my being, their examples, their lessons, their spirits, their essence, to attempt to incorporate in myself and in my efforts every drop of wisdom, of value, that is to be derived from their prior efforts, and dozens of those like them throughout history.
I am profoundly accountable for the constructive use of the life I have been given for the service of humanity. It would be practically impossible for me to take that responsibility more seriously than I do. I experience my life as a sacred trust I have been given to be used purely in the service of humanity. And I feel the profoundest joy and realizing that's the only reason I have that life.
I could not take that responsibility more seriously. I totally understand that that means that in the face of three of the greatest calamities ever faced by the human species, that means that if I am being conservative, if I'm being cautious, if I'm being careful, if I'm being timid, if I'm being self protective... I have already desecrated that sacred life that I have been given, and all of humanity that I was placed here to serve, just as you were placed here to serve all of humanity.
If I were interested in cars as I was as a sick individual in this culture through my forties; if I saw an automobile that set me afire with lust; lusting to possess that car, and I had access to the tens and tens of thousands of dollars that it would require to purchase that car, and maybe it was the only car of its type that would be available for many many months, I might figuratively yearn with all of my being that I could get immediate access those funds of mine, fast enough, and deliver them quickly enough, and favorably enough, then I could secure that car. On smaller or larger scales this would be deemed profoundly normal and appropriate and even admirable behavior in our sickest of all cultures.
Well, that is the desperation that I feel in my attempts to parlay my life, in whatever most intelligent form of delivery I can conceive from instant to instant, based on changing circumstances that I monitor instant by instant every waking breath. That is the same desperation I feel in delivering my life in the way that will best confront and thwart the three looming Armageddon's.
What I am attempting to do should be so easy to understand. It is so easy to understand for me that it is hard for me to imagine any other way. But I wasn't always of this mind. I was raised to survive and thrive in the Matrix, not outside of it, as I've been these last 10 years or so; well, really, for all of my life, but explicitly these last 10-15 years.
It is obvious based on my total isolation and solitude in my activist work, and never as much as in this final campaign, that no one understands what I'm doing. Yes, no one understands what I'm doing, because were there wiser than I, who understood what I was doing, and perceived that it was a suboptimal way of pursuing the goals I am pursuing, they would have the kindness and compassion and humanity to speak to me from that obvious depth of understanding that they had and to attempt to show me the error of my ways.
And it no time in the last 10 years of my devoted activism has anyone, ever, at anytime, even approached doing that.
We are not emotionally together now, we're emotionally separated now, and we were never spiritually joined. True spiritual joining is so rare in this sick culture of ours, practically never happens, one in a million.
As I think of those of you who have been in proximity to my life no discredit to me, no discredit to you, we were never spiritually together except for maybe a moment here or a moment there in just one maybe three of the cases I can think of (with the exception of my Dad with whom I was intimately, and only, Spiritually United)..
It's not your fault. It's not my fault.
I worship, I revere, I adore the truth no matter how painful it might be in the same way any drowning person reveres firm land coming under their feet. That firm land makes Life possible, without it, only drowning is possible. We are taught to tolerate and even find pleasure in drowning. I never learned that lesson. When I'm not standing on, when I don't understand, when I'm not grasped by the truth, I experience myself as drowning and in entire misery.
This Stop Palestines Death Fast campaign I am on has produced a final separation with maybe all of you. One in particular, the person who I have loved above all, has finally manifest her separation from me totally, frigidly, sharply, finally, absolutely, Truly. I view this with a sense of relief, gratitude, Joy... all of these separations, simply because the manifest the underlying truth that I think we all must have realized was there. All of you to whom I am referring, to some degree we wanted to be spiritually together, to some degree we wanted to be in relationship, and to some degree you and certainly I realized that spiritual unity was not the Truth for us.
Several days ago I vlogged, wrote that for the first time I am recalling that I had extremely sharp eyes for spotting people that belonged on extreme performance teams that I needed to establish, and to spot those who did not belong on those teams. And that as expert I was at that I admitted that I have been that much of a failure at spotting other relationships that should be or not the in my life, that could or, in the vast or total majority, could not work.
That same insight of just several days ago applies to what I am sharing here. All of you who have been in some proximity to me, I can see now, using the eyes that I now know to select, I concede now that we had a mutual desire and affection, but that it never could have been; I see that totally, so clearly, now. We are not destined to be on the same teams, on the same missions, devoted to the same goals. I am a profoundly different species of human, sort of. You are the profoundly different species from me. You are the near total majority. I the near entire outsider, foreigner, alien. You are of society. I am devoted to heal it.
No discredit to me. No discredit to you. No credit to me. No credit to you.
I find this comforting, comforting with respect to my future, comforting with respect to feeling less clueless, less of a failure but that's not a problem with me. But less of a failure in that I see that what I wanted so much, spiritual unity, was not a failure of my efforts, but a failure of my initial and ongoing perception, vision of what was possible, which is now being radically corrected. And surely I don't see it as a failure on your part anymore than on mine. Round pegs don't fit square holes, and versa visa.
My loving of you all is unconditional. It is neither increased nor diminished by these insights of recent days. My Loving of you is infinite.
What separates us exactly is the capacity for a life of unconditional loving.
Whatever life I have left will be devoted to being unconditional loving for the possibility of thereby, and only in the way, spreading unconditional loving by example to you and others.
Yes. Of course. The odds are that I will continue to totally, profoundly, absolutely, pitifully fail. But I'll not fail to try, with my every breath.
***** SPDF vlog Day 33: I SEE NO LIFE, NO 'NEVER AGAIN,' NO HUMANITY, NO SANITY... JUST WALKING DEAD LIBERALS. NO?
We don't look down on them! We're not lead to be derogatory to them! We're not lead to feel superior to them! But absolutely we are led to understand them as not-alive, walking dead people.
And the one in a million that are alive don't go away on vacation someplace, they fight with their vary beings to try and give life to the millions or billions that have been deprived of it!
Tomorrow is Easter, a pagan holiday, candy, an orgy of food, surely one of the most segregated, least Christ-ian, least Universal-Family days on the planet. Totally un Christ like. But somewhere tucked in there is the memory of a man named Jesus who in the best way he knew how, gave his life exactly and precisely to wake up his fellow human beings who he's saw to a person to be walking dead people.
Were Jesus is to be alive today, were Neo and Morpheus to be alive today, would they see things any differently than they did in the time that they existed? They would not!
And in the case of The Matrix, Jean Baudriallard, the French philosopher, conceived of that story exactly to show us what he thought we were in his lifetime, which I understand was written in the late nineties or thereabouts.
Was Jean slandering, belittling, looking down on... us?
Was Jesus slandering us? Jesus was horrified for us. He did do anything and everything with his life for the sole purpose of trying to give life to us.
Morpheus and Neo did the same!
I see it the same way as they did that and do. EXACTLY.
I want more than anything for life to come to my current brothers and sisters for themselves and so that there is life for all of creation in the future. And like them, no credit to me, so far I am aware of no price I wouldn't pay to give a prayer of that happening.
NOTICE: The exceptions prove the rule. ISM, Indigenous peoples standing against the machine, some of the Christian Peacemaker Teams.... But that's about it. The chicken is involved the pig is committed. Jesus was committed. Morpheus, Neo, Gandhi, Selma marchers, Tahrir Square... were committed. 2015 US 'activists' are involved... walking Dead in the face of ALL THAT IS GOOD IN THE FINAL SECONDS OF BEING DESTROYED. WALKING DEAD... BY DEFINITION... NO VITAL SIGNS.
SPDF Day 33: Son of Ben-Gurion designated Irish Moses: "It’s high time that we, as Americans, face up to the fact that supporting Israel is supporting apartheid, and that our military, economic, and diplomatic support of that country has fostered and abetted nearly half a century of continuing oppression of 4.5 million Palestinians
SPDF Day 33. vid 9 min. US tortured less than 50. Israel SIMILARLY TORTURED... 10'S OF THOUSANDS. Norman Finkelstein
Half Of Americans Think The Nation's Relationship With Israel Has Weakened. IF DEMS ONLY HAD A SPINE...
pic. SPDF Day 33: Dr. Jane Goodall: "We can't leave people in abject poverty, so we need to raise the standard of living for 80% of the world's people, while bringing it down considerably for the 20% who are destroying our natural resources."
nd. SPDF Day 33: :-( Too windy, gusts to 40mph, to be out with my light posters today. Working indoors online.
***** SPDF vlog Day 32: This could change things... Is his handling of Iran central to to President Obama's handling of Israel Palestine, or has president Obama been AWOL on Palestine as I have thought?
Netanyahu is furious about the Iran deal not for his stated reason of Iran being an existential threat to Israel, but because it is an absolute threat to the hegemony that Israel has been allowed in the Middle East, tyranical reign over countries in that area.
If the deal goes through, and certainly it looks as though it will, what does that do to the prospect of full human rights for the Palestinians? How conservative has President Obama needed to be to get this far in the negotiations with Iran? How much of the inaction on his part was due to this?
Although I had lost confidence that president Obama, I had previously been certain that Pr. Obama detests Israel's barbarity as much as I do. I concluded that I was mistaken. Maybe my mistake was in not understanding that these Iran negotiations are his most effective means of boxing Israel in and getting a just resolution for the Palestinians,
SPDF vlog Day 32: I knew how to recognize and pick business associates. I should've seen that picking 'frieneds' is the same, for me.
I was good if not extremely good at identifying associates, partners, team members in business that were up to the Herculean tasks that were always my focus and responsibility in business. I can see who could do the work, quite clearly, I could see who was not up to the task, quite clearly, I could see when they were attracted to the mission, and I can see when they were not capable of that.
These skills of mine for which I take no personal credit were instrumental to the business success that I had. I always had an important, ultimately important, role to fulfill on the team, but never did I achieve any substantial results except as part of a maniachally committed, massively focused, heroically motivated team of individuals.
It has only just occured to me in the last couple of days that in my personal life, and in my activist life these last 10 years , I've been as unsuccessful at my associations as I was successful in business.
It is occurring to me now that I was using an entirely different mindset in the two different situations and that this was a tremendous mistake.
I believe that the healthy individual lives to achieve important human missions and that everything else is to be subservient to that in the healthy person, and I mean physiologically, psychologically healthy. Therefore one should not use different considerations in whom they associate with in a any aspect of their life , certainly not in the most sacred of pursuits, activism. But I have viewed it entirely differently and thereby wasted a tremendous amount of time of other people and of myself.
It's not a matter of blaming myself, or of absolving myself blame. I've done and will always do the best that I can but I think I've just gained a massive new insight. I need to consider each and any association from the perspective of the entirely mission oriented individual that I am. This is a very optimistic consideration for me.
SPDF vlog Day 32: For a decade have I misungerstood the problem: Is it a 'follower problem,' not a 'leadership' problem?
I don't think so but thinking along this line has occurred to me for the first time in any of my campaigns.
By training was in leadership in graduate school back in the mid seventies. My avocation and vocation have been leadership ever since. I learned fairly quickly in industry that my only interest was in urgent situations that required a dramatic turnaround to avoid disaster, and that by my only skill was in such urgent situations, rather, the skill that aligned with my greatest strengths, and with my interests, passions. I learned that I have no interest in, and no apparent talents, in normal situations.
More specifically what occured to me is that relative to Palestine,, saving the last remnants of democracy in America, stopping ecocide, it is not a leadership problem but a follower problem that we have. That is, the denial among the American people is so catatonic, so sick, so deep, so all powerful that leadership may not be the problem,
But I think leadership is the only solution. Leadership,, being among the first to do what a healthy, loving, sane, not catatonically delustional personl person does in the face of a 68 year torture and torment of another people, the Palestinians, by one's own government.
It is so much lonelier than what I ever had to do in industry. The motivators for the groups involved were so much clearer, losing their job, going out of business, losing their income.... So the followers were, if not always, often, ready to do their part. There is no evidence of that in any of the three problems that I've mentioned. Quite the opposite. It appears that the followers will avoid taking personal responsibility no matter what.
So I think I was mistaken to have this doubt. I'll continue to consider it, but maybe more than ever it is a leadership problem. Being among the first to act as a human being should act in the face of such horror.
vid. Reza Aslan: If Isis is Islam, 10's of thousands of Isis victims are Islam, and 10's of thousands fighting Isis are Islam, what does this say about Islam.
***** vid must watch PBS: Scientific Studies Prove Rich People Really tend to be Psychopaths. Power does corrupt. Keltner. Berkeley
***** SPDF Day 31: 1st Kenyan to stand up to the Dictator, by himself, beaten, threatened... never looked back...never stopped.... Still alive, so far.
SPDF Day 31: Massively sick today... this afternoon... while in front of NPR - Numbing Paralyzing Rubbish.
Really Muslims, really???? You are just as savage, hatefilled, ignorant, Satanic, UnGodly as the Christians??? REALLY???? .... Identical twin studies show homosexuality not genetic
SPDF Day 31: Netanyahu - "No, I do not think the Palestinians have a right to an independant state."
Ben Nitay aka Bibi Netanyahu feat. Fouad Ajami from arabist on Vimeo.
A 28-year old Benyamin Netanyahu, calling himself Ben Nitay, debates on the 1978 US TV show "The Advocate" against Palestinian self-determination and intriguingly suggests West Bank and Gaza Palestinians could have Israeli citizenship. He is debated (or rather questioned) by Fouad Ajami, now professor at Johns Hopkins University's SAIS. Note that Bibi says that while he opposes a Palestinian state, he thinks Palestinians could vote and have full rights in either Jordan or Israel - essentially endorsing a one-state solution.
***** SPDF Day 31: Netanyahu’s never-ending excuse for opposing a two-state solution His argument has been the same for over 20 years: you can’t trust the Palestinians to act peacefully.
***** SPDF vid Day 31: "THE AMERICAN DREAM... IT HAS ALL COLLAPSED.... UNLIKE THE DEPRESSION... THERE IS NO HOPE."
SPDF vlog Day 31: Paragons of mental health, who are they? Martin Luther Kin Jr., Malala, Gandhi, Abraham Lincoln, Malcom X, Oscar Romero.....
The greatest of all of the formal psychologists Alford Adler said that health, the healthy choice, tends to lie in the direction of courage. For him the hallmark of health was a social interest.
The greatest psychologist of all in that the truth of his insights have had a greater impact on humanity than the insights of anyone else, I'm referring to Jesus, his core notion was universal family, one Father making us all brothers, and his life and words commanded us to go and live our lives accordingly. Lay down your life for your brother. The good shepherd lays down his life for the flock. As you do unto the least of these you do unto me. Whoever would hold onto his life shall lose it, whoever would lose his life shall gain it. Love as I have loved, and of course he ran into the arms of death. King ran into the arms of death, as did Malala as did Gandhi, as did Malcom X.
Only the most twisted would perceive that they had a death wish, that they wanted to die, that they wanted to be Martyrs, whatever that means. And today it means some sort of twisted slender. They wanted to ransom and redeem their suffering brothers and sisters.
For all intents and purposes there is only one way for the human being to get what they want and that is to pay the price for it. The ultimate price that anyone can pay, and therefore the ultimate power that any individual has to affect what they want to affect. Is their life, paying their life is the ultimate price they can pay for the ultimate value that they want.
As Dr. King said so often and so many different ways, the person who does not know what they would die for is not equipped to live.
Whoever thinks that their own life is their ultimate value is already dead. All of the individuals I mentioned lived, live, accordingly by whatever belief they might have. They live accordingly because this is the law of our DNA, it is what is written in our DNA because it was ultimately addaptive for having our species produce generation after generation of human beings.
This healthy nature is rarely seen in our sick culture, our western culture which is more and more the world's culture which has embraced a lower side of human nature, the capacity for morbid and suicidal self centeredness. But this is not what we see in aboriginal cultures, human beings in an environment like that which we were designed for. This is not seen in other species, this morbid and suicidal self-centeredness. It is not seen in any species except for cells that become cancerous which no longer devote themselves to the well being of the group but only to their own selfish interests.
Zionists are the Satanic in the guise of the Godly. That's not slander by me. It is a statement within the bounds of our limited language to state as clearly and factually what they are as I am able.
One can disagree with the statement or agree. But it is not slender. It is an attempt to express a monstrously important truth, a life and death truth, for the physical life of the Palestinians, and the spiritual life of the Zionists who are my brothers and sisters.
If I am slandering, if I am wrong to say what I'm saying, then Martin Luther King Jr. was wrong. "Nothing in all the world is so dangerous as evil in the garb of virtue."
Wisdom of the ages is captured in the notion that Satan is the great deceiver. Satan is consummate deception. And that can be, and maybe usually is, self deceptions first..
The point is not that the Zionists know that they are making of themselves creatures of consummate evil, surely some are certain they are creatures of good.
But by any measure of Judaism, by any measure of the life of the man Jesus, they have made of themselves consummate evil. The Ku Klux Klan were not Christians. The Christian Zionists are the spiritual descendants of these crazed evil embracing, people. The Zionists of Jewish background are the equivalent of the KKK. They are the antithesis of the historical Jewish values of justice and righteousness preached by the prophets and practiced by the profits and practiced by great and godly individuals of history like Abraham Heschel and contemporary figure's like Henry Siegman, past head of the American Jewish Council and the Jewish Congress of Rabbis, and the Jews who are speaking out in Israel itself against the barbarity of Zionist behavior and who are paying, and are risking, ungodly social and potentially physical costs.
“I have never seen anything like this in my lifetime,” Chomsky added. “I am old enough to remember the 1930s. My whole family was unemployed. There were far more desperate conditions than today. But it was hopeful. People had hope.
SPDF Day 30: GOD...DAMN A MER I CANS... "Just 11 percent sympathize a great deal with the Palestinians and 35 percent have some sympathy for the Palestinians."
SPDF Day 30: "The "true martyrs" of today, men and women who "offer their lives with Jesus" for their Christian faith. Their witness, in imitation of Christ's sacrifice, "reflects a ray of this perfect, full and pure love [of Christ]," he said. Theirs, he added, "is a service of Christian witness to the point of bloodshed. It is the service Christ did for us, he redeemed us."... " example of a man of our times, and many others, strengthens us in offering our lives as gifts of love to our brothers in imitation of Jesus," he said.
George Soros: "There is a resurgence of anti-Semitism in Europe. The policies of the Bush administration and the Sharon administration contribute to that," Soros said. "It's not specifically anti-Semitism, but it does manifest itself in anti-Semitism as well. I'm critical of those policies."
***** “You don’t solve Afghanistan, you don’t solve Pakistan ultimately, you don’t solve the increasingly dictatorial Erdoğan in Turkey, you don’t solve Egypt, you don’t solve Syria, you don’t solve Iraq — and by ‘solve’ I mean bring some sort of stability and potential for the future – without Iran’s help,” he asserted. “It’s not really Iran’s nuclear weapon that Bibi fears, it’s what we just described.”
“It’s not really Iran’s nuclear weapon that Bibi fears, it’s what we just described.”
I consider the desire to control the lives of others is insane, pathological, and that sanity is the willingness to pay joyfully with one's life if necessary that others can be free of the control of any one beside themselves.
I consider it insane to choose a life of pleasure over a life of service, and that sanity is exactly choosing the life of service over a life of pleasure.
I deem that our American culture is profoundly insane.
It seems to me that the only sane cultures that I see today are the indigenous Palestinians, although I can't yet reconcile how they keep having children in such a hellish environment, seems cruel and selfish; some of the indigenous of America and Canada that are putting their lives in the way of the destruction of their/ our world.
Among so called activists I see only the International Solidarity Movement as probably very sane; along with, possibly, Sea Shepherds. The rest I see as wallowing in a self-gratifying lifestyle choice of doing what is safe and convenient, or even more so, but by not being willing and eager to pay the ultimate price for our fellow humans, as I said at the top, insane.
SPDF Day 30 vlog: It is not inconceivable that in 2-4 weeks time that I'll conclude that I have wielded the Death Fast for as is long as is constructive, this time....
I am unable to put my finger exactly on what it is that I am sensing this morning. But I suspect that it is at least possible that by 2-4 weeks from now I will conclude that this death fast has provided as much benefit as it can provide at this time in 2015 and that I will be better able to serve Palestine by terminating this death fast rather than to let it run its full course.
There are a number of factors that I did not expect that have raised this prospect in my mind. I believe my expectations at the beginning of this I stated fairly clearly, I expected this death fast to have no impact until after it terminated me. That's how sick I thought we were. But I did not anticipate the aggressive , extreme , distancing that I have experience from the few people who had remained at all close to me in my life, with maybe two, possibly three exceptions . I take this as a sign that we are even more morbidly willing to amputate anything and everything close to us or far away so we can maintain our self centered , cancerous , world killing individual, self-centered existences .
Also I must conclude that it is possible that by now whatever Palestinian Diaspora in Washington, DC has some slight idea of what I have been doing in front of the capital and now up in front of NPR until Congress gets back next week . I must conclude that there is some slight awareness and that I must attribute some significance to the fact that there has been zero out-reach , zero support , zero encouragement , zero dialog . Zero visibility.
I wasn't smart enough , or maybe I realized it just wasn't my job , to take the time to anticipate how this community would react , but I do consider it now . And I consider that this is evidence of a soul-dead Palestinian Diaspora which I did not anticipate. It seems that they have been so infected with the western culture that they too feel that there is nothing that they would sacrifice , gladly, their own personal well being for .
This is a level of spiritual death in relevant communities beyond what I had anticipated .
If these perceptions hold and or develop within me then they place me where I wound up in the late or middle of my prior death fast , perceiving that I was conducting the death fast in a graveyard . Surely conducting any kind of action to inspire the action of others in a graveyard is not a good use of time .
This analogy does not hold in that there may well be an online of record of this death fast ,, which I am working diligently to provide, that could serve people in the future . But nevertheless I am seeing indications that it is absolutely a graveyard I am conducting this in beyond even what I had understood . And if these perceptions old within me then I may conclude that I can better serve Palestine by terminating the death fast before it terminates me , or, maybe not ,
I could terminate the death fast today based on these perceptions but I think that would be premature . My confidence that death fast is the only weapon to save Palestine , save any last remnants of democracy in America , stop ecocide ... are only strengthened by these perceptions .,honor an hour. But that my termination at this moment or 2 to 4 weeks from now would add any value to this current demonstration of the weapon has this morning arisen as a question in my mind.
SPDF Day 30: With Netanyahu's reelection, the peace process is over and the pressure process must begin
With Netanyahu's reelection, the peace process is over and the pressure process must begin
If Israelis have the right to vote for permanent occupation, we in the Diaspora have the right to resist it.
***** SPDF Day 29: From what I can see this Death Fast has cost me most of the few left who were close to me...
SPDF Day 29: Noam Chomsky on the Republican Party - "REPUBLICAN PARTY IS NOW A RADICAL INSURGENCY..."
***** SPDF Day 29: MUST READ. 3 60's Jewish Activists discuss Israel Palesine... "...she sobbed for hours when she saw the daunting wall with the Israeli flag on it, and compared the wall around Bethlehem to the walls of concentration camps during the Holocaust...."
Link to article click here.
The situation in Gaza is so desperate that some are predicting another war (SLAUGHTER. Everyone watching EXPECTS IT.)
***** SPDF Day 29. URGENT - A fate infintely worse than death by Death Fast... Institutionalization... (detail)
She has been my Dr. for three or four years. She is a graduate of Georgetown University, an elite university, and I have gained huge respect for her technical ability for her character and interpersonal skills. After she explained the results of my blood tests she expressed a concern with the fact that I was on day 29 of a death fast and willing to take it to the stand. I take her at her word which was that she was not questioning my mental health. But she was looking at the gravity of mine stamps and asked if I would be willing on her account to allow a professional associate of hers to evaluate my psychological health so that my Dr. Could have the confidence that she is not overlooking something. Again, I take her at her word.
The following is my follow-up letter to her. It should be obvious from the letter that it is clear to me that this evaluation did not go well and that the system, and even this beloved Dr., Are in a position to have a very adverse impact on my work and my life. This goes with the territory. It would be a much more horrible and to my life than a simple death from starvation in another month or two. But it would fulfill, that is, institutionalization, what fulfill the purpose of the death fast which has to sacrifice my life that a Palestinian, even one, might have life in the next 20 years. This, according to the law of social change, the law of sacrifice, the law of paying the price.
You will recall that I left Howard U Hospital after initial treatment because, despite finding the staff there very kind and congenial, I did not find them competent. You did not disagree, you helped me get to Georgetown, and they seemed to be immensely more competent.
When you asked me today about mental health issues I found you very competent and your listening very competent. As I told an intern you had me speak to, once, when he asked me what one thing I found most important about your care I said, 'Her listening, her hearing, she deeply hears the entire patient."
Three years ago when I was on a death fast I was hospitalized at G.W.for severe dehydration. And they administered a psych eval when they heard of my fast. It went on for probably 45 minutes and I found the psychologist basically competent. I did not say agreeable, I said competent. She was substantially listening to, and hearing, what I had to say.
I do not need psychological help, I do not want psychological help, I was willing, I remain willing, for your benefit and your benefit alone, to talk to a psychologist, but one that is competent.
FYI, were you to have someone that wanted to evaluate me, I, all of me, is here at these two locations, truly:
I am on your calendar for 8:00 AM on Tuesday for next weeks blood test results.
Your appreciative brother forever, no matter what. James
SPDF Day 29: I expect to reduce or eliminate all together posting on Facebook. As I have always found....
SPDF Day 29: I expect to reduce or eliminate all together posting on Facebook. As I have always found, and have found again, all on Facebook are passionately committed to unending lip service, and profoundly terrified of, and hostile, truly committed life service. I haven't the time to waste, and it is my duty to not enable such grotesque hypocrisy and cowardice. There is a horrible, wonderful, old saying - the chicken is involved, the pig is committed. There is no activist, never has been, ever will be, of any consequence what so ever, that is not committed exactly in this way. And all on Facebook are committed with every fiber of their being to not be committed to life service in this way.
***** SPDF Day 28: The Liberal's Denial of duty, personal responsibility, the cowardice, that is destroying the world can best be seen.... ...
The wife in A Dry White Season, the wife of the lone white man of privilege that paid everything for Justice in South Africa.
The towns-folk in the Garry Cooper version of High Noon.
nd. SPDF Day 28: NPR Nauseating Pablum (Poison) Radio since noon. It is now 6pm, and too windy to hike back to my shelter. Soon I trust.
I am now wearing the stockings as prescribed, during the day, and it should make walking a bit easier - swinging those extra pounds of fluid in the lower legs is tiring, and it is less distressing just due to the body distortion that is pretty weird. .
Abbas is a traitor to Palestine, a traitor to humanity. Mahmoud Abbas calls for Arab military intervention against Hamas in Gaza
"You've got to learn to leave the table once love is no longer being served." Nina Simone
SPDF Day 28: Abbas is traitor, a Tory in the early Americas. Exclusive: In exchange for freed tax funds, PA won’t pursue Israel over settlements at ICC
My reply: "We are dying, and no one considers us worth their very lives to save."
FB: "James, if you die, we all lose. you better stay alive and make them suffer by looking at your tent everyday."
My reply: Until enough of us die, or offer that price, the slaughter in Palestine will continue. This is fact. This is the law of unviolent change. http://jesusgodgoodetcnjay.blogspot.com/2015/03/spdf-day-14-law-of-social-change-is-law.html Until the huge personal price to stop this is paid, or at least offered, it will not stop. This is how social change has always worked and will always work. I've just uploaded this post - http://jesusgodgoodetcnjay.blogspot.com/2015/03/spdf-day-27-person-is-neither-alive-nor.html . I will not have open debates on what I've written of extensively. If someone has enough interest and respect to state deep disagreements with my understanding of history and social change I'll be only too grateful. But views and opinions of such disinterest that they don't bother to hold themeselves to the standards of history and unviolent theory I have zero time nor patience for. I don't guide my own life by 'nothing,' 'opinion,' idle platitudes, and I'll not help enable others to do so, either.
***** vlog. SPDF Day 27: A PERSON IS NEITHER ALIVE, NOR AN ACTIVIST, WHO WOULD NOT EAGERLY GIVE THEIR LIFE FOR THE JUSTICE OF THEIR FELLOW HUMAN BEINGS...
(If the shoe does not fit, don't wear it.) There is very very very good news. I mean that from the bottom of my heart. You are not activists.
Alice Paul and the suffragists alongside her that would pay any price, were activists. There was no personal price that they would not pay to achieve their goal. They did not do what was convenient, they calculated what was necessary, and they paid the price.
That is anathema to todays so called activists. Utterly, explicitly, forecefully forbidden. Literally incomprehensible, today, in the US outside of the few fighting global warming by placing and keeping their very lives in the way of Ecocide. These exceptions prove the rule.
There are no activists today.
There were activists in Tahrir Square several years ago. There was no personal price they would not pay to achieve their goal. They expected it would cost their very lives these young people. Exactly because they were willing to pay that price the onlookers of the world could not stand to see that price exacted and rose and demanded of the leaders of the world that their lives be saved by meeting their demands. And they were.
There was only one group for whom Gandhi had utter contempt and that was those who would not happily risk or give their own lives when justice demanded it. I've written weeks ago of the law of social change which is the law of paying the price, the law of suffering. This is an immutable law. And yet for the last 40 or 50 years those that call themselves activists, the most educated in our society, almost always from affluent or relatively affluent backgrounds, are in ferocious, catatonic, psychotic, clinical denial of this law.
It is said that patriotism is the refuge of scoundrels. No, activism in the United States since the late sixties is the refuge of scoundrels. It is where one goes for zero personal accountability, the approval of one's peers in excoriating anyone and everyone except those in the same group, holding oneself and ones group to 0 standards, certainly not the historical standards of true activism, and certainly not the standards of results.
The Washington DC not many years ago there was Ngo after Ngo, activist after activist, rapturously involved in historically doomed,, tepid, comfortable, self serving 'activism' to supposedly Save Darfur.
Fact, the leading such group, "Save Darfur," was headed by a pleasant fellow. At times that I deemed it constructive and appropriate I clearly, honestly, forthrightly and vehimintly confronted the total hopelessness, the total inadequacy, of the strategies and tactics that were being attempted by this group.And indeed, as was patently obvious to anyone that WANTED to see the truth... they saved not one Darfuri, but they had a nice time, got lots of press, had nice confortable jobs for years, added to their resumes, got credit on their college degrees....
Several years later I saw the head of this preeminent Save Darfur group outside a supermarket. Actually, he saw me and wanted to speak. To his credit he said to me, why were you so hard on us? I said, just as when a Dr. hangs out a shingle proclaiming that they are a Dr., thereby setting life and death expectations for those who choose to enter, you did the same by calling your group Save Darfur. You set an expectation that impacted millions of people and yet you planned and attempted nothing that would ever come close to saving those people. This is a moral problem that I had a duty to those brothers and sisters in Darfur to attempt to confront. This is a moral failing I had a duty to you to try and bring to your clear attention, and I felt that you were not seeing it, as a result of active denial or otherwise.
Again, to his credit, he replied with astonishing candor, James, he said, I had no idea how to save the people in Darfur. I give him credit for the candor, but he still had no idea the horror of what he was saying. And I find him completely representative of the activism in the United States, or what considers itself activism, be it for stopping global warming, preserving some shred of democracy, or freeing the Palestinians while there is still a living Palestinian left.
The left in the United States adores excoriating the right in this country for their denial, especially in the subject area of global warming. The denial on the right is nothing compared to the denial on the left of their own irresponsibility, non-solidarity with those they purport to be fighting for, lip service, self serving efforts that have the certainty of not achieving the stated goals but only of serving the egos and other gratifications of the so called activists.
The left's denial near incomprehensible. This is not slender from me. This is not condemnation. It is an opportunity to seriously consider it, thereby it is an offer of liberation.
King, Gandhi, any and all of the true activists, in their own way lived, believed, and articulated that someone that would not risk their very life, happily, in the service of justice for their fellow human being, was already Dead. None of the 2015 activists that I see are anything of the sort.
None or few are hypocrites on purpose. They've been taught and learned well a lie. They've been taught a means of behavior that is not activism, but they've been told in word and deed for 40 or 50 years that it is.
If King, Gandhi, Jesus, and the like are correct that cowardice is living death, and by my life and words I believe that they are, then I am not slandering, I'm attempting as they did, to offer Life, to the activist, and to those they think they are serving..
A person is not living who is not ready to give their life for the justice of their fellow human beings, to paraphrase Dr. King.