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12.30.2016

Standing Rock update : the extreme darkness is lifting. My experience of this camp, and I think I was not alone, is that weeks ago , 10 days ago, tremendous Darkness had descended upon the camp. 10000 Souls, many.......

Standing Rock update :  the extreme darkness is lifting. My experience of this camp, and I think I was not alone, is that weeks ago , 10 days ago, tremendous Darkness had descended upon the camp. 10000 Souls, many of them very brightly burning spiritual Jedi, Departed and this was appropriate as the legal battle was initially won. Yet, tho appropriate, this departure of so many bright lights introduced a tremendous stress on the camp. Those Bright Lights many of them did tremendous amounts of work everyday to feed, heat, provide water for, construct for the others in the camp. That Workforce Departed. What was left for a while was a fairly corrupt power structure. Again, probably I was more acutely aware than most but I am not the only one that was aware. Slowly I learned the lesson to stop attempting to help by coming alongside those in power, and instead to avoid at all costs those with ego issues and to seek out the more lowly who were of good spirit and providing some level of help, and to see how I could support them. Surely my days are infinitely more joyful now, I am more productive personally, and those good souls and I are undoubtedly feeding and amplifying and encouraging one another. Decades ago I brought to one of the largest computer companies in the world a training system for salespeople the heart of which was the idea of not seeking those in official power but rather to seek those more lowly who were hugely influential but not of official power. Finally I am again avoiding that mistake. There are beautiful souls here that move me with great emotion. The young indigenous man from Florida who is here in the camp awaiting his trial 4 unviolently standing against theft of Native American land and resources and the destruction of their water. A beautiful soul. Earlier in his life he told me involved with a gang. Clearly saved now spiritually in part due to being introduced to Serious Sign Language in prison and now doing coursework to become an interpreter. his profound love and admiration for those without the gift of speech is very very deep and genuine. He must have a record. So the risk, the huge costs that this young person faces to fight for the future of us all must be enormous. But his spirit is so totally selfless, so light. A young mom who runs a kitchen, 1 of 8 or more in the camp, and probably my favorite. 2 absolutely adorable Kids approximately 3 and 5 years old. With her in the kitchen every moment. Infinite patience for them and us has this young woman. cooking simple healthy meals for us from 7 in the morning until 8 o'clock at night. College students, people normally employed in everyday life , who have in the face of existential species emergency, existential emergency for all creation, have said goodbye to their normal lives and work from sunup till sundown to help those in need in this community. The Dark Souls remain. I have removed myself from much ongoing visibility to their activities. but I have a hunch that this unofficial tribe of good Souls is growing in strength and number and thereby in some cases converting and in other cases obscuring these points of Darkness that were so strong only 10 days ago. And I know that my sun up till bedtime menial manual pitiful weak labor is one of those candles encouraging others. I get thanks and feedback every day. Recently I saw one of the folks who exhibited considerable darkness of Soul only 10 days ago or so, saw me on my daily rounds spanning the camp serving those in greatest need,  asked if we could talk,  said,  I appologize. We exchanged glad hugs. Daily I repeat and will repeat again here my favorite quotation, a quotation from Albert Schweitzer , example is not the major thing in influencing people, it's the only thing. we had our first serious Storm 2 days ago, 10 inches of snow, 40 mile-an-hour sustained winds, 10 degrees Fahrenheit, minus 40 degrees wind chill , gusts exceeding 60 miles an hour. clearly I have no conception of the strength of tents. How mine and hundreds of others survived that wind is beyond me. I suspect that this storm will be viewed as very very gentle within another month or so. many of our finest Jedi, some very mature, some very immature, are gathered in this space. By the way, since the storm the Verizon signal has not been available down in the camp, only on a small hill in this very cold weather where I currently sit. Hence my access to Internet is greatly curtailed for now. I can't know whether Verizon plans to repair the Tower or whether they have decided it is not worth maintaining it with a camp of only a thousand people.

12.23.2016

### "A person who experienced any six or more of the categories” of childhood trauma, Dr Felitti tells me, “was 4600 percent more likely to become an IV [injecting] drug user later in life than a person who experienced none of them.”

http://www.alternet.org/drugs/tragedy-whitney-houston-and-her-daughter-surprising-factors-can-make-people-4600-percent-more

12.21.2016

### The Israeli collective psyche is shaped by coercive pressures: It is post-traumatic; it cannot forgive the Jews their victimization in Europe; and so it is intoxicated by power and the use of violence against the weak; and is in a state of denial about its own aggression toward Palestinians. Staying alive by whatever means, the ethos of Netanyahu, has replaced traditional Jewish ethics of loving the neighbor, says psychiatrist Ruchama Marton, founder of Physicians for Human Rights, Israel.

http://mondoweiss.net/2016/12/forced-existence/

12.19.2016

### This is a big f****** deal. We have never loved our children. Not in my lifetime have we loved our children. Not in the last century did we Americans love our children. Have we ever in America loved our children? A moral tenant for......

### This is a big f****** deal. We have never loved our children. Not in my lifetime have we loved our children. Not in the last century did we Americans love our children. Have we ever in America loved our children? A moral tenant for me until recent months has been that at least the prior generation loved their children, meaning, they would gladly give their lives for them. This is not true. This is a lie. I have built much of my understanding on this life. Why do I say this? My parents generation that I have held up as the Paragon, the greatest generation, they fed us into the Vietnam War Machine. They demonized us for fighting the Vietnam War Machine. Why? Their own selfish interests. They would lose their jobs. They would lose their standing. They would lose their comforts. World War One. How were we so easily seduced? We fed our children by the millions into the killing machine. Why? We didn't love our children. We loved our jobs. We loved our status. We loved our illusions National Supremacy period did we ever love our children? We love the idea of our children. We love the idea of loving our children. We love how our children make us feel when they are very very young, and sometimes older. That is lust, that is not love. Yes there are one in a million, rare, exceptions, and by their very existence they prove the almost total rule. One of my last shreds of hope that we were a species worth saving has just gone down in flames. What are the implications for me and my missions, what are the implications for my behavior? I know what will not change for me, it will continue that for the greedy Joy of it I will continue to devote every breath in attempted alignment with Creator, and the attempt to  fight alongside creator for the world as it should be, not as it is, a world of needless suffering, and near total absence of joy,  near total absence of unconditional, Universal loving. This is simply who I want to be. Everything else is what I wish not to be any longer. And I know in doing this that there is the slightest chance that the one in a million today or ten Generations from now might receive the slightest bit of encouragement and/or inspiration from the pitiful example I attempt to give now, and that is enough. Had those one-in-a-million in prior Generations not done what they did that which I value in my life would not exist for me today. That's how it works. If somehow the numbers changed and instead of one in a million it was 2, 5, 10, 1000 then the course of history could change. That's the only way that history can change for the positive. That's the only Revolution and it looks like we will never try it.

12.11.2016

Regarding Trump: as I've said, he's a godsend. Equally evil to Hilary, he is so much more grotesquely evil......

Regarding Trump: as I've said, he's a godsend. Equally evil to Hilary, he is so much more grotesquely evil in appearance, such unvarnished evil, that he will either be our last wake-up call to the goodness inside ourselves to throw he and his satanic minions away where they can't hurt us, hopefully to convert some back to sanity, or we just have finally totally proven that we are not an Adaptive species and it is time for us to go for the safety of all of the rest of creation on Earth and in the universe.

12.07.2016

If in the human species there is so little good that we do not rise up unviolently and stop Trump ism, that we do not rise up un violently and stop global warming, if we do not rise......

If in the human species there is so little good that we do not rise up unviolently and stop Trump ism, that we do not rise up un violently and stop global warming,  if we do not rise up un violently and stop us Empire, then it is time for our species to end and for the universe to be protected from us. Life taught me this by 5 years ago or so.  I find young person after young person after young person, these young Jedi, here in the camp, that are of the same mind before I speak the words.

12.05.2016

Is it time for an immediate deliberate aggressive brain drain from America? It may be. Yes, if all......

Is it time for an immediate deliberate aggressive brain drain from America? It may be. Yes, if all decent people leave and go to civilized countries then it leaves the nuclear keys in the hands of Barbarians. But if they blow us all up is that really so horrible? Not to me. Will we live our lives being held hostage by these Savages? Not I.  I expect I'll stay and fight from within. But many can fight this by taking their social emotional and intellectual Capital abroad. That too can be an effective step to protect the future.

12.03.2016

The hope of Standing Rock is the many Divine Souls that have been called here from all over the world. The weakness of Standing Rock is the absence of all leadership of..........

The hope of Standing Rock is the many Divine Souls that have been called here from all over the world. The weakness of Standing Rock is the absence of all leadership of competence and devoted decent intent. The rare exceptions prove the prevailing overwhelmingly prevailing rule.. Oh, there are dozens and dozens that assert themselves as leaders. Some are sort of trying. Most are various layers of drunk on their position of power and keeping and enjoying that power rather than devoting themselves to winning the war so their motives and the impact of their efforts is commensurately dangerous, damaging, damaged , deflating , deadly. The incompetence is fully understandable. No training, no experience, no track record, no centrally excellent leadership to learn from. Well, that's not true. No excellent indigenous leadership to learn from and because the dozens and dozens of appointed leaders operate primarily out of ego they are thereby prevented from learning from those who know better,  and especially to learn from their own mistakes which they are because of ego unwilling to even acknowledge. Rather they resent them, those non-indigenous that could help them,  they Target them, denigrate them,  and also the indigenous who don't go along with them. No different than the corporations they revile. Again, totally understandable. Totally deadly. But there is a collection of divine Souls here, mostly non-indigenous. And something may come of them staying and fighting and intermixing and energizing and educating one another for as long as they are together. Those strong Souls are strengthening the brightness of each other's flames and that certainly counts for something. I had forgotten that the Jedi were led by consummate evil and it wound up in their destruction. This has been true of most non violent revolutions or promising social revolutions throughout history that the top was rotten and initial successes turned into festering death. And there is growing concern that the indigenous leadership are selling out to the government betraying the reason that thousands of people have come here. Time will tell.

12.02.2016

Standing Rock update: this is the largest collection of healthy Souls that I have ever personally witnessed. It is a substantial collection of evil, corrupt, destructive Souls as well. Although......

Standing Rock update: this is the largest collection of healthy Souls that I have ever personally witnessed. It is a substantial collection of evil, corrupt, destructive Souls as well. Although I did not anticipate this, I realize it could hardly have been otherwise. Being good does not require intentionality nor does being evil. I consider neither to be a compliment nor slander. I consider it a very crucial, the most crucial, responsibility of discernment,  first, within ourself, but then responsibly among our companions. And which collection of souls stands the strongest will determine of what impact or none for the good this stand at Standing Rock turns out to be. And of course, in every one of us, the spirit of good and the spirit of evil exists. So too the effectiveness of Standing Rock for good or for evil depends upon within each of us causing the good to burn so bright that it all but extinguishes the evil, and thereby helping that fire of good rage and win out within those around us. I think the Outlook is very dim but it is the fight most worth fighting that I see on Earth right now. Here at Standing Rock. But also everywhere.

11.28.2016

Read this. James, a very well intended kind friend wrote, you think that you are all being set up for a Slaughter at Standing Rock, so that you are an example to anyone that.....

Read this. James, a very well intended kind friend wrote, you think that you are all being set up for a Slaughter at Standing Rock,  so that you are an example to anyone that would make the mistake of considering nonviolent resistance in the future. Keep your thoughts positive. There's no way they can do that to you all. My reply:  I know you intend well, as do I. Please let's both remember that. No one that is not here with their life In Harm's Way has the right to offer optimistic thoughts to anyone that is here. No one has the right to judge that this is not a life-and-death situation that is not here. What, they say to themselves after 1 or 10 or hundreds of us are hurt or maimed or destroyed for Life legally or dead... , oh goodness it was worse than I thought, I didn't know? Well, if I had known I would have.... That is immoral,   unrighteous, and in most cases sheer cowardice. No. No one not here has the right to minimize the risk.

A note to a dear girl that has been in my life for more than forty years:  This will be short because my battery is dying. last night was arrival at Standing Rock after 2 months of traveling. 7 o'clock......

A note to a dear girl that has been in my life for more than forty years:  This will be short because my battery is dying. last night was arrival at Standing Rock after 2 months of traveling. 7 o'clock in the rain in the dark on the verge of hypothermia. after sweating from pedaling all day. Exhausted. a kind young man helped me into the refugee camp, LOL, and moments later I was in a sleeping bag under 4 blankets. One of my key garments is a hooded sweatshirt and when I awoke this morning it was wet with sweat. a snowstorm hit over the night with fairly high winds. I've been carrying a waterproof army bag with some warm undergarments in anticipation of this cold weather and haven't checked it in months. It was a problem but that hooded sweatshirt was wet because it is key to my warmth. I expected there was nothing in that army bag that would be helpful to me. I laughed a belly laugh when I opened it and saw this red fleece jacket that you sent me. it is just the warmth that I needed. I think we are being set up for a Slaughter here so that anyone in future years that thinks about nonviolent resistance will know not to do it. This could be goodbye. James

11.24.2016

### Stop. Read this,  EVERY WORD. Ponder this deeply. Share this. Soldiers going to make a stand at Standing Rock.

### Stop. Read this,  EVERY WORD. Ponder this deeply. Share this.

http://reverbpress.com/news/calvary-meet-veterans-deploying-standing-rock/

Gandhi,  " I consider myself a soldier, though a soldier of peace.... Give me a military person to fight alongside any day, don't give me any cowards." From the article:  “We’ll have those people who will recognize that they’re not willing to take a bullet, and those who recognize that they are,” says Wood. “It’s okay if some of them step back, but Wes and I have no intention of doing so.”

11.23.2016

If I were the global fascist power Elites I would not allow Trump to become president, I would make sure that Hillary became president. Electoral......

If I were the global fascist power Elites I would not allow Trump to become president, I would make sure that Hillary became president. Electoral College, vote recount, whatever. They can do what they like. Why? Because Trump might just be enough to wake up the sleeping masses in time. Probably not, but it's possible. Hillary would get them to the same place, global domination, Global fascism, and there's no chance that the sleeping giant would awake.

Note to self: it is imperative that you move Beyond your inclination to protect the innocent of this moment. It is too late for that. The only hope is to be a tiny part of the Cure of the.......

Note to self: it is imperative that you move Beyond your inclination to protect the innocent of this moment. It is too late for that. The only hope is to be a tiny part of the Cure of the massive empathy deficit disorder that is destroying everything, massive empathy deficit disorder. This will be hard for you. It must not be impossible. Everything depends upon it. Decent lives for millions of us us, for billions of us, are already lost. That can't be stopped. What might be stopped is the loss of decent life for everyone now and in the future. everything depends upon curing the massive empathy deficit disorder. We must resist the temptation to save each other. We must focus on being sacrificed to make the disease, the massive empathy deficit disorder, visible,  and thereby curable. Remember.

Dear friends, I have been writing about the impending 4th Reich for years. I've been writing about the impending, the unfolding, the near inevitable ecological and economic Armageddon, for years. If you doubt any of this please look at my blog. My point? I am.......

Dear friends, I have been writing about the impending 4th Reich for years. I've been writing about the impending, the unfolding, the near inevitable ecological and economic Armageddon, for years. If you doubt any of this please look at my blog. I have been living accordingly,  waging my life against these disasters is best  I could figure out,  for 15 years now. I've devoted to making of my life asbestos solution I could, devoted study learning practice failure trial learning.... Look at my blog, look at my life. My point? I am an extremist. I think that anyone that is alive in their soul today is either an extremist or an extremist wanna be. An extremist of loving,  has called for and exemplified by dr. King. Looking to use their own body as constructively as they can to purchase a livable future for all future creation, though not for themselves. My life, my work, my Facebook page, my blog, my time, my any resource, is for those who also are extremists for love, or who desperately and seriously want to be and are becoming. Others are welcome to observe my work but any comments or demands on my time will be less and less and less and less and less welcome here. And any criticism of my extremism including my harshness? Including my calling out the timid cowardice of my sisters and brothers on the left? Are entirely unwelcome as of now. Please understand this. I will never be Unaware of criticisms outside me or Within Myself on such matters. I don't have time for further Dialogue on this. Your brother forever, no matter what, James

11.22.2016

I am an extremist, and I call for extremism. Everyone that isn't comfortable with that, for God sake, unfriend or unfollow me now. Why should we antagonize each other? Your brother, forever, no matter what. was dr. King wrong? He said we are all extremists, the......

I am an extremist, and I call for extremism. Everyone that isn't comfortable with that, for God sake, unfriend or unfollow me now. Why should we antagonize each other? Your brother, forever, no matter what. was dr. King wrong? He said we are all extremists, the only question is, are we extremists For Love or extremists for hate? And yet the left with almost no exceptions is pathologically terrified of extremism. What f****** Madness. Extreme danger is going to be met by what?

The Magnificent human beings are the ones who will be the first to be exterminated now. And these will be the lucky ones in many ways and they will consider themselves so. They will leave only the Living Dead behind.

The Magnificent human beings are the ones who will be the first to be exterminated now.  And these will be the lucky ones in many ways and they will consider themselves so.  They will leave only the Living Dead behind.

***** The only important question for you Today, in the age of trump, and the age of Hillary Clinton, in the age of the totally corporate Democratic Party, in the age of the right-wing sweeping government in America and Europe, is, which side are you on? Oh, you can't answer the question with words, even in your own mind. You.........

The only important question for you Today, in the age of trump, and the age of Hillary Clinton, in the age of the totally corporate Democratic Party, in the age of the right-wing sweeping government in America and Europe, is, which side are you on? Oh, you can't answer the question with words, even in your own mind. You have to look at your hour by hour Behavior. Where are you spending your money? Where are you spending each minute of the day? Where are you devoting your passion? Are you at extreme personal risk because you are getting in the way? If the answer is to get in the way of the destruction of all that is decent, then you have chosen the side of good. If that is not the answer, then you have chosen the side of evil.

11.20.2016

Mr. Trump is betting on the stupidity, ignorance, self-centeredness, smallness of heart, bigotry, fearfulness, inhumanity of Americans, and the cowardice of the ones who are not so hard-hearted. It looks like he's made the right bet.

Mr. Trump is betting on the stupidity, ignorance,  self-centeredness, smallness of heart, bigotry, fearfulness, inhumanity of Americans, and the cowardice of the ones who are not so hard-hearted. It looks like he's made the right bet.

Did you ever see the movie An Officer and a Gentleman? That's what my God is like, officer Foley. A Relentless Taskmaster, a real son of a b****, who......

Did you ever see the movie An Officer and a Gentleman? That's what my God is like, officer Foley. A Relentless Taskmaster, a real son of a b****, who is brutal on me to try and keep me alive (Soul,  not body) in a satanic, Evil, hateful world, by pushing me, by equipping me, to go into the battle to try and help the least of these my sisters and brothers. I don't know if I find anyone else Experiencing God, conscience, the divine within, heart, soul, the same way. Maybe I'm wrong about God. But that's my God, it's taken me a long time to find that God, and I don't want any other. It is pure hell, and Pure Heaven, pure Agony, and pure joy. The Peace of heart that surpasses all understanding.

If you are not yet risking your life, limb, and treasure, for the future of creation, you are not yet living. Paraphrase of Martin Luther King jr., with Liberties taken.

If you are not yet risking your life, limb, and treasure, for the future of creation, you are not yet living. Paraphrase of Martin Luther King jr., with Liberties taken.

'I can't leave my normal life right now because of my responsibilities to my family.' You have to leave your normal life right now exactly because of your responsibility is to your families.

'I can't leave my normal life right now because of my responsibilities to my family.' You have to leave your normal life right now exactly because of your responsibility is to your families.

With almost no exceptions churches, synagogues, are death camps for the soul, Heart, conscience, empathy, solidarity. I don't yet know about mosques.

With almost no exceptions churches, synagogues, are death camps for the soul, Heart, conscience, empathy, solidarity. I don't yet know about mosques.

***** MEDD (2). I am beginning to Pray Again. No, I will never believe in a being that can hear those prayers, some super being. I'm sure I will never believe that. All evidence.....

MEDD (2). I am beginning to Pray Again. No, I will never believe in a being that can hear those prayers, some super being. I'm sure I will never believe that. All evidence to the contrary. But nor is math existent in nature, nor language , nor technology and I gladly use those. They are all products of imagination. This specific prayer that I am beginning to practice is to speak in my mind and even vocalizing with an all loving father, or mother, that I can imagine. An all-knowing mother or father. Why am I beginning to practice this,  again? Because dialogue and or writing, is necessary to sanity and learning and growth. And this pretty well requires speaking to someone, knowledgeable, that cares,  and hears. Yes, but why prayer? Why to an imaginary figure? Because there are so few sane caring people available to dialogue with. Used properly, which almost always prayer is not, but used properly, it is a way of connecting more deeply with conscience, soul, heart , creation. And because I am preparing for what I anticipate which is to more and more be in the presence of sisters and brothers suffering from massive empathy deficit disorder, MEDD, hatred, fear, rage , violence, lies, deceit, ignorance, disinformation, on the road, and conversations, at Standing Rock, in prison, in court. I will need all of the tools at my disposal to maintain my sanity. I do not know how my current thinking will play out, but I believe that on the tombstone of all of creation being destroyed by we humans will be the words massive empathy deficit disorder,  MEDD,  unless some of us stand up and use our bodies to cure it in time. This is the disease that true revolutionaries treat and cure in their sisters and brothers that have that disease. The man Jesus showed us the way. To allow one's body to be used to make manifest the evil, the hatred, the inhumanity that infests one's sisters and brothers that they might see it and repent, and be healed, and have their empathy re-awakened, exercised and restored there by. First making of ourselves as pure and white and blank a canvas as possible, and then putting it and keeping it directly in  the way of the harm that is being delivered on the Innocents. We really have three choices, only 3. Kill them, or heal them, or be killed by them. I'm willing to be killed by them, and more and more I expect it, at least life in prison for non-violent opposition. I am unwilling to kill them because then I become them and there's only more killing and that future. I am unwilling to go down without fighting to cure them, my sisters and brothers all, and only too much me in my earlier life.

MEDD. To a dear sister that beautifully answered my question, where is the joy in shooting a beautiful deer, my reply : The economics, I get. I have no......

MEDD. To a dear sister that beautifully answered my question, where is the joy in shooting a beautiful deer, my reply : The economics, I get.  I have no question of that. I am glad that sisters and brothers in such need have that available. I think you have beautifully expressed much of what is going on, the unity with nature that is involved in the hunt even when a creature is not secured. Thank you. I think the Tombstone on Humanity, on Earth that humanity is destroying, will read something like massive empathy deficit disorder,  MEDD. There was a time when I was a teenager that a friend and I went out one day with shotguns and slaughtered dozens of birds. It was thrilling. It was inhumane. It was subhuman. I cringed in pain at the thought of my grotesque and Humanity. I would never do that again. But regarding hunting, it really isn't so much different regarding working in the healthcare industry, working in the defense industry, serving food to people that work there, working in Wall Street, working in government, being a lawyer, laying pipe for the fossil fuel industry , selling crap at Walmart.... We are all killing. When we pay taxes we are paying for the murder of non-white people all around the world. The movie Powder.

11.18.2016

My father's generation, the greatest Generation: I have to risk everything because of my responsibilities. I have to risk everything because of my family and my children. My generation: I can't risk anything because of....

My father's generation, the greatest Generation: I have to risk everything because of my responsibilities. I have to risk everything because of my family and my children. My generation: I can't risk anything because of  my responsibilities. I can't risk anything because of my children. What the f***. Gandhi called it cowardice. My father's generation and earlier Generations called it hiding behind Apron Strings. We don't f****** love our children and grandchildren anymore.

11.17.2016

Which is worse, having cancer or having cancer and not knowing that you do until it's too late to cure it? We should be thankful for Trump. It is not........

Which is worse, having cancer or having cancer and not knowing that you do until it's too late to cure it? We should be thankful for Trump. It is not too late to cure the cancer of hatred. What do we care enough to do so? Probably not. But we can't say we didn't know in time. The cancer is not from. The cancer is not our sisters and brothers who voted for Trump. The cancer is the hatred practiced by the Democratic Party Kama by the Republican Party, by liberal apathy, by conservative hatred and discrimination.

11.16.2016

***** Friends, I owe it to us all, I owe it to the Future, to be really clear. I consider my harshness out of extreme tough love, a virtue. My virtue? A virtue. I'm at War. I am at all out War for.......

Friends, I owe it to us all, I owe it to the Future, to be really clear. I consider my harshness out of extreme tough love, a virtue. My virtue? A virtue. I'm at War. I am at all out War for the future of all creation. How would you expect a warrior, me, or anyone, to be? What kind of intensity? What kind of dedication? What kind of devotion? What kind of Demands on them self? What kind of seriousness of purpose, Focus? What kind of personal risk? What kind of personal pain? A soldier in the midst of a firefight, you do not expect harshness of such an individual? Would you not question , Wonder at, have doubts about, a soldier in the midst of a firefight that was unwilling, and never seen to be, extremely profoundly harsh even toward beloved fellow soldiers? I sure the f*** would. I consider myself a soldier though a soldier of peace,  as did Gandhi before me. I say again, until we see millions of soldiers, soldiers, soldiers, soldiers ... of Peace there is not a f****** shred of Hope. Millions, millions, millions, millions.... I can't be Millions. But I will be one. If you are not or cannot become one who Embraces what I'm saying you probably should detach from me for your own peace of mind and so that we use each other's time well and do not misuse it.

11.11.2016

***** The central questions of life are, right now, where does Creation need me to be, what right now does Creation need me to attempt? Only those who every breath live those questions, make of their life an answer to those questions, have the ultimate human experience of feeling Alive.

The central questions of life are,  right now,  where does Creation need me to be,  what right now does Creation need me to attempt? Only those who every breath live those questions,  make of their life an answer to those questions,  have the ultimate human experience of feeling Alive.

11.10.2016

The physical risk of trying to be a decent, a Godly, human being in the world has just gone up enormously.

The physical risk of trying to be a decent,  a Godly, human being in the world has just gone up enormously.

11.02.2016

Do you work for God, the nine year old boy asked? I I try to, I responded. This at the Aldi on the southside of Chicago in a poor part of town.

Do you work for God, the nine year old boy asked? I try to, I responded. This at the Aldi on the southside of Chicago in a poor part of town.

10.18.2016

Are you a Christian? You love America? Ru for Palestine and against Israel? Unbelievably hideous , dishonest......

Are you a Christian? You love America? Ru for Palestine and against Israel? Unbelievably hideous , dishonest, ignorant, hateful questions. Are you a Christian? What does that mean? Do you hate gays or give your life to protect them? Do you hate undocumented immigrants or give your life to protect them? Do you hate transgendered people or give your life to protect them? Do demonize the poor or give your life to protect them? Do you hate Muslims or give your life to protect them? Do you love America? See the above. Are you against Israel and for Palestine? Are you for your wife's side of the family or your own? Do you love your sons and hate your daughters or do you love your daughters and hate your sons? Am I a Christian? My religion is trying to be like Christ, trying to be completely loving. Do I love America? I love what I was taught in kindergarten. I hate the way we behave in the world today. I am for the human rights of everyone, Israelis, Palestinians, whites, blacks, Christians, Muslims, liberals, conservatives, etc etc etc.

BIAS, against any individual or group is discrimination, bigotry , Racist,  elitist, evil, unacceptable, dehumanizing, sin. No honest, no........

BIAS, against any individual or group is discrimination, bigotry , Racist,  elitist, evil, unacceptable, dehumanizing, sin,  anti-Christ. No honest, no sane, individual can believe or assert that America, that the u.s. people, that law enforcement, the government, is not biased against exactly those who Jesus Championed, exactly those who Jesus elevated, exactly those who were the Center of Jesus family. The disadvantaged,  the minorities, poor, the different, the marginalized, the weak, the unreligious, the unpopular, those of a different faith, the non-conformist.... That one received such negative bias, or the group that receive such negative bias, not for an instant does it justifying or forgive bias against in return. Love those who persecute you. Do good to those who persecute you. They will know you by how you love. I don't know about your father, but my Father loves every individual exactly the same , and experiences immense pain with even a disrespectful,  harmful,  unkind word thought or uttered toward one of His children. Okay, he loves those who experience bias against them, more. As you do unto the least of these, the least of these my Family, every creature, you do unto me.

Dear friends, notice: I see this very very infrequently among my small circle, but those few that Express themselves, that experience themselves, as quote against the other side, unquote it's time for this to stop or for us to unfriend each other. I have hope in, and........

Dear friends, notice: I see this very very infrequently among my small circle, but those few that Express themselves, that experience themselves, as quote against the other side, unquote it's time for this to stop or for us to unfriend each other. I have hope in, and I only have time to affiliate with, those who are for every creature unconditionally, and against every Injustice unconditionally. No exceptions.  Never against another creature, including another human being. Never. Never. Never against another group, not for any breath, ever. Against Injustice? With all our might. Against bigotry? With all our might. Against oppression, violence? With every fiber of our being. Never ever us against them. Don't do it, or we need to stop wasting each other's time. Militants,  passionately, VA, forcefully, relentlessly , unequivocally for the dignity, sanity, rights, good, fundamental needs of every creature, especially every human being, or we need to stop wasting each other's time. No exceptions. No exceptions for even a moment. It's too little too late for that. Whenever you see me doing it please call me out.

10.17.2016

Bigotry and racism, even the slightest hint of bigotry and racism is precisely, exactly, completely, totally the perfect thing to do if one wants to be anti Christ. The exact center and the Heart of his.......

Bigotry and racism, even the slightest hint of bigotry and racism is precisely, exactly, completely, totally the perfect thing to do if one wants to be anti Christ. The exact center and the Heart of his ministry was embracing those that others had made Outcast, the Sinners, the sick, the weak, the poor,  the neglected and abused,  the unbelievers, the criminals,  the government, those shamed and Damned by the religious of the day. How much more unforgivable,  sinful, today when we have known of his example for two thousand years. Unforgivable. Soul killing. Desecration of Christ when done by those that claim to follow him.  "I like your Christ. I do not like your Christians. They are so unlike your Christ." "There would be no more Hindus if Christians would practice their faith." Gandhi. "I think the greatest obstacle to people becoming Christian is those who preach the gospel and do not follow it." Teresa of Calcutta  "We need to preach the gospel, every day, all day long, and occasionally, use words, to do so." Francis of Assisi

***** I have never been so wealthy, because these last four weeks , from trying to do good, I was poor and helpless. My first five decades I.........

I have never been so wealthy, because these last four weeks , from trying to do good, I was poor and helpless. My first five decades I had material wealth that makes me cringe with regret. These last four weeks I have had the wealth of community such as I never imagined I would live to see. Part of it is lds. I could never share their origin beliefs in my soul. Not possible for me. Nor would I want to. But as my teacher Jesus said, they will know you by how you love, and these folks love. They are denomination was seems to be producing loving people such as I have never hoped to see. Part of it is living among those who have not embraced our cultural ways , our worship of material wealth. Here in this part of the country the true economy is profoundly different,  deep opposite. In my Northern sophisticated life the first, second, third, fourth lines of defense are money. Here in the country South Part I have been in those lines of Defence are neighbors,  friends,  strangers who you know and don't know. These folks are so much more Rich than we poor over privileged Northerners. So much more wealthy. And, hear this, we Northerners endure our economy for the pitiful Pleasures it gives us. The economy down here that I have witnessed is intrinsically joyful. Infinitely more than we Northerners, there is intrinsic worth and what these folks do. Growing stuff. Feeding folks. Helping folks. Serving folks. Building Community with folks. Flow is a concept that every video game programmer knows. Mahalo csikszentmihalyi University of Chicago found that the human being is the most gratified when it is totally absorbed in the challenge, Pursuits, for which she or he has adequate skill, like a video game, but those whose whole life is like that AR living a life that makes a difference to their neighbors, a positive difference. The most joyful population he and his researchers found in the world was a farming community off-grid, out of all communication, in the northern Italian Alps. That's what I've been in these last 4 weeks. Tens or hundreds of years ahead of us. Perfect? Oh my goodness no. The only thing that shouts louder than their protests that they are not racist or bigoted as their racism and bigotry. That must change. For their very Souls that must change. But they are way ahead of us sophisticated Northerners. Their economy is infinitely more Rich, more sustainable , more Godly. Part of the ugliness that they do evidence, may be a large part, is out of the fear of the ever more powerful Northern Elite crushing all that is Good, Godly,  Christlike ,  that they have. It is understandable that they would act out hateful,  in horror and Terror.  had I not been poor, vulnerable, helpless because I was trying to help others, I would never have encountered this. What a Divine gift. What a divine blessing. I will be infinitely wealthier because of this, forever.

Thanks to my brother Wayne Critsky for sharing this scripture with me. "Found this in the Bible. But mark this: There will be terrible times in the last days. 2 People will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boastful, pro.........

Thanks to my brother Wayne Critsky for sharing this scripture with me. "Found this in the Bible.
But mark this: There will be terrible times in the last days. 2 People will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boastful, proud, abusive, disobedient to their parents, ungrateful, unholy, 3 without love, unforgiving, slanderous, without self-control, brutal, not lovers of the good, 4 treacherous, rash, conceited, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God— 5 having a form of godliness but denying its power. Have nothing to do with such people.

6 They are the kind who worm their way into homes and gain control over gullible women, who are loaded down with sins and are swayed by all kinds of evil desires, 7 always learning but never able to come to a knowledge of the truth. 8 Just as Jannes and Jambres opposed Moses, so also these teachers oppose the truth. They are men of depraved minds, who, as far as the faith is concerned, are rejected. 9 But they will not get very far because, as in the case of those men, their folly will be clear to everyone."

10.16.2016

LDS. No offense to anyone, I have long believed.......

LDS.  No offense to anyone, I have long believed that God, and Good, are the same thing. Exactly,  completely,  no exception,  nothing added. I Maybe the last in the world to have thought this, or among the first. If you know of others that think the same, particularly any scholarship, I certainly would like to know. I'm more convinced of it all the time. God is good, and we hate good. In this sick culture, we hate good. But not the LDS folks that I continue to meet, they do not seem to hate good, but rather they seem to love it. I can't see the strings attached. I can't see them. Yesterday I asked the extremely able and kind man who contacted me out of the blue, alerted by his North Carolina LDS brother to my needs, I asked him how my North Carolina brother found him. Well, I guess he just searched through our directory. Today I went to the 9 o'clock service, and I'm so glad I did. What a collection of kind loving Godly Souls I believe I saw. Who's the president of this LDS branch? My brother Steve who without a hint helped me all day yesterday. water, absolute, complete humility. From what I see so far the denomination could with even greater Clarity, I'm not suggesting this, I'm trying to share an Insight, the denomination could call themselves The Brothers and Sisters of Jesus. And thereby they would identify themselves clearly as the Brothers and Sisters to people in need that they seem to be. They don't seem to have sermons, and they don't seem to have a preacher. They are each the preachers, in the same way that each Marine in a Marine base is a Marine. What a novel idea. Of the two major speakers today, the man spoke of one of the primary works of their Church, monthly in home teaching. This role is something they speak of quite often it seems, as I heard it spoken of at their televised National Conference 2 weeks ago. What they continue to hammer home is that it is not simply teaching, or preaching, and in fact it may contain little or any of that depending upon the situation. The example he gave was of a teacher, I don't remember if he was the one or not, and the teacher is just any congregation member currently holding that roll, a teacher going to conduct the monthly visit to a trailer, they entered the trailer, and they saw there was no furniture. And they realized that their role that day was to secure furniture for these folks. The same man, a bit younger than me, bespoke that he had converted to LDS. He said as I recall, that as a new convert, it so happened that his Field of Corn had blown flat. It was now winter time and it was an impossible job to clear his 9 Acres of all of this corn. He described how in a previous denomination they had work parties. He explained that he was favored with one of those and was very appreciative of the four people that showed up to help. He was told by his new LDS congregation that they were going to come on Saturday in work party. He was very grateful and he prepared for the four people that would show up. The 40 people were able to complete 1/3 of the nine acres in one day. Yes, 40 people showed up. 40. 4 0. The bishop of the congregation, the head guy, no one in the entire denomination in the world is paid although a few receive a cost-of-living support if it would be impossible for them to cover all of their own expenses, the bishop had and executed an idea of bringing in a large combine and the rest of the nine acres was cleared. Dr. Martin Luther King said, a church is the place people go out from from. Although I am against almost all military force, and almost all of the disgusting military force that the United States employs to rape and plunder people around the world, I am a deep admirer of the courage displayed by many men and women in uniform which is why I wear military attire proudly. For decades now I have believed that a place worthy the name of church is a place where people go to become equipped and trained to deploy on missions,  and now my 3rd or 4th or 5th or 6th major LDS encounter this last month with no strings attached, but if they're there they will make themselves clear to me because I'm hyper sensitive to that. I don't think that's going to happen. I see humility, desire to change and become an Ever greater force for good, honesty, kindness. A desire to Everyday to become a greater source of good individually and collectively. Really really simple. I am certain no one is trying to deceive me. I am fairly certain that they have not deceived themselves. I am so extraordinary happy with what I'm seeing.

10.15.2016

Maybe I've never shared this, among the most important gifts I've ever received. About 15 years ago I......

Maybe I've never shared this, among the most important gifts I've ever received. About 15 years ago I embarqed toward the journey that has captured me ever since. Leaving the ways of our culture, 180 degrees in the opposite direction, from working to make rich people richer, like me, to lived solidarity from the soul serving our neediest sisters and brothers. It was Joyful from the start. There was never, has never been, the tiniest portion of a instant when I've been other than overjoyed with this total change of direction. It is pretty much muscle memory for me now, but not so at the beginning. It could not have been. It was natural for me, I think it is the natural path we were all born to. But our sick culture strips us away from that path, thinking it virtue to do so to its children, and puts us on exactly the opposite, exactly the wrong path. And we gain muscle memory for that and our nervous system literally and actually atrophies for the correct path. So it takes tremendous work and experience for that to be recreated. Really in my departure on this path I found it useful to imagine that there is a creator of us all, a parent figure that unconditionally loves us all. For me then and now God is love, life, and Truth. Period.  People like Teresa and Gandhi said the same, and most if not all of those who throughout history I Revere lived the same. That was an understanding in my head but it was also something more and more clearly felt in my spirit. It became tangible for me in that way. I had a wonderful warm feeling, tremendous peace, each moment that I experienced myself as in creators will. And then I received the gift. From my earliest memories I was obsessed with the female form and all things sexual toward that form. For most of my decades, carefully taught by my culture in a trillion ways, I thought that virtue. I was carefully addicted to all of the lists that our society worships but I'll speak of this one for the moment. The gift I received was in the form of a question that came to my mind, as I was following my inclination to admire a shapely female form, the question came to me, is that that you are now starting to direct your attention toward, is that toward or away from God? The answer was instantaneous for me, instantly and comfortably clear, away from. Yes, I can hear the chorus arguing otherwise. I'm speaking what I experienced then, and with every breath since. The answer for me was instantaneous, that's away from being a vessel for love, life, and Truth. It is turning away from love, toward lust, toward my selfish inclinations, away from serving the neediest from the soul in solidarity. It was then instantly clear to me that turning away from the pure Spirit of love, life, and Truth, was not the choice I wanted to make then. And it has never been the choice since then that I have wanted to make, in any instant. Experientially for me it is not about right and wrong. It is not about guilt or not being guilty. It certainly has nothing to do with an afterlife in which I have zero belief. For me it is simply a matter of now having a mechanism that enables me to pursue Joy rather than pleasure, Joy being infinitely more gratifying in any and every moment then pleasure. I don't know that this could make sense to anyone beside me. Or maybe everyone beside me learned it much earlier and knows that much better. I don't know that it can be helpful to anyone beside me. But it has saved me from wasting even moments on Pleasure when there was an infinite Divine banquet of Joy there before me,   and before all of us I believe, with every breath we take. But it is all but completely obscured behind the Avalanche, the ocean, the universe, love sick country messages inundating us from our pathological, suicidal, malignant culture telling us exactly the opposite. So without mechanisms such as I just mentioned it is almost impossible to choose the joyful path from moment to moment.. James

A common love, reverence and awe as the man Jesus possessed, such as the people of love and reverence and awe almost universally have for the man Jesus, is uniting some of us above all other obvious divisions, such as my appearance. I've been.......

A common love, reverence and awe as the man Jesus possessed, such as the people of love and reverence and awe almost universally have for the man Jesus, is uniting some of us above all other obvious divisions, such as my appearance. I've been encountering it over and over in my  Voyage Through the South and I've been writing of it. I never expected to see it, or to personally experience it. But undeniably I am these recent weeks. My brother David says I may be playing some role in that. I don't see it. I don't understand it. But I hope I am. I want to more than anything else in the world. Nothing else will save us, in Jesus name, or no name at all. A mass Awakening of the humanity that Jesus embodied is the only thing that can give our children, grandchildren, all species in the future, a future worth living.  I Think Jesus said something like what has overwhelmed and possessed my life, 'I came to bring a fire and oh how I wish it were raging.'

10.14.2016

EFLIUS Day 43: Okay, the joke's over. I'm ready for this to stop. The chain snapped and......

EFLIUS Day 43: Okay, the joke's over. I'm ready for this to stop. The chain snapped and the vehicle is marooned here in beautiful country in the middle of absolutely nowhere in terms of access to a bike store, Walmart, a hardware store with a bike chain.... The good news is a kindly and very expert bikeguy about 4 weeks ago thought to give me a chain repair kit. The bad news is that the pieces that join the repaired chain are the wrong size which I figured out after an hour of trying to get the chain together. Using the phone of an elderly farmer and his wife who so kindly stopped with this ragamuffin weird looking guy. They let me use the phone. Offered to transport the vehicle and the truck but it was too small. Did I mention that I'm literally 40 miles away from any place where my cell phone, or internet access might work? That ended about 3 o'clock in the afternoon yesterday. Oddly, at 4 this morning the 2G Wi-Fi was able to send a few things. Currently I'm in a small restaurant recharging batteries, eating at the buffet, recharging the body,  using the Wi-Fi. I anticipate sleeping sitting up in the Food Lion parking lot the next two nights. I hope the police have a sense of humor. The farmer went around the bend to a fellow he knew and arranged for me to charge my batteries, depleted after a 3000 foot, six hour climb. Charged the batteries for 2 hours talking to the extremely Charming couple. Everyone said, the climbing is behind you. Then there was another 1200 feet, huge. I'm exhausted. Marooned here until late Monday afternoon when parts arrive via UPS. Another $50 bled. This is a town of 400. There is one stop light. It is the only stoplight in the entire huge County. I am not deriding it. It's wonderful. It's just hell for my current situation. There is a hotel, $100 a night. That's not going to happen. I'm so tired. I'll be fine. I'm ready for the jokes to stop stop. this is Trivial trivial trivial trivial in comparison with the people that are really suffering. But yes, I'm ready for the jokes to stop.

Does conservative all too often mean, holding......

Does conservative all too often mean,  holding on to traditions of profound evil hateful selfishness years,  decades or even centuries longer than liberals? Does liberal near always mean, Lip-service not Life-service? {yes.  No? Have you liquidated and returned every cent of your liberal white economic  privilege,  built on the backs of black slaves, and on native American genocide?)

10.13.2016

Racism is when, even for one breath, even for one sentence, one word, one thought, one tiny act, you value others less than those of your race. Bigotry, discrimination, are when you do so based on any demographic.

Racism is when, even for one breath, even for one sentence, one word, one thought,  one tiny act, you value others less than those of your race. Bigotry,  discrimination, are when you do so based on any demographic.

10.12.2016

The hope is, there is profound commonality between conservative and liberal , secular and religious, values. The problem is, both sides, use their values as mortal weapons, clubs, words to gain access to their respective mobs so that they can overpower the other side, rather than something to live by without excuse.

The hope is, there is profound commonality between conservative and liberal , secular and religious, values. The problem is, both sides, use their values as mortal weapons, clubs, words to gain access to their respective mobs so that they can overpower the  other side, rather than something to live by without excuse.

10.11.2016

Jesus' Miracle, the miracle of Jesus, was his unconditional love, Universal family , solidarity with all of creation, specially the neediest. I don't know......

Jesus' Miracle, the miracle of Jesus, was his unconditional love, Universal family , solidarity with all of creation, specially the neediest. I don't know if Christianity, Christians, are blind to this or if they hate it, or both. But from the very beginning what they have done is absolutely bury the miracle of Jesus underneath worldly Miracles they made up and sell in his name. The rare exceptions prove the rule. For the vast majority it is not lies that they tell intentionally. Someone I have never heard of blindsided me with an email the other day, you belittle Jesus, I was told. No. The church for 2000 years belittles Jesus, obscures, perverts, burries, distorts, Jesus. Not I.

EFLIUS Day 39: Hopefully Wednesday looks like a realistic departure on the 1700 mile, 33000 foot climb, to North Dakota. Pretty.....

EFLIUS Day 39: Hopefully Wednesday looks like a realistic departure on the 1700 mile, 33000 foot climb, to North Dakota. Pretty dangerous. Pretty good mission. I'm absolutely bleeding money into this vehicle. It's all appropriate. I just don't have it. Nothing left for warm clothes and food. when I set out I thought I'd be in Florida by now. It went down to 48 degrees last night. I found out that my sleeping bag is good to about 50. LOL. Maybe you have friends that would like to contribute. I'll press on regardless. I'm really glad for the mission. Some wonderful folks have taken me in and helped me repair the vehicle. But it has been agony being marooned for 3 weeks now.... < if there is a true activist alive today, I know that individual, and that individual just asked how they can contribute. I sensed you were in trouble. How can I help?" They already contribute everything they have and everything they are to the world's neediest. This was my reply>: Start_loving@yahoo.com, but not from you! How many times did I tell you you can't take a transfusion from your left arm and put it into your right arm? LOL. See if you can shame some of your friends into it. PayPal works with the email address, and pop money. With the email address. Western Union also works. Western Union is more difficult because apparently they need to know what state you're in. If my current schedule holds I should be in West Virginia by this weekend, and Ohio early next week. But we still could hit a snag with the vehicle. It has been totally not operational for two weeks +.  Dead. The factory owner is so freaking psychotic that when at the suggestion of one of their employees I showed up with it at their site for a two-hour repair I would gladly have paid through the nose for they said, get this off the property. You are two months out of warranty. Get this off the property.  Organic Transit, Durham North Carolina. $200 in repair has turned into $800 in new electrical system purchased and probably another $800 in donated labor and three weeks delay to the mission. Incredibly cruel. The vehicle will be much more durable now, much more durable, and I expect that it will be my vehicle, my boat, my solar Fusion bike car sailor, the free Palestine vehicle, for as many years as I can proceed. So in the long run it will pay off, but my credit cards are hemorrhaging to death. If I can get past the next three months I'll be okay, but it's pretty tight right now..... A wonderful family has taken me in, and he is a world-class expert in large Plant automation Electronics. But not in ebike so there has been much learning and trial and error. And the experts in the field are nice folks but they like designing and selling but not helping so much. But it appears that the worst is behind us and tomorrow things may wrap up. They have just been incredible in unflinchingly supporting me for weeks now. They are a North Carolina Southern conservative family while they both are professional people, he is former Army, and I have learned a tremendous amount by being here.... There may not be many families in the South that would have taken me in, but there would be fewer families in the north that would take me in,   and way more that would help me,  in the south. There may be families in the South that will kill me, and possibly fewer in the north that would. LOL. My incredible activist friend also asked about, what about a bus ticket to ND, put the vehicle in storage? My reply:  The vehicle is really Central to my work. The voyage is Central to my work. I'm sure of that. It can draw, it does draw, so much positive attention to Palestine, global warming, renewable energy,  North Dakota,  Loving,  Universal Family. No, the journey is everything. 'You are right,' my friend said.

10.03.2016

EFLIUS Day 32: I have rarely in my 65 years felt less alien than I have this last week or so in rural North Carolina. Unlike my Northern, liberal......

EFLIUS Day 32: I have rarely in my 65 years felt less alien than I have this last week or so in rural North Carolina. Unlike my Northern, liberal, Brethren, these folks , like me, are people of feeling, passion, not near exclusively of the head and flesh. They have an affection and regard for Jesus, as do I, and as so many of my liberal brethren either do not or pay the most superficial self-serving lip service to.  But I am mightily concerned for them and their impact on the world which otherwise could be so positive, because I think they're headed into this kind of exit conversation with Jesus, and I think it's going to go badly for them, and badly for us all: "Jesus, because of the Liberals, because of the government, because of taxes, because people didn't reach out to the churches,... I was unloving to the... I was not courageously loving to... I did not do unto the least of these... The gays, the poor, the blacks, the pregnant mother, the unwanted child, the poor child, the transgendered, the drug dealer, the Muslim, the Arab,  the Refugee, the undocumented immigrant, the Palestinian, the liberal, the intellectual Elite , all future creatures including human regarding global warming.... The Liberals made me do it, the government made me do it, taxes make me do it, laws dictated by the cities made me do it, coming for my guns made me do it,  their beliefs... Their lack of belief... Their behavior... Their lack of behavior... Made me do it... and instead I sat in Judgment of them. Jesus, as I know him, and what do I know, but as I know and follow him, he didn't give us any excuses. What he gave us was the example of the Good Samaritan. The levite had all the reasons not to stop, and did not stop. The priest had all the reasons not to stop,  and did not stop.... to help the wounded enemy who did not reach out. The Samaritan simply saw a neighbor in need and devoted himself to the task. In this story of the Good Samaritan, in every utterance of Jesus, and every example Jesus gave us, I see no place that he gives us any excuses. Love as I have loved. As you do unto the least of these you do unto me, as you do not do unto the least of these you neglect and abuse me. You break my heart. And judgment is mine alone to make. Do unto others all, all, all, all, all that you would have them do unto you. To speak the laughably obvious, I am not God, therefore I know no perfect truth, but I do my best, I pay any price personally, to see and share the truth is I've come to know it. Love the enemy, bless those who persecute you. Love unconditionally. Agape. What I'm saying is not between me and my sisters and brothers in the rural South. Nothing should be between them and me. Everything should be between us and the Creator. But as a brother I am obligated, joyfully so, regardless what the personal cost to Me May be, I am obliged to share what I think I need to share with my sister and or brother. So I do. So I will with my last breath. And yes, I think that the exit conversation between my liberal sisters and brothers will go at least as badly if not more so with Jesus at their end.

9.27.2016

I'm dead, if I'm on the eastbound side of that blind curve yesterday around which came.....

I'm dead, if I'm on the eastbound side of that blind yesterday around which came a huge logging truck at 60 miles an hour throwing huge clouds of dust. There's no way he stops. There's no way I get out of the way. I don't even see him. That's it. The trucks travel these roads at highway speed. It will be interesting. Regarding death my only personal wish, a mild one, but my only personal wish is that it happens quickly and painlessly.

If the choice is between Trump, Clinton, and America totally disintegrating, I think that America totally disintegrating is Far and Away the best choice for creation, the universe, Americans, and certainly the rest of the world and all creatures.

If the choice is between Trump, Clinton, and America totally disintegrating, I think that America totally disintegrating is Far and Away the best choice for creation, the universe, Americans, and certainly the rest of the world and all creatures.

***** EFLIUS Day 25. Working in the office here, today. Office work. Slept upstairs last night, first secure night on this voyage. Listened to......

EFLIUS Day 25. Working in the office here, today. Office work. Slept upstairs last night, first secure night on this voyage. Listened to the rain all night, well, those few moments that I was awake. Gladly promised the Godly young son of The Godly proprietor (this convert to Mormonism, LDS, in this substantially LDS community, reflexively offered his upstairs for me to rest for the night, the first person to even think of doing so on this long journey, here there was room at the Inn for the night) I told him gladly that his son could drive the Free Palestine Solar Fusion Sailor while waiting for the bus this morning. I slept through my alarm and didn't wake up except in time to see the bus departing out the upstairs window. I've rarely been so horrified. I can't remember the last time I've been so horrified at anything I've done. One thought was to use the day to retrieve the part I need from Durham which would be A 6 hour round trip, 7 hour round trip. Another was to occupy NC State in Greensboro, another 7 hour round trip. I can certainly use a day of office work in this Godly little Enclave. I may be romanticizing it but I don't think I am. It's 60 years ago... in 2016... a time machine.  As an ignorant northern white guy I expected to see racial tensions. What I see here, in Durham, and elsewhere where I have seen the races mixed in the south,  is  One race, the human race,  1 family, the Human family, as people treat one another.  Of course I'm not seeing the whole picture, but I'm seeing part of the picture.  It is certainly, what I have been exposed to, not more racially divided, and I am pretty sure less racially-divided, than the northern world that I've always lived in. They may or may not think of themselves this way, but it's family,  extended family, Universal family , the family Jesus died to create, Creator's Family,  regardless of religious background or affiliation. I don't know, but I would bet, that when anyone needs help, when someone is in trouble, when someone needs looking after,  the Community does it without thinking about it. Black white Filipino hispanic..... Everyone knows everyone's name. Everyone is respectful. Everyone is warm. Everyone knows everyone. They gather here and talk. It is a large extended family. Aside from my homeless shelter in DC I think this is the first fully, actually, comfortably, joyfully, integrated Community I've ever been in. Is there hate here? I suspect so. Is it perfect? I'm sure it is not. People seem happy. They are hundreds of years ahead of the rest of us, I suspect. There is much to be done here today online. Many many thousands of Google alerts I've not had the time to look at in the last month. Dozens or hundreds of Articles to cue up for the coming trip. Today I should be able to come to an understanding of the amount of watts that I need to budget per thousand foot climb, a project that I've worked on but have not yet mastered. Maybe some cleanup of the website blog. And by departing after the school bus arrives and Noah gets his ride I should be able to make it halfway,  20 mi, to the location where my part arrives at 10:30 tomorrow morning and do the rest tomorrow morning retaining the departure schedule I was on already. When I say I'm going to do something I always do it. It's selfish, I like the way that feels, and I like the way of being that is. A person is no better than their words. No other than their word. Their word means something or they mean nothing. And he is such an extraordinarily good young man. The whole family. If you pick up your cross it will cost you husband wife house Fields, but it will give you a hundred fold in this lifetime, connection with those people, no credit to themselves, that have retained some portion, or regained some portion, of their godliness. Godliness, loving, Universal family, is the only Beauty, the only thing lovely, the only thing that I value in this life. It is the Divine by whatever word or none at all. Oh,  LOL. And I'll have time to bathe. There is a partially working bathtub in the upstairs here, largely disassembled but at least hot and cold running water. I was offered the opportunity last night, of course, but I just went comatose right away. So everyone in the future on this trip can be thankful for that. Lol. Some Americans are so poor that all they have is money, and the rest of us Americans insanely want to be so poor. Madness. PS. Hey liberals, these are the folks you ridicule. These are the folks you deride. These are the folks you consider yourself so Superior to. You know what? These are not the folks grotesquely over consuming and thereby destroying the planet. That would be you. These are not the folks with all their grandiose ideas destroying the world. That would be you. These are not the scientists developing GMOs, pesticides, Advanced Weaponry, high speed Trading, drones, electronic surveillance systems , that would be you scientist 90% liberal. Every one of these folks has been so kind to me. I suspect every one of the non colored folks is a trump supporter. With my two Advanced degrees, Ultra sophisticated Northern upbringing, this is one of the very few places I have ever felt like I was not an alien, one of the few places that ever felt like home.

### A Gay Jewish Zionist American Doctor in Gaza and What He Saw

http://www.thedailybeast.com/articles/2014/09/22/a-gay-jewish-zionist-american-doctor-in-gaza-and-what-he-saw.html

9.25.2016

I'm deeply studied it in the historical scholarship on the man Jesus. His Central concern.......

I'm deeply studied it in the historical scholarship on the man Jesus. His Central concern in the day was how brutally grinding cruel forces of Empire we're forcing people to dehumanize, the social structure of human bonds one to another to disintegrate. This was what he gave his life to prevent. Exactly the same forces are destroying the last remnants of humanity in 2016. Were he alive today he again would pit his life against the destruction of individual and group Humanity Above All Else. And that's my mission too . He failed utterly. I too expect to fail utterly. But he did not fail to try. I shall not fail to try.

EFLIUS Day 23: The African American man, if not homeless, One Step Above, looks like you have a whole bunch of work out here, he said. Yes sir, I said. I have seen you.......

EFLIUS Day 23: The African American man, if not homeless, One Step Above, looks like you have a whole bunch of work out here, he said. Yes sir, I said. I have seen you working here and working and working. Yes sir, I said. Hey, I said, will you give me a hand for a second? Sure, he said. Bolts needed to be tightened while I held pressure on a certain part of the vehicle. He happily helped. It took just a moment literally. Hey, have you taken a lunch break? I said, I'm fine thanks. Can I get you a chicken sandwich at McDonald's?. Truly friend I'm fine, but thank you so much. God bless, he said, as so many of the kind people who stop say. In this death bed sick, malignantly cancerous, virulent Society, some are so poor that all they have is money, and the rest of us are trying to be among them.  2. Success. Two days ago I projected that two major projects could take 4 hours to 4 days to resolve. It appears that in two days they are now both resolved. Probably I'm too tired to move on today. There are some tiny things on the vehicle that need to be done. I'm likely to do those. And be in a strong position for a strong start on 1700 miles, 33,000 feet of climbing, to North Dakota to stand against the corporate Frankenstein monster that is in the final stages of destroying everything. Test driving might prove otherwise but it looks like repairs, modifications, enhancements, are coming to a close,  and the exploration can resume . James

9.24.2016

"I don't know anyone that is as committed to the future of humanity, creation, the planet As You Are." I wish I had responded to........

"I don't know anyone that is as committed to the future of humanity, creation, the planet As You Are." I wish I had responded to that kind man this morning, "Anyone and everyone who is not would be infinitely more joyful if they were. In the moment. And certainly looking back in the future. But absolutely, in the moment. This is where the joy is. Yes, pleasure is in exactly, precisely, completely in the other direction. Whoever knows Joy, knows that pleasure is totally uninteresting given the opportunity for joy."

9.23.2016

Along with teachers, police officers are the most abused citizens an our Workforce. We are a culture......

Along with teachers, police officers are the most abused citizens an our Workforce. We are a culture in which 65% of us, those not chronically poor, compete against ourselves, devote Our Lives, to prostituting ourselves in the hopes of getting some of the droppings from the 1%. That is to say we do the opposite of what the likes of Jesus have commanded US by their example and words. We devote ourselves to the most of these and totally neglect the least of these. Thereby we the 66% with any resources create crime, create massive failure in schools. And then we leave it to the police, and teachers, to the totally completely absolutely impossible job of dealing with the mess. And then we further abuse them when they don't succeed at doing the impossible. When it drives some of them crazy. When it tempts some of them into horrible Behavior. But in no tiny particle does that excuse the police of violating the law. No citizen is above the law.

Perish the thought that we should totally reorient this f****** culture away from spending our entire lives on pitiful little trinkets for ourselves and........

Perish the thought that we should totally reorient this f****** culture away from spending our entire lives on pitiful little trinkets for ourselves and begin devoting our entire lives to our neediest sisters and brothers so that we all live in the relative Paradise that this planet was created to provide.

9.22.2016

If the shoe does not fit, do not wear it: You know how we look with pity and horror at that a family member or friend or acquaintance or news item that has robbed their mother, their father, their........

If the shoe does not fit, do not wear it: You know how we look with pity and horror at that a family member or friend or acquaintance or news item that has robbed their mother, their father, their brother, there friend, for their drug fix? Look around you. Look at your possessions. Look at today's receipts. Look at yesterday's receipts. Is there anything there that was not absolutely necessary for your basic survival and your basic ability to do emergency work to help the neediest on Earth? Yes? Then to that degree you are that addict. We are robbing our brothers and sisters and all future generations of all creation with every single penny that we spend on anything besides their emergency relief and possible salvation. That's the fact. That's the truth. Look in the mirror. We are that addict. Stop it. And if you stop it you may cause someone else to stop it. Stop it.

You know how we look with pity and horror at that a family member or friend or acquaintance or news item that has robbed their mother, their father, their brother, there friend, for their drug fix? Look around you. Look at your possessions. Look......

If the shoe does not fit, do not wear it: You know how we look with pity and horror at that a family member or friend or acquaintance or news item that has robbed their mother, their father, their brother, there friend, for their drug fix? Look around you. Look at your possessions. Look at today's receipts. Look at yesterday's receipts. Is there anything there that was not absolutely necessary for your basic survival and your basic ability to do emergency work to help the neediest on Earth? Yes? Then to that degree you are that addict. We are robbing our brothers and sisters and all future generations of all creation with every single penny that we spend on anything besides their emergency relief and possible salvation. That's the fact. That's the truth. Look in the mirror. We are that addict. Stop it. And if you stop it you may cause someone else to stop it. Stop it.

9.21.2016

My young brother who has stepped up as much or more than anyone in my life of activism in active.......

My young brother who has stepped up as much or more than anyone in my life of activism in active and material support of the mission said, James, I just spent $12 on a beer, you could have eaten on that for a whole day. My reply:  2 or 3 days, + bathroom privileges, plus hot water for tea that I make instead of buying coffee, plus 2 hours sitting and drawing AC into the elf batteries. I enjoy making every penny scream so that any Penny I don't need can go to my family that is much more in need. I know what it is to spend endless hours playing video games in a much earlier life. The reason we do that is because the game is engineered to totally occupy our minds at the highest challenge we can possibly reach. What I didn't know was that by seeking to make every microsecond of my life count to the maximum toward future Generations is much more engrossing than the most engrossing video game and of course, totally satisfying to the soul while every moment I was playing video games My Soul was in torment at my wasted life. I don't think this is just me. I think, no credit to me, I simply understand how our nervous system works so that I can use it to my advantage of maximal joy, and thereby to the maximum advantage of my neediest fellow-creatures.

Humans have lost my loyalty. Children still have it. Very young children. Very very young children. They are still human.... And.......

Humans have lost my loyalty. Children still have it. Very young children. Very very young children. They are still human.... And not blatant victims, blatant victims, the Native Americans, African Americans , all victims who still display a shred of human dignity worth defending, they have my loyalty and always will. We White, mutant, Christian European Americans over privileged have lost my loyalty. They, we, never would have had it had I not been so deceived. The white underclass that has always been grossly discriminated against in this country they have my loyalty.... and not the people yet Unborn, the people of future Generations they still have my loyalty.

9.20.2016

"The best gift you can ever give is the gift of self." Kathy Green

"The best gift you can ever give is the gift of self." Kathy Green

"Life is what happens when you are out trying to change the world." Monica Lovell

"Life is what happens when you are out trying to change the world."  Monica Lovell

###. My faithfullest friend: this girl from high school, that due to my near comatose alienation and self-absorption as a teen, I don't remember, reached out to me ye........

###.  My faithfullest friend: this girl from high school, that due to my near comatose alienation and self-absorption as a teen, I don't remember, reached out to me years ago and has been so dear, so kind, so faithful, so loving,  so constant, so unwavering. There, I jynxed it, I'll lose her tomorrow. What will be will be. I learned this about her yesterday: "My greatest giving experience (and growing) was when i worked in a home for the chronically brain damaged people. all ages. I was on the second to the worst floor (bars on the widows and doors-one flew over the cuckoos nest style--) - taking physical care of 12 patients. They were from 30 yrs old to 80 yrs old. I woke, washed, dressed, medicated, fed, amongst many other things in a long day. IT WAS THE MOST JOYFUL OF "JOBS" BECAUSE--NO ONE WAS ABLE TO SAY THANK YOU. They just needed me and I was blessed to be there. It was me learning about true giving and loving it. a HUGE gift from God to me! ( I was 18 yrs old.) xoxox" 

I replied: Totally totally totally totally totally totally totally totally totally. Thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you for sharing. In 2000 at the peak of my career, with several of masters degrees, the most joyful year of my life was as a guidance counselor in Chester Elementary, one of the ten largest, 10 neediest, 10 most failing elementary schools in the country, 1200 K thru 6th graders. I needed to figure out how to lift the entire School. It was a massive campus,  8 Acres 20 acres? Due to the wind and neglect of these children every morning the campus was literally covered with candy wrappers condoms glass shards.... . I saw my opportunity. I would arrive between 4 and 5 in the morning, every morning, and pick up everything on the campus so the staff and the students would arrive at a beautiful clean School and possibly feel the love behind my actions. There were days that I literally could not drive home 45 minutes after work  due to the exhaustion.  I would go  comatose sitting in my car for an hour asleep before I could move on. Without question the most joyful year of my life....  What you did was infinitely harder emotionally. I'm so glad for you but I don't know how you did it.

EFLIUS Day 18 ND. I'm overwhelmed with fatigue, overwhelmed with........

EFLIUS Day 18 ND.  I'm overwhelmed with fatigue, overwhelmed with all the demands, a sense of privilege at the mission I've been given, but also at the Divine support that people are providing. And at the horror we are unleashing on all of creation forever, if we don't turn the tide now. It is an honor to witness the contributions of support, it is a joy to see the life that their material support breathes into this mission. Thru stinging tears,  James

***** EFLIUS Day 18 ND. "You inspire others to do more. We can always do more. I so love you, brother!" I replied: What deeply touching and encouraging.........

"You inspire others to do more. We can always do more. I so love you, brother!"  I replied: What deeply touching and encouraging words. So very kind. You move me. I do what I do simply because it is where the joy is, serving from the soul in solidarity our neediest sisters and brothers. But it's also the only place that hope is, for any of us to find peace and joy in each moment of the attempt, and collectively as a species in all creation. If I understand anything it is simply that every healthy successful bit of tissue, in any plant or non-human creature,  any and every organ,  any and every individual member of a species,  does this from the instant of its creation until the instant it expires, Devotion to the neediest among it. Except for cancer, the form of existence that we westerners have embraced long ago and is now in the final stages of killing everything, unless one by one we learn to turn in a different direction. This is the entirety of what Gandhi intended when he said, be the change you wish to see in the world. We have no other responsibilities than this. And in exercising this responsibility, Breath by breath, one by one, we become a hope for the future. Each moment that we do not, we contribute to the now all but certain Doom of the future. James 

9.19.2016

EFLIUS ND: Leading Engineers are now donating their time to the mission. I think that the following is accurate, not too grandiose. The development of the Wright flyer, the......

EFLIUS ND: Leading Engineers are now donating their time to the mission. I think that the following is accurate, not too grandiose. The development of the Wright flyer, the original Wright Brothers plane was a major achievement. Also a major achievement was the early pioneers who used the technology. In this I am no expert but my sense is that early Flyers of the mail across the country were the epitome of such pioneers.

Relative to renewable energy travel on land this EFLIUS Voyage, first supported exclusively by me, everything I have,  including credit card line of credit, and now with material support from others, is very much that kind of pioneering.

In Washington DC a Bright Young retired dirt bike professional in a small bike chain took substantial political risk to convince his shop and Executives to invest themselves in enhancing this vehicle to my specifications beyond the standard content, making it much more versatile and robust for the unprecedented Journey for this vehicle.

2 days ago catastrophy struck, a critical part that enables the motor to move the vehicle went instantly and totally inoperable. Had it happened 20 miles earlier in the day it would have cost days and possibly many hundreds of dollars to rectify. It was a disaster, and a miracle. A miracle because it happened where it did, a very mountainous region, Wake Forest, with exactly the right Bike Shop in the country , expert in recumbent bikes, knowledgeable in electric bicycles, and with exactly the right owner with a terrific imagination, and heart, and passion for advancing the technology,  and mission. He and his staff member worked much of the afternoon at little to no charge to me looking at the vehicle from the perspective of the huge Journey it was about to undertake, with their extreme experience, and tweaking here and there to make the vehicle more ready,  and generously training me at the same time. I didn't ask, I didn't beg, I simply explained the mission and the need. And my commitment, and seriousness of purpose, and dignity of mission, are pretty self-evident. And their hearts took over from there. Same with the guy and his team in Washington DC.

As strong as the manufacturer of this vehicle is in terms of design that is how weak they are in terms of execution. It's just a sad fact and also often happens with engineering strong companies. Extremely competent and part of what is required, profoundly incompetent in other areas.

They are unable to hold onto good personnel and sadly that's been the case with this company year after year after year. In late spring their only senior support executive Departed the company. He is Far and Away deleting support engineer on this vehicle in the country and he has backed completely away from the business due to their management incompetence, so sad. The void is crushing. This morning he spent hours on the phone with me working through issues because I have become so expert and I'm pushing the technology so far into the future of where it belongs. And the commitment he sees in me inspires him to be substantially more committed than otherwise he would be. After the hours I asked for his address so I could send remuneration. He just laughed. Call me whenever you need help, he said.

James

9.17.2016

***** James, you are on your true path. People who meet you can feel it." My reply: With all due respect I will respectfully disagree because......

" James, you are on your true path. People who meet you can feel it."  My reply: With all due respect I will respectfully disagree because I think this is a profoundly important point. I think they are responding because I have taken A path, a path with my whole life. There are many if not infinite ways I could have done.  I think what they are responding to is seeing someone choose a path and March it with everything they are and everything they have. I know, and I'm explicit with people, I don't know what I'm doing. I don't expect this to make any difference at all. All I know is it's the best shot I can see and I will not sit on the sidelines. This is the best way I can see to put my body in the way of the harm to the Future and to keep it there, so I will do this with every breath until I can see a better way. This is what I think they are responding to. This is what I think every one of us should be doing. This is where the joy is. If there is any hope this is where it is. Selma was not the right bridge, on the right day, in the right way. Selma was people saying I ain't going to sit on the sidelines anymore, I'm going to get in the way of the harm, I ain't going to sit down till it gets better. This is what people saw. This is what woke them up. I may be wrong. I'm certain this is correct.

9.16.2016

The man Jesus who I Revere , said something like, if you devote your life to the neediest it will cost you everything, houses, Farms......

<3 The man Jesus who I Revere , said something like, if you devote your life to the neediest it will cost you everything, houses, Farms, husband, wife, children, but it will give you 100 fold in this lifetime. It is clear to me that this is true. It is clear to me what this means. Those fortunate enough to realize that the reason we're here is to help those who are neediest,  to try to help those in need,  yes, our sick cultures exact every price from these people that they can to discourage them, but none the less it results in encountering others whose heart is doing the same,  and in my experience and knowledge and study, next to the joy of Simply attempting to help the neediest, it results in encountering those whose hearts are causing them to attempt the same and is the greatest privilege and joy, the only real encounter with the Divine, available to we humans.

Barring any unforeseen disasters the financial investments that will be made between now and Tuesday should suffice to......

Barring any unforeseen disasters the financial investments that will be made between now and Tuesday should suffice to make the vehicle as able as it can be for the massive and quite dangerous journey ahead that I expect to be to North Dakota. Every little Penny now is a huge factor in terms of safety and ability for the mission. I am extraordinarily humbled by the support.

9.15.2016

EFLIUS Day 13: only 61 miles today but all morning was spent switching to the new plan so, not too bad. Tomorrow needs to be about a 90-mile day. For the first 13 days I was almost entirely off-grid. That's unlikely to happen in the future. The......

EFLIUS Day 13: only 61 miles today but all morning was spent switching to the new plan so, not too bad. Tomorrow needs to be about a 90-mile day. For the first 13 days I was almost entirely off-grid. That's unlikely to happen in the future. The primary reason is I'm now traveling for Speed, LOL, speed and distance. I need to be doing about 80 miles a day rather than 45. Only on the most extremely sunny, non hazy day, without significant climbing, and without trees to obstruct the sun, will that happen again. But on many days I'll be getting roughly half of my electricity from the Sun which will dramatically shortened the 2 times a day I'll need to plug in. So by and large I'll be half on the grid and half off. A number of people made Financial contributions to the mission today, one was breathtakingly large. I've gone deep into debt to get this far in the mission and that contribution will substantially help me climb toward sunlight. I'll be Reeling for many days to come and the mission was hugely strengthened. A fellow set up a go fund me site for the mission. In 12 years of similarly devoted activism I have never had that kind of help. I'm deeply touched,  greatly humbled. The mission is greatly helped. This morning at a Wawa which I never went into, I was trying to collect my thoughts on the new trajectory for the mission, North Dakota, accelerating the visit to Organic Transit for repairs, to this Saturday I hoped, and other planning had me just sitting at the convenience store outside pondering. Oh, did I mention major repairs I needed to do to the vehicle? A Jovial mid fifties white lady came over and if she is not, or was not, Nun, she certainly is the epitome of what that brings to mind. Extremely friendly. Extremely interested in the vehicle and its solar aspects, extremely interested in free Palestine, extremely interested in the message on the religion of loving. She asked me what I was doing and I told her a ridiculous Hail Mary pass to try and Spark some life in the country to stand up for our children's future. She asked how would anyone do that? I said, the only way I've ever seen it done, is to stoke the fire in oneself by redirecting one's attention from oneself to those who really need help, rekindling the fire that Gandhi counted on, the love of the mother or her child but for all children. And that by doing so in oneself and stoking the fire white hot sometimes it caused the fire to rekindle in others. I wasn't guessing that would mesh with her religious beliefs. She uttered some words not mystically but honestly that I didn't understand. I take them to be Indian words. She dug in both pockets and handed me all the contents of bills and change. Spoke very warmly to me and departed. There have been half a dozen at least meaningful encounters today in the largely impoverished areas that I've been traveling through. This continues to be my experience that where people are not plagued with the addiction of over privilege there is room among some of them for the spirit to live., many little flames encountered and encouraged today. As this post is written the author is sitting on a curb Stone having finished two cans of cold corn and a cold can of chicken noodle soup given me by a student at William and Mary. my planning and process is infantile as it relates to structuring days where I travel 80 or 90 miles per day. Seems trivial except the need to fuel this vehicle now from the grid while I'm traveling on largely back roads with no services adds some complexity and risk. I arrived at this location with probably only 5 miles of electricity to spare. in another three miles I know that there is a large truck stop. This is a much less prosperous convenience store and non-branded gas station. as I gain experience and courage I'll always follow my inclination to favor the less prosperous non corporate with what limited funds I can. And sometimes no funds at all if I think that's the best spiritual service. And that may be the case tonight. I walked into the store empty of customers and the Young Middle Eastern man at the counter, I explained that I saw a plug outside and hoped I would be allowed to plug in for several hours. a bit to my surprise he went right into risk management, I'm not sure my boss would allow it, can I bring the batteries inside and plug them in, we don't do that. I simply allowed my disappointment and Mild disgust to show. my mind immediately went to plan b, the place 3 miles down the road. As I was getting in the vehicle a voice got my attention. It was the young man. Where is the receptacle that you were talking about? I pointed to the receptacle 10 feet adjacent to the vehicle on the wall. He said, if it works, you're welcome to use it. He had simply had a change of heart. that's what it's about isn't it? Giving people an opportunity and inspiration for a change of heart? By first changing our own? I immediately directed his attention to the free Palestine signage which he had not seen. He asked me how America was going to stop Israel. How Americans were going to stop Israel. I said, we are not. But I can't control that. I can control me. I will not sit by and watch this unfold without trying to get in the way. This is my attempt. when he wasn't helping customers he's come out several times since. He said, come in for water or whatever you want. One time he came out and I was speaking to a customer of his,  a farmer white guy my age, and telling him that I was going to fail but I was not going to fail to try. The young shopkeeper jumped in and said, this man is a hero, To his customer. A new and very generous benefactor to the mission today said, I know you have to go through with this, but when you're done, I hope you take care of yourself. This is so understandable. But to understand myself, and for anyone to understand me, they need to understand that I experience the people of Palestine as intimately as some people might experience their own leg, or their skin, or their arms,  or their very own face. I experience all of the creatures whose habitats we are destroying totally and forever including all humans, as my own arms or legs or torso. I am exactly taking care of myself.

9.14.2016

Nearly half of Israeli Jews support extrajudicial killings of Palestinians

http://972mag.com/nearly-half-of-israeli-jews-support-extrajudicial-killings-poll-finds/121904/

9.13.2016

Elf cycling. Which developments last several days. Oops, back of thighs, pressing against lower back

This is amazing to me. Huge strides in effectively handling this vehicle. Just now. Last few days. 1. Attempting to press,  relax, lower back into lower seat every second. 2. This creates a sense of elongation, an opportunity to stretch the leg toward the arch.

3. Ball of foot on the pedals. 4. Launching the leg stretch deliberately firing. 5. Using the hamstrings glutes.

This all seems 2 give a 10 or 20%, 10 or 20 increase in human Watt hours at a similar or greater relaxation. very amazing.

Central to this development was the notion of relaxing my lower back into the seat, slightly if only mentally rotating the lumbar back ever so slightly into the seat.

Seems revolutionary. Maybe fleeting. I don't think so. We will see.

This long stretch 30 miles from Williamsburg to Hampton University and then back  is quite flat relatively. There by the natural state of this vehicle manifests itself. At 9 to 10 miles an hour it is human-powered. an additional two or three miles per hour doubles power requirement. 9 miles per hour requires approximately 13 watts per mile, 12 miles per hour requires approximately 26.

Glutes instead of the knees

***** To the material investors in this Mission: you are few. Years go by and there are none of you. But some of you have stepped up in.......

To the material investors in this Mission:  you are few. Years go by and there are none of you. But some of you have stepped up in big and not so big ways in recent days. I find my reaction odd. I need nothing. I want nothing personally. But it is with awesome joy that your material support is received. I want nothing for me personally but with every fiber of my being I want the mission to succeed. It is a worthy Mission. It is a worthwhile mission. No credit to me, a torch blazes in my chest and there is the possibility that by moving that torch around the country it may cause the flame in the chest of others to burn brighter. It could help to start the fire sufficient to provide a decent future for all of creation. Almost certainly it will not, but there is the slim chance. It is an intelligent and much-needed mission. The only thing that can make me stop is for my pulse to stop , or for me to see a better way to serve creation, which seems unlikely. But the amplitude of pursuit of the mission is very much a function of how many people contribute how much to it. I have and will continue to contribute every breath, every resource to it, for the joy of it. But I can't do more than that personally. You, by contributing, you increase the amplitude materially, and spiritually, in part spiritually by feeding mine. Gratefully,  James.

9.12.2016

An extremely prosperous-looking dad, a bit younger than me I suspect, and his early teen Scout son, stopped by, oddly, in the remote.......

An extremely prosperous-looking dad, a bit younger than me I suspect, and his early teen Scout son, stopped by, oddly, in the remote, empty, Ace Hardware parking lot where I was working on the vehicle. How did they know I was there?

The dialogue lasted a good 15 minutes. The young man mostly led the conversation, I supplied most of the words probably. The dad was very aware of the conversation and I think a bit courageous to allow it to have gone on as long as it did.

I shared how dire the situation is in my view, the son politely said he did not see it as dire as did I. To that I emphasized that probably I am more optimistic than he in terms of seeing that everything we need to supply a livable Earth for the future is there, the technology, the know how, the the wealth, the renewable energy sources in massive abundance, everything, everything, everything except the only thing required, people standing up to make it happen.

I think the son heard this. I'm quite sure that the dad heard this.

Toward the end the son asked what I thought people should do. I said, what people should do is make the decision to put their lives in the way of this catastrophe. That there is no right way to do this. The Marchers over the Selma Bridge, it's not that they picked the right Bridge, or the right time, or the right day. It is that with dignity they put everything they were In Harm's Way to make it stop. And it was so total total, so dignified, so honest, so thoughtful, so selfless... that a soul Dead Nation could not avoid noticing, could not avoid beginning to wake up.

It was a lot for the young man to hear, probably too much. I'm not sure about the Dead. I think he heard. I'm glad we had the exchange.

I'll forever regret this: What! I snapped at The Voice......

I'll forever regret this: What! I snapped at The Voice...... This I barked as I was in the near empty Ace Hardware parking lot after it closed hours into maintenance and repair work , doubled over under the steering wheel wrestling a last bit of storage space for a backpack. Immediately after the bark I emerged to see a warm, kind, thoughtful young man with a cup of tea and a bag full of snacks and soup for me.

10 X earlier such approaches when I was either resting, sleeping with my eyes closed, in an awkward position working on the vehicle, the prior 10 times in half as many days it was some idle question showing total disregard and disrespect for another human being trying to get some sleep or working hard.

I never snap in those situations. I may not reply. I may look up and return to my work without an answer. But I never snap, I never barked. But at this kind soul, Ryan, I did. What a horror.

Not once or twice a year do I do such a thing. I think he forgave me immediately but I don't know. I'm just horrified.

He stayed for 10 or 15 minutes asking what I was up to. A student at William and Mary, he says that he lives in an apartment just the other side of the trees where I'll be sleeping in the parking lot tonight.

He had early on indicated that he had looked up online.

He was so kind, yet judging from how he exited it was not the kind of exchange that he expected, and not the kind of exchange I wish I had provided. I rarely make such mistakes. I hope not to do so soon in the future.

The downfall of nearly all would be activists since the sixties is that they mind everyone's business... except their own. They hold everyone......

The downfall of nearly all would be activists since the sixties is that they mind everyone's business... except their own. They hold everyone to the highest standards, except for themselves and those alongside them, who they hold to no standards whatsoever. They are concerned with the behavior of everyone, except for their own. Of themselves they expect only lip service. Of others they expect the highest life service. It is disgusting. It is deadly. It is killing what little time we have left. It is the most disgusting hypocrisy. Yes, there are exceptions here and there. If the shoe does not fit, do not wear it. If it does fit, those who need to wear it probably won't.

Revolutionaries don't need, revolutionaries can't afford, your encouragement from the sidelines. They need you on the field of battle.

Revolutionaries don't need, revolutionaries can't afford, your encouragement from the sidelines. They need you on the field of battle.

To a kind soul that said, when I get tired I think of you, James, you inspire me. I replied: I'm glad......

To a kind soul that said, when I get tired I think of you, James, you inspire me.  I replied: I'm glad if I can be an inspiration because what I value in my life has come from being inspired by others. I remember one hunger strike in Washington DC when on my several mile walk to Capitol Hill on no calories for many weeks it was all I could do to put the next foot forward, and I would think of my brother the man Jesus, and his face would come to my imagination, and he would smile, and I would smile, and I would take the next step.

65 in a month. Stage 4 cancer survivor. In a Corollary to what dr. King said, when one sees what they would gladly die for , they are equipped to live.

65 in a month. Stage 4 cancer survivor. In a Corollary to what dr. King said, when one sees what they would gladly die for , they are equipped to live.

9.11.2016

***** What I think Millions need to do differently is to realize that mindless greed is literally the weapon of mass destruction, the army of mass destruction, that is destroying everything decent on Earth. What millions should do......

What I think Millions need to do differently is to realize that mindless greed is literally the weapon of mass destruction, the army of mass destruction, that is destroying everything decent on Earth. What millions should do is stop hiding behind the skirts or trousers of their spouse, the diapers of their babies , and do what my father's generation did, go put their bodies in the way of the harm that is in the process of destroying the future of those who depend upon them. This is certainly not directed at anyone in particular, it is directed at everyone of us collectively.

Years ago with the birth of the first of two biological offspring my deep sense of loving for that Offspring was coupled with an all-encompassing awareness of responsibility toward that young life. It was a wonderful, terrible, realization that........

Years ago with the birth of the first of two biological offspring my deep sense of loving for that Offspring was coupled with an all-encompassing awareness of responsibility toward that young life. It was a wonderful, terrible, realization that everything I did mattered for good, or for bad, toward that young life. A fire in me started at that time and it has spread from that first child to every child, every adult, every creature. I think that's what's supposed to happen in all of us. No credit to me, that's simply what happened to me.

9.10.2016

***** I'm sure I will die having failed to heal the world. I will not die having failed to try, with my last breath. To me, nothing less is life. To me, everything less is death, suicide.

I'm sure I will die having failed to heal the world.  I will not die having failed to try,  with my last breath.  To me,  nothing less is life.  To me, everything less is death,  suicide.

9.09.2016

EFLIUS. No offense to anyone. Deja vu all over again. Just as with last August September in a similar to journey to this one , this afternoon......

No offense to anyone. Deja vu all over again. Just as with last August September in a similar to journey to this one , this afternoon when I passed into the seriously poor Southeast area of Richmond , seemingly outside of the solidly urban area, but just barely, the first true, deep, Spirits were encountered. A white lady a little younger than me , intrigued with the vehicle, read my shirt although maybe asked me to help with a word or so, and was just totally enthralled. If I didn't rent my room you'd be coming home with me to sleep tonight she spoke as a sister, and his sister in the spirit indeed she is. And an African American man with his two daughters early teen, from Broad and deep immediately understood the seriousness of the renewable energy message. It came from his spirit. Almost all of us with all of our internet and book learning we move too fast and far in the intellect to allow the massive room that the spirit needs to thrive and exist. All hope is in the spirit.

9.08.2016

I was centrally obsessed with sexual activity from almost as early as I can remember for my next 45 years. What a hideously empty, joyless......

I was centrally obsessed with sexual activity from almost as early as I can remember for my next 45 years. What a hideously empty, joyless life I had for sex to have had any room in my life. What a sad, uninteresting, inferior Pursuit. Such empty, tawdry, meaningless lives we are brought up to in this Dreadful culture. My life is a trillion times more full, interesting, joyful, meaningful, fulfilling then it was for so many decades.