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12.30.2017

Very important exchange with a beloved brother who is also a Jehovah's Witness, met many years ago at my vigil at the White House. He wrote: Good morning my friend. You are likely aware of all of this but I thought of you when I watched.....

Very important exchange where they beloved brother who is also a Jehovah's Witness, met many years ago at my vigil at the White House. He wrote:

Good morning my friend.
You are likely aware of all of this but I thought of you when I watched this video from Aljazeer.
Ironically JWs in Russia are officially banned again, this time as "extremist." For decades under the KGB days, they were banned because they were considered "pacifists."  Even the New World Translation of the Bible now has been officially banned as "extremist literature."  As well as the child's story book, "My book of Bible stories."  The world is completely upside down.

http://www.aljazeera.com/progr ammes/peopleandpower/2017/10/ russia-orthodox-connection- 171017140019859.html

You recently asked in one of your posts, "Creator, what have I done wrong?"  The answer that I would give to you if I was the Creator is, "You have done nothing wrong with the information that you have. You just have not considered all the options."  But what do I know?
If you start with the wrong premise, you will never come to the right conclusions.  That is just simple mathematics.
Your heart/consciousness/love/humanity is still driving you after all these years.  Your battle is against something bigger than you and I but the answer to your question is there.  You are just missing the same piece of the puzzle that you were missing years ago, when we first met.

No matter what my friend, I am at your side.

I reply:

LOL, and I am at your side. What I'm about to say is not Tit for Tat. Last night you were on my mind and only this morning did I see your email.

You were on my mind as Creator gave me a great gift of clarity. I have been in the desert many days now doing my best to get closer to the teachings and example of the historical Jesus. My heart, that of Creator in me, is my primary guide but I am also informed by the scholarly work of the Jesus seminar and of that extraordinary creation of crater, Leo Tolstoy in his writings on what he found in his translation of the Greek gospel.

Sometime probably today I will provide a update, maybe a video, of the clarity that is being given me.

Your sadness for me and what I am not seeing all these years, is reciprocal of the sadness I feel out of love for you in the truth that you are not seeing.

But before I go on let me say, I do find it a substantial validation by creator that you and your religious group are being discriminated against by the Russian Empire. Respect. And probably gratitude.

you may not be glad to know that the revelations of the last few days, the sharpening of my many years understanding now on which I have lived, was very much in the opposite direction of what you would want. It is that his life an example, and even that of some of his followers that wrote much of the ethics of the Gospels, their entire religion, 100% of their religion, was the Imperial rule of the heart within man, the Creator, the piece of the spirit of Creator, placed in all of us at our birth. The rule of heart over Flash and head. That's it. Jesus religion, and mine, was loving creator and our fellow creatures with our whole heart mind and soul. That's it. And what else could we possibly need?

Out of respect, that last is a rhetorical question.

More later. Hugs to you both. James

PS. There was much tongue-in-cheek when I asked Creator, what am I doing wrong? And great humility I think the Creator is quite pleased With my walk. I think the Jesus is quite pleased with my walk. I also expect to be writing unless surprised at my deep affection for the occasional tree or bush that I see growing out of a rock or out of a huge mountain of Boulders here in the desert. Popular meme from typically fairly affluent westerners, certainly in business, of the flower growing through concrete, makes my blood boil. The concrete is a consequence of the apathy of those with resources, the selfishness and hoarding of those with resources. Makes my blood boil.

But as my acceptance that material Armageddon unstoppably is on a folding becomes more acute, seemingly final Within Me, I now with much greater Clarity Sees at what I'm called to try and do, and that what Jesus felt he was called to try and do, was to find that seed in the midst of the desert but he might help have life.

Again, hugs

PPS. If there is much of love, creator, in and through your religious organization, and I think there is, as evidenced by Russia's Crackdown on you all, if there is that love, Jesus religion, then I will acknowledge that for some set of the population, your fellow religionists, having the edifice as you see it through the lens of JW, helps you, that set of the population do that. If that's what's going on I have no objection. It is not my way. It was not Jesus way. But loving, Imperial rule of the heart over / Flash and head, is the way, and if your conception helps you and your fellows do that, I am only glad.

12.27.2017

Bible. Luke 12:18-24 [18]And he said, This will I do: I will pull down my barns, and build greater; and there will I bestow all my fruits and my goods. [19]And I will say to my soul, Soul, thou hast much goods laid up for many years; take thine ease, eat, drink, and be merry. [20]But God said unto him, Thou fool, this night thy soul shall be required of thee: then whose shall those things be, which thou hast provided? [21]So is he.....

Bible. Luke 12:18-24 [18]And he said, This will I do: I will pull down my barns, and build greater; and there will I bestow all my fruits and my goods. [19]And I will say to my soul, Soul, thou hast much goods laid up for many years; take thine ease, eat, drink, and be merry. [20]But God said unto him, Thou fool, this night thy soul shall be required of thee: then whose shall those things be, which thou hast provided? [21]So is he.... that layeth up treasure for himself, and is not rich toward God. [22]And he said unto his disciples, Therefore I say unto you, Take no thought for your life, what ye shall eat; neither for the body, what ye shall put on. [23]The life is more than meat, and the body is more than raiment. [24]Consider the ravens: for they neither sow nor reap; which neither have storehouse nor barn; and God feedeth them: how much more are ye better than the fowls?

Video log. a horrible, important, and enlightening nightmare. My lifelong travels with sociopaths.

https://vimeo.com/248892201

12.26.2017

My fellow liberal-minded friends. Where is it written that Superior education, even Superior contribution objectively, entitles one to more resources than our neediest sisters and brothers in creation? Which cell in the healthy body, be it brain, eye, skin, hair, is entitled to more than just the resources needed for its work? What work? Serving the well-being of the whole.

My fellow liberal-minded friends. Where is it written that Superior education, even Superior contribution objectively, entitles one to more resources than our neediest sisters and brothers in creation? Which cell in the healthy body, be it brain, eye, skin, hair, is entitled to more than just the resources needed for its work? What work? Serving the well-being of the whole.

Inerrancy of the Bible? 1.  explain to me once again how not one of the thousands and thousands of hands controlling tens of thousands of words not one operated except under the total control of your God. 2. Remind me how you know this to be absolutely 100% completely true? Thank you. James

Inerrancy of the Bible? 1.  explain to me once again how not one of the thousands and thousands of hands controlling tens of thousands of words not one operated except under the total control of your God. 2. Remind me how you know this to be absolutely 100% completely true? Thank you. James

Take your ridicule of the right and shove it I say to my fellow liberal minded friends. Many of them are drowning, most of you are not. Yet you deride them for not taking on more when you take on almost nothing of significant personal cost. Stop your ugly destructive hypocrisy.

Take your ridicule of the right and shove it I say to my fellow liberal minded friends. Many of them are drowning, most of you are not. Yet you deride them for not taking on more when you take on almost nothing of significant personal cost. Stop your ugly destructive hypocrisy.

12.25.2017

Creators Christmas gift to me. It is shared with you. Christmas number 66. 9 years ago receiving the makings for this gift. But just this morning, freezing in....

Creators Christmas gift to me. It is shared with you. Christmas number 66. 9 years ago receiving the makings for this gift. But just this morning, freezing in..... sweat climbing up to Joshua Tree, creator put it together for me and put a bow on it. How hateful, how sickening, how cruel and sad, if Jesus came to taunt us. What? On the one hand to tell us that we are Spirit, on the other hand to participate in worshipping, enslaving ourselves to intoxications, Comfort, flesh. That Creator, and creators number one son, are cruel in this way has been rejected by my soul forever. Will be rejected by my soul forever. But what of the miracle healings the the Miracles even Jesus seminar say are true of the man Jesus? Just psycho somatic? Hard for me to understand based on my life experience. The makings given to me not many years ago as to why was the loading of torturous deadly social diseasesheaped on people of the day by their version of today's Abomination, the church, organized religion. People completely cut off from society for having flaking skin.  completely cut off from society, the ultimate psychological torture, for behaving in unattractive ways. The person at the pool waiting for someone to carry him in is waiting for some hideous Church ritual to be fulfilling so he could rejoin Society, I finally see this morning. Jesus said, f*** that man. You were born a child of kreator stand up and receive your inheritance.

12.24.2017

Update, plan. Sol, The vehicle, electrical system seems to have been stabilized. It is wounded but........

Update, plan. Sol, The vehicle, electrical system seems to have been stabilized. It is wounded but I think stable enough to commence a 12 mile, 1700 foot climb back into Joshua Tree Park, Hidden Valley Campground being the target. It is $7 a night and reasonably quiet. The plan is to spend much of the week there attempting to more deeply master the historical Jesus, his teaching, ethics, and actions. This guided and informed by the work of the Jesus seminar which points to his actual words, a relatively small subset, of the four popular Gospels. And also deep study of Leo Tolstoy translation of the original Greek Gospels. This in anticipation of a journey my body dreads through the hate drenched southern states of this country to commence the following week. Much or all of the following week is likely to be offline.

Jesus lived fighting Empire. Christmas is a central element thereof. Hence I don't celebrate it.

Jesus lived fighting Empire.
Christmas
is a central element thereof.
Hence I don't celebrate it.

At the moment I can think of nothing nicer that has ever been spoken to me. This from a high school friend......

At the moment I can think of nothing nicer that has ever been spoken to me. This from a high school friend that I barely remember but we have been closed through Facebook in recent years.  "IF your health or whatever! is not working for your journey...during your journey..I will always be available to come get you. No matter where you are. You have a safe place forever on this stupid planet-depend on it."

Houston, Santa, what the hell is the deal here? Is there such a thing as negative Christmas present? Coal on steroids? I'm back out in the middle of nowhere planning to head further into nowhere tomorrow morning and The Marvelous electrical system in this vehicle, the control mechanism, is rapidly disintegrating in its performance. Like a cell phone or laptop going through death throes. That could involve a crushing or killing expense. Creator, what have I done wrong?

Houston, Santa, what the hell is the deal here? Is there such a thing as negative Christmas present? Coal on steroids? I'm back out in the middle of nowhere planning to head further into nowhere tomorrow morning and The Marvelous electrical system in this vehicle, the control mechanism, is rapidly disintegrating in its performance. Like a cell phone or laptop  going through death throes. That could involve a crushing or killing expense. Creator, what have I done wrong?

12.22.2017

Am I anti-semitic to observe that the most godly people on Earth are those like Gideon Levy, Norman Finkelstein, Amira Hass, Ilan pappe, Noam Chomsky? And the most satanic those like Netanyahu, Weinstein, Wasserman Schultz, Sheldon Adelson...?

Am I anti-semitic to observe that the most godly people on Earth are those like Gideon Levy, Norman Finkelstein, Amira Hass, Ilan pappe, Noam Chomsky? And the most satanic those like Netanyahu, Weinstein, Wasserman Schultz, Sheldon Adelson...?

Being good in the world has come to me in recent weeks as North on the compass.

Being good in the world has come to me in recent weeks as North on the compass.

Every Penny you spend on other than absolute need is accurate measure of how little you value the life of others.

Every Penny you spend on other than absolute need is accurate measure of how little you value the life of others.

Video update. Health greatly improved, for the moment at least. Returning to the desert.

https://vimeo.com/248508830

12.21.2017

More time in the desert. I am quite certain that more deeply and effectively channeling the goodness that the man Jesus channeled is how I'm called to serve. No, I......

More time in the desert. I'm quite certain that more deeply and effectively channeling the goodness that the man Jesus channeled is how I'm called to serve. No, I...... don't know just what that means and certainly not just what form it will take. Traveling, being, teaching, I suspect are a big part of it. Being good in the world. Not good when it's convenient. Not good when it's safe. Not good when it's comfortable. Not good when it's popular. Good because that's what's needed and that's the ultimate rewarding existence. Much study of the man Jesus and the scholarship pertinent to has been undertaken by me in the last 15 years. What I'm called to do requires doing this more deeply and extensively now. I suspect that this calls me into the cold chilly Wendy desert for much of the next week. Back to Joshua Tree I suspect. My body is not particularly happy about this. Cold, windy, inhospitable, Barron. But my soul finds some gladness in it. I expect the journey will take place early tomorrow morning with arrival late tomorrow. Much or all of the next week is likely to be offline in study.

Electrolyte deficit maybe central to the debilitating symptoms of fatigue Headache nausea fatigue fatigue recent weeks. Electrolyte supplements had fallen out of my routine.

Electrolyte deficit maybe central to the debilitating symptoms of fatigue Headache nausea fatigue fatigue recent weeks. Electrolyte supplements had fallen out of my routine.

The left citizens are oblivious that this train is headed toward fascist death camps for them unless they stop it, now.

The left citizens are oblivious that this train is headed toward fascist death camps for them unless they stop it, now.

The church is an instrument of rich people to replace Jesus teaching with justification of their selfishness. Almost no exceptions. Since day one. Malice, intentionality, forethought, is not a requirement in any of this.

The church is an instrument of rich people to replace Jesus teaching with justification of their selfishness. Almost no exceptions. Since day one. Malice, intentionality, forethought, is not a requirement in any of this.

Gospel in brief, hapgood translation. Tolstoy desperately wanted to know the ethics of Jesus the man. It was clear to him he was getting nothing but corruption from the church teachings. So he went to the original Greek Gospels. In this darkest of times who can afford not to know what he found?

https://www.amazon.com/dp/B00HHM3AOW/ref=dp-kindle-redirect?_encoding=UTF8&btkr=1

The Gospel of Jesus: According to the Jesus Seminar https://www.amazon.com/dp/0944344747/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_apa_gvapAbZXF2GJ3. Liars, Hippocrates, deceivers, delusional, those that claim to love Jesus yet care not to know the actual man. In this darkest of times at the end of everything I am seeking light in this man as did Schweitzer, Gandhi, King, Tolstoy, Einstein. How can anyone not? This is one of the sources I am studying again. How can you not if you care about anything?

The Gospel of Jesus: According to the Jesus Seminar https://www.amazon.com/dp/0944344747/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_apa_gvapAbZXF2GJ3

Samantha Bee. Christian fundamentalists are fighting to end the world. No, really. They are working to kill you, your children, your grandchildren, all of creation. And Trump loves it.

Sam Bee: Trump's devout evangelical following is “an Aryan death cult” https://www.salon.com/2017/12/21/sam-bee-trumps-devout-evangelical-following-is-an-aryan-death-cult/

I don't know what the republicans in Washington consider themselves. I do know what they are not, Christian. They are viciously Antichrist.

I don't know what the republicans in Washington consider themselves. I do know what they are not, Christian. They are viciously Antichrist.

To the rich, all but the rich, are useless eaters to be eliminated as quickly as possible. Nazism their model.

To the rich,
all but the rich,
are useless eaters to be eliminated as quickly as possible.
Nazism their model.

Remember? Remember what the German fascists did to millions of fellow citizens they deemed useless, inconvenient, a threat?

Remember? Remember what the German fascists did to millions of fellow citizens they deemed useless, inconvenient, a threat?

12.20.2017

The child born to parents today is already tortured and murdered. Why? Their parents are torturers and murderers by their act. Intentionality is not required.

The child born to parents today is already tortured and murdered. Why? Their parents are torturers and murderers by their act. Intentionality is not required.

General update, December 20th, 2017. Video log

https://vimeo.com/248177419

We have failed to fight for right, for justice, for goodness; as a result we must fight against wrong, against injustice, against evil. http://peaceandnonviolence.blogspot.com/2007/03/meaning-of-this-hour-abraham-j-heschel.html?m=1

We have failed to fight for right, for justice, for goodness; as a result we must fight against wrong, against injustice, against evil. http://peaceandnonviolence.blogspot.com/2007/03/meaning-of-this-hour-abraham-j-heschel.html?m=1

Rabbi Abraham heschel. The greatest task of our time is to take the souls of men out of the pit.

The greatest task of our time is to take the souls of men out of the pit. http://peaceandnonviolence.blogspot.com/2007/03/meaning-of-this-hour-abraham-j-heschel.html?m=1

I dearly wish that treating the symptoms was the answer. So clear, direct, obvious. It has been killing time. My last 17 years of doing so, killing time. I see no alternative to treating the disease, a universal Embrace of selfishness, the only cure, for the individual now, the total, hopeless, joyful, Embrace of being goodness in the world.

I dearly wish that treating the symptoms was the answer. So clear, direct, obvious. It has been killing time. My last 17 years of doing so, killing time. I see no alternative to treating the disease, a universal Embrace of selfishness, the only cure, for the individual now, the total, hopeless, joyful, Embrace of being goodness in the world.

A difficult walk. Can I learn it? Walking in a world that is immersed in flames, without a prayer of stopping The Inferno. How to live in this? How to do good? To show the path of joy that others might find it Through the flames. Even if just in the moments before being tortured and killed. Attempting to be and bring goodness into the world. Such a difficult dance. Facing the daily unfolding nightmares. Then, informed by that turning to be joyful goodness in the world. So difficult.

A difficult walk. Can I learn it? Walking in a world that is immersed in flames, without a prayer of stopping The Inferno. How to live in this? How to do good? To show the path of joy that others might find it Through the flames. Even if just in the moments before being tortured and killed. Attempting to be and bring goodness into the world. Such a difficult dance. Facing the daily unfolding nightmares. Then, informed by that, turning to be joyful goodness in the world. So difficult.

I have grown to dread and detest the encounters with people drawn by this vehicle. The empty-headed Clueless intellectual masturbation of Technology. Totally.....

I have grown to dread and detest the encounters with people drawn by this vehicle. The empty-headed Clueless intellectual masturbation of Technology. Totally.... oblivious to what's going on in the world. But there is a chance that I am learning to make the encounters positive for me. The pleasant fellow this morning asking the inane questions, my friendly reply, it's my little attempt to bring good into the world. It felt good. It's entirely true. It's what I want to do and talk about.

12.19.2017

I do not know how to live in this world where evil is gleefully trampling everything decent. Everything. But I'm determined to find out, for me, and for you.

I do not know how to live in this world where evil is gleefully trampling everything decent. Everything. But I'm determined to find out, for me, and for you.

Video log. Searching in darkness for the man Jesus.

https://vimeo.com/248014804

12.17.2017

Last will and testament. Rex litwiller is to receive my only possession should anything happen to me. He created much of it and is most likely to cause it to be used for good.

Last will and testament. Rex litwiller is to receive my only possession should anything happen to me. He created much of it and is most likely to cause it to be used for good.

Symptoms for multiple sclerosis were just reviewed by me. Yesterday and today my right leg is barely controllable in cycling. It's simply wants to curl up. It is taking all of my concentration to return to a normal cycling stroke. In my quick review online of leg out of control cycling I found new other explanation.

Symptoms for multiple sclerosis were just reviewed by me. Yesterday and today my right leg is barely controllable in cycling. It's simply wants to curl up. It is taking all of my concentration to return to a normal cycling stroke. In my quick review online of leg out of control cycling I found new other explanation.

12.14.2017

Me too, at a very early age I was part of the problem. I did not understand that at the time.

Me too,
at a very early age I was part of the problem.

I did not understand that at the time.

12.13.2017

Francis. We are to do battle with evil. Evil spirit.

wyciwyg://13/http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/2017/12/13/dont-argue-devil-much-intelligent-us-says-pope-francis/

Pope Francis we are to do battle with evil.

wyciwyg://13/http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/2017/12/13/dont-argue-devil-much-intelligent-us-says-pope-francis/

12.11.2017

ICE equals Nazi. But the Liberals are to blame. I'll wager that the density of immigrants and conservative White areas is 5 to 10 times who water is in Liberal neighborhoods. F****** hypocrites. The whites feel that they're drowning and they see liberals pushing more bodies into their already sinking Lifeboat.

ICE equals Nazi. But the Liberals are to blame. I'll wager that the density of immigrants and conservative White areas is 5 to 10 times who water is in Liberal neighborhoods. F****** hypocrites. The whites feel that they're drowning and they see liberals pushing more bodies into their already sinking Lifeboat.

My gospel in brief. Video log.

https://vimeo.com/246850249

P1. the extreme essential life and death Joy of wrestling with evil for good

https://vimeo.com/246712400

12.10.2017

The ultimate Earthly reward every breath is the intrinsic gratification of being extremely virtuous.

The ultimate Earthly reward every breath is the intrinsic gratification of being extremely virtuous.

Decades too late now to avert Armageddon never too late to lessen the evil and increase the good, and joy, for our fellow creatures.

Decades too late now to avert Armageddon never too late to lessen the evil and increase the good, and joy, for our fellow creatures.

If some are glad to die for mountain climbing or skydiving why not some glad to die for more good in the world?

If some are glad to die for mountain climbing or skydiving why not some glad to die for more good in the world?

12.09.2017

Theology Professor Writes Book Claiming “White Christians” Are Responsible For Racism And Discrimination In America

http://internationalnewstrends.blogspot.com/2017/12/theology-professor-writes-book-claiming_2.html?spref=fb&m=1

Vlog. Jesus saw salvation because of his world's complete utter unending Unstoppable Darkness. Now, me too.

https://vimeo.com/246604196

How ironic. The most godly people on earth, the Palestinians and the Jews are being destroyed as Jesus was by the scribes and Pharisees, scientists and fundamentalist Christians. As we good people give our money to the Destroyers and sit and watch. We are next.

How ironic. The most godly people on earth, the Palestinians and the Jews are being destroyed as Jesus was by the scribes and Pharisees, scientists and fundamentalist Christians. As we good people give our money to the Destroyers and sit and watch. We are next.

Fundamentalist Christians, in love and truth I say, indeed you have a father, it is absolutely obviously clearly the father of Destruction, and Jesus had the other one. The father of creation. You are children of the devil. Repent. Return to your original father, creator. Article

Fundamentalist Christians, in love and truth I say, indeed you have a father, it is absolutely obviously clearly the father of Destruction, and Jesus had the other one. The father of creation. You are children of the devil. Repent. Return to your original father, creator.   https://www.google.com/url?q=https://news.vice.com/story/evangelicals-mike-pence-trump-jerusalem

Liberalism is nothing new. Just a different set of ground rules for who is over privileged and who is underprivileged.

Liberalism is nothing new. Just a different set of ground rules for who is over privileged and who is underprivileged.

Sequence of events. 1. Israel and US desecrates international law, terrorizing and murdering Palestinians daily, unimaginable unendurable torture. 2. A Palestinian fires a bottle rocket, bottle rocket, bottle rocket, bottle rocket as an impotent expression of Rage. 3. Israel unleashes the weaponry of the fourth most powerful military on Earth, American and British and Canadian weapons, on defenseless populations largely children. The Nazis used gas. The Israelis use America's weaponry. F-16 Fighters. White phosphorus. Fragmentation bombs. Bombs sophisticated in their ability to amputate legs. Yes. Actually.

Sequence of events. 1. Israel and US desecrates international law, terrorizing and murdering Palestinians daily, unimaginable unendurable torture. 2. A Palestinian fires a bottle rocket, bottle rocket, bottle rocket, bottle rocket as an impotent expression of Rage. 3. Israel unleashes the weaponry of the fourth most powerful military on Earth, American and British and Canadian weapons, on defenseless populations largely children. The Nazis used gas. The Israelis use America's weaponry. F-16 Fighters. White phosphorus. Fragmentation bombs. Bombs sophisticated in their ability to amputate legs. Yes. Actually.

The cruelty of conceiving a child into this hellish world is beyond my comprehension.

The cruelty of conceiving a child into this hellish world is beyond my comprehension.

Video log. The man Jesus was absolutely correct. Salvation is being son, daughter, of Creator in this life.

https://vimeo.com/246295125

Jesus was correct. The man was correct. All Is Lost. All is in flames. But each can still save their life, themself, and maybe others, by throwing off slavery to the fleshly life and being the spirit of creator devoted to the least of these our fellow-creatures.

Jesus was correct. The man was correct. All Is Lost. All is in flames. But each can still save their life, themself, and maybe others, by throwing off slavery to the fleshly life and being the spirit of creator devoted to the least of these our fellow-creatures.

12.06.2017

Moving forward in the face of utter hopelessness. Video log

https://vimeo.com/246153430

In Joshua Tree momentary blip of Internet. will be here offline several more days I expect. Trying to gain my footing in this unimaginably horrible completely hopeless world.

In Joshua Tree momentary blip of Internet.  will be here offline several more days I expect. Trying to gain my footing in this unimaginably horrible completely hopeless world.

12.03.2017

Off internet for several days I expect. Back on Monday or Tues. Joshua Tree NP. Looking for God. Narrow roads may prevent this. We'll see.

Off internet for several days I expect. Back on Monday or Tues.
Joshua Tree NP.
Looking for God.

12.02.2017

This vehicle is awesome! They did not like my answer. Video log

https://vimeo.com/245562482

Abraham heschel, the meaning of this hour. years ago when I created this site and ever since I find this essay probably the most Godly can't say I've ever seen. But it has only gotten worse in the 80 years since heschel wrote this.

http://peaceandnonviolence.blogspot.com/2007/03/meaning-of-this-hour-abraham-j-heschel.html?m=1

To try and be good maybe the best I can do anymore Video log

https://vimeo.com/245526837

12.01.2017

Video log. James profound metamorphosis.

https://vimeo.com/245426158

Video log. "It is my little attempt to do good in the world."

The Brilliance of the vultures is that they see the dying in time to fully exploit them.

The Brilliance of the vultures is that they see the dying in time to fully exploit them.

The best that can be hoped for now is to preserve the tiniest bit of goodness in the world that it might help goodness in the future be known, by someone.

The best that can be hoped for now is to preserve the tiniest bit of goodness in the world that it might help goodness in the future be known, by someone.

I watch America die, their kids future mutilated, at the hands of good Americans that just f****** sit and watch.

I watch America die, their kids future mutilated, at the hands of good Americans that just f****** sit and watch.

America and the world being saved is all but inconceivable to me anymore.

America and the world being saved is all but inconceivable to me anymore.

11.30.2017

Stop bringing children into this man-made hell. Who can be so cruel? So blind and selfish?

Stop bringing children into this man-made hell. Who can be so cruel? So blind and selfish?

11.29.2017

The valid function of Prayer: to seek and execute marching orders in service of creation.

The valid function of Prayer: to seek and execute marching orders in service of creation.

The most hateful u.s. group may be we Boomers. Victim-blaming while we slop at the trough our plunder of Earth, collectively fiddling while Rome Burns.

The most hateful u.s. group may be we Boomers. Victim-blaming while we slop at the trough our plunder of Earth, collectively fiddling while Rome Burns.

Am I doing more harm than good? Exceedingly harsh I am in my life and in my communication face-to-face. Marooned in Yucca Valley......

Am I doing more harm than good? Exceedingly harsh I am in my life and in my communication face-to-face. Marooned in Yucca Valley...... diagnosing electrical problems, waiting for parts, for nearly a week, this is an almost festive place. Almost an outpost I would say. Happy people. That's a mark of sickness. Who can be happy in such a suffering world except for a clinically sick individual? But within the sick individual might be the seeds of Health. Constantly out with the vehicle in the open doing repairs person after person drives up and in some form  asks incredibly thoughtless questions, is it electric? Etc. I'm growing. My primary horror is not at the stupidity, the thoughtlessness of the questions so much anymore. I'm growing. More and more I'm instinctively clear that the opportunity in front of me is not to be incensed at the stupidity of the questions. The opportunity in front of me, regardless of how small, is to try and jolt the dead hearts that can be happy and clueless in the face of such horror, to jolt them to life, to resurrect them to life. To resurrect them from the dead. It's possible I'm doing much more harm than good. But that is not my assessment. I believe that my understanding of how to resurrect hearts and my courage to do so despite personal isolation is increasing.

It has been weeks since I have felt well physically. The intestine shortened by 1/3 to remove cancer is less and less manageable and rarely feels healthy. It occurs to me that cancer may be coming back.

It has been weeks since I have felt well physically. The intestine shortened by 1/3 to remove cancer is less and less manageable and rarely feels healthy. It occurs to me that cancer may be coming back.

The work, the need, is to resurrect Souls, Hearts, from the dead. Jesus died exhorting us to this work. We couldn't, wouldn't, and don't see it even now. Especially now.

The work, the need, is to resurrect Souls, Hearts, from the dead. Jesus died exhorting us to this work. We couldn't, wouldn't, and don't see it even now. Especially now.

What makes the true revolutionary? The refusal to cower or surrender to the evil spirit destroying all creation. Embodying courageous loving, the spirit of creator

What makes the true revolutionary? The refusal to cower or surrender to the evil spirit destroying all creation. Embodying courageous loving, the spirit of creator.

To the gun worshippers: If I were emotionally impotent, if my heart and compassion were castrated as yours obviously are, if I lacked Humanity, decency, if in fact I cared not a fig about the life of others, only about my own pitiful selfish little life, I would feel just like you. I understand.

To the gun worshippers: If I were emotionally impotent, if my heart and compassion were castrated as yours obviously are, if I lacked Humanity, decency, if in fact I cared not a fig about the life of others, only about my own pitiful selfish little life, if I were a coward and lived in fear, I would feel just like you. I understand.

11.28.2017

Those with happy lives today are already dead to their fellow-creatures.

Those with happy lives today are already dead to their fellow-creatures.

Congress is at all out War on the American people. Both parties, the Republicans just less hypocritical.

Congress is at all out War on the American people. Both parties, the Republicans just less hypocritical.

11.27.2017

Jesus was only ever about one Miracle, the human heart rising from death. From the beginning, none have ever understood this.

Jesus was only ever about one Miracle, the human heart rising from death. From the beginning, none have ever understood this.

11.26.2017

A massive, profound, change of heart is all that can save us now. And it's currently changing in the wrong direction.

A massive, profound, change of heart is all that can save us now. And it's currently changing in the wrong direction.

Must read. Chris Hedges. Fascism rises out of failed democracies where elites mouth the feel-your-pain language of liberalism while selling out the public. This was true in 1917 Russia, in Weimar Germany and in the former Yugoslavia. Article

https://www.truthdig.com/articles/behind-mask-moderates/

Notice. I may be offline in the back country of Joshua Tree for a day or so.

Notice. I may be offline in the back country of Joshua Tree for a day or so.

11.25.2017

The need, therefore the mission, therefore my mission, is to raise the living from the Dead.

The need, therefore the mission, therefore my mission, is to raise the living from the Dead.

11.24.2017

Where are the articles on this? Where are the surveys? Extremely important lesson. My Fury was great at this middle age hippie here in Yucca Valley. His response to the horror of millions.....

Where are the articles on this? Where are the surveys? Extremely important lesson. My Fury was great at this middle age hippie here in Yucca Valley. His response to the horror of millions..... of climate refugees as the coastal cities flood he said, well, they have lots of money, if they want to come here and give me money for my land that's fine. I was horrified. But when he drove away I realized he taught me something. It may be that, it's certainly is, that many millions of middle Americans look with some combination of Glee and greed at what the coastal cities going underwater will mean from them personally materially. Their land value and personal wealth will Skyrocket.

11.23.2017

Harsher and harsher is my demeanor and behavior. I'm not certain what it's all about. I think it's a reflection of the ever-increasing impending doom and no one giving a f***. It may be self-indulgent or it may be an ultimate Act of service, to show the harshness in my behavior while there is still time to act.

Harsher and harsher is my demeanor and behavior. I'm not certain what it's all about. I think it's a reflection of the ever-increasing impending doom and no one giving a f***. It may be self-indulgent or it may be an ultimate Act of service, to show the harshness in my behavior while there is still time to act.

This Divine experimental vehicle is pushed to the Limit. The last several days have been spent chasing an electrical short problem. My skills are being tested to the Limit and developed. It may be that the problem has been tamed. Maybe not. If so the journey south and east May begin Saturday morning.

This Divine experimental vehicle is pushed to the Limit. The last several days have been spent chasing an electrical short problem. My skills are being tested to the Limit and developed. It may be that the problem has been tamed. Maybe not. If so the journey south and east May begin Saturday morning.

11.22.2017

Life Can't Amount to Working and Paying Bills: Uruguay's Musica. Article

https://www.telesurtv.net/english/news/Life-Cant-Amount-to-Working-and-Paying-Bills-Uruguays-Mujica-20171120-0010.html

11.21.2017

Part of me is totally ready to give up. Another part recognizes that that would be living death. What I value is goodness, all I really value is goodness. And as long as I fight for that, I embody it, and help it stay alive. And maybe help it grow. But there's no chance of saving the world now because amost everybody's already dead. There is not nearly enough people left alive to fight the oligarchs. To bring a new child into this hell is Unforgivable.

Part of me is totally ready to give up. Another part recognizes that that would be living death. What I value is goodness, all I really value is goodness. And as long as I fight for that, I embody it, and help it stay alive. And maybe help it grow. But there's no chance of saving the world now because amost everybody's already dead. There is not nearly enough people left alive to fight the oligarchs. To bring a new child into this hell is Unforgivable.

11.16.2017

If I sit by while our mother is being too spoiled I am the lowest of creatures. If to stop it I do not commit all that I am and all that I have I am the lowest of creatures.

If I sit by while our mother is being too spoiled I am the lowest of creatures. If to stop it I do not commit all that I am and all that I have I am the lowest of creatures.

More Than 200,000 Gallons Of Oil Spill Along The Keystone Pipeline About 5,000 barrels worth of oil leaked out of the pipeline in northern South Dakota.

https://www.buzzfeed.com/jimdalrympleii/oil-spill-south-dakota?utm_term=.lkBa2MML6#.vuekleey3

Love is God, the Creator, not some disgusting cowardly comforting comfortable little sentiment. Or it is not love. We are to be used at Love's convenience, never ever the reverse. This is to blaspheme the name of God.

Love is God, the Creator, not some disgusting cowardly comforting comfortable little sentiment. Or it is not love. We are to be used at Love's convenience, never ever the reverse. This is to blaspheme the name of God.

Pope reaffirms conscience as heresy debate divides church. Link

https://www.washingtonpost.com/national/religion/pope-reaffirms-conscience-as-heresy-debate-divides-church/2017/11/11/1c92e674-c6fa-11e7-9922-4151f5ca6168_story.html?sw_bypass=true&utm_term=.83d741e18081

11.15.2017

Without a mission I am Paralyzed by the horror in this world. With a mission I cannot sit on the sidelines.

Without a mission I am Paralyzed by the horror in this world. With a mission I cannot sit on the sidelines.

Very important. We have made this vehicle Fun.

This vehicle is fun now. It never dawned on me that this would happen. That could be due to the mission that has me totally absorbed within its grasp. But it could be that it seemed technically unlikely. Whatever the reason this vehicle is fun. Due to inhospitable infrastructure for a bicycle of this size or indeed any bicycle, this vehicle is not for the faint of heart. But how many things are done by people of means that are not for the faint of heart? Cycling, mountain climbing, long distance hiking, long distance cycling, hang gliding, kite sailing, windsurfing, snow skiing..... It now seems impossible to me that self solar energy harvesting Transportation will not become a thing in a variety of forms almost immediately. It's irresistible. To a tiny segment, maybe, but irresistible. And each one that happens becomes a powerful advocate for renewable energy. I suppose these electric cars are nice but they're not a revolution. They are four thousand pounds worth of needless consumption. They are not a revolution. They are more of the same grotesque overconsumption. Ultralight self energy harvesting transportation is a revolution and it shows the revolution that is entirely possible. The final obstacle to this vehicle being remotely fun was substantial downhill travel. It was pretty miserable burning up those brakes. Stopping every half-mile to let them cool down. And of course all that braking was heat and all that heat was the energy invested in climbing. Yesterday in a 30 mile Journey from the coast to the east side of San Diego is steep Rolling Hills one after another after another. 2200 feet on the day. There was only moderate sun to help. It was surreal to watch a battery indicator that should have been plummeting only decreasing as though we were traveling on flat ground. It still seems surreal. But the gauges are accurate. 20% of the energy for this trip came from regenerative braking. I suspect it will be many many many many months before the brake pads on this vehicle need to be replaced, if even then.

11.14.2017

Phase 2? A new phase of this Mission emerging? Not important in my view, but interesting. Every day....

What is important is that hundreds of thousands of eyeballs can now not unsee the future that is possible, renewable, ultralight living on our mother earth. Constructive coexistence. Life lived in the service of others not self. The only Revolution. This thanks to the contributions of so many now.  Will it make a difference? It is impossible that will not make a difference. Large enough to nudge the needle? Unlikely, but possible. Many now have helped these seeds be sewn. And the sowing of seeds will continue for as long as I can see with this now so capable vehicle.

Phase 2? A new phase of this Mission emerging? Not important in my view, but interesting. Every day.... of the last 14 months, almost 12,000 miles, has been a race, a Sprint. A Sprint to get to Standing Rock. My Sprint to get to Lansing Michigan for the new Harvester micro RV to be built. A Sprint in northern Wisconsin to show it at the Midwest Energy Fair. Sprint back to Lansing Michigan for the solar Harvester micro RV to be completed. Sprint to Western Iowa for the 7-Day Cross Iowa bicycle event with 10,000 people or so. A Sprint to the West Coast where this vehicle could be seen by those with the means and know how to take the idea and run with it. Well, the sprinting phase seems to be over. Except for the Sprint to save the world which is what this is completely, entirely, all about. That will end with my last breath. But the sprinting phase as it has been seems to be over. With the help and generosity and skill and kindness of so many people this being written from the southwest United States, San Diego, it is completed in Phase 1. And coincidentally this miraculous vehicle is now completed. With regenerative braking it is now absolutely a fun vehicle with many fewer incidents that terrorized me, to travel in. There are few climbs that can stop it. And The Descendants from steep grades which were horrible brake melting, vehicle crushing events are now something that recharge the batteries effortlessly  descend  at 15 miles per hour! Game-changing. And those of you that stepped forward with material Financial contributions when it became apparent that this vehicle was so outmatched by the mountains on the coast you enabled the stored battery power to be doubled and there are now few climbing situations that it can't handle. Maybe none. It has been the entire purpose of this vehicle to be seen to try and awaken people's hearts to the possibility of averting a otherwise certain horrible future for the children. That remains 100% of the mission. But the new phase is a move from a arduous Sprint to something I don't remember how to anymore because it has been so many decades, follow my interests and curiosity in the world. As I have written recently I'm aware that my intimate relationship with nature has cooled dramatically. This may be okay but I'm not sure. After some important work to improve the solar generating capability with wiring and a new controller that may be completed tomorrow, the Palm Springs, Joshua Tree area campgrounds become the new initial destination. If my nervous system responds I will linger and try and have my connection with creation reignite. The vehicle got to be seen these last 14 months by sprinting the various locations. For the months that I see ahead it will also be seen but by Meandering to spiritually significant locations to my nervous system primarily. Interesting. My gratitude to those who have contributed to this Mission will never waver.

11.12.2017

The only true protection for the middle class is true protection of the lower class.

The only true protection for the middle class is true protection of the lower class.

Four things this vehicle embodies Each of which may prove irresistible I think. Self-sufficient....

Four things this vehicle embodies Each of which may prove irresistible I think. Self-sufficient.... solar powered travel. Human solar hybrid serious transportation. Human solar hybrid micro RV. extremely light living on the planet. Will these ever be more than niche things? Possible. When carbon fiber becomes a prevalent means of Construction and the equivalent of gallium arsenide is prevalent in solar it will be unlikely that these four things noted above will not at least have serious niches.

11.10.2017

Obviously I don't know this part of California, and it seems I have been too harsh. For the second night I am parked on the very wide Venice Boulevard, expecting no negative encounters with the police. There are.....

Obviously I don't know this part of California, and it seems I have been too harsh. For the second night I am parked on the very wide Venice Boulevard, expecting no negative encounters with the police. There are..... many RVs parked along the same Boulevard. Some, obviously, for days. The street is carefully marked, no parking from 8 a.m. until 10 a.m. No other restriction beyond that. So clearly the community has decided that recreation vehicles and cars you can park on this long Main Street. And probably some others in the area that I have not yet detected. America is dying. People are economically dying left and right. Multiple times now in Silicon Valley, even Elite Pleasanton, out here in Los Angeles area, I am finding a more than tolerance for people living in their cars. What I know is that this is infinitely less negative and hateful than I expected to encounter.

11.09.2017

I am so ultimately lucky, and you could be too. At the moment I'm reflecting on the international cycling support group called warm showers. Cyclist....

I am so ultimately lucky, and you could be too. At the moment I'm reflecting on the international cycling support group called warm showers. Cyclist.... that Supply lodging and support to one another as they travel the world. Lodging is only requested by this Mission when no other options, Walmart parking lots, truck stops, are available. Due to the extreme nature of this traveler, and this vehicle, the acceptance rate is roughly 1 and 20. If I were to non-political and attractive it would be more like 50%. I'm not complaining. Think about it. New one in 20 that opens their arms, I get the extraordinary ones. James

I take no hope or comfort in little bits of hopefulness. Quite the opposite. We will avoid......

I take no hope or comfort in little bits of hopefulness. Quite the opposite. We will avoid...... saving the world precisely because we find little bits of Hope to keep us in our comfort zone and on the sidelines. The Guardian newspaper, which usually I'm grateful for today ran an article on the seven hopeful things, megatrends, that might avert global warming. F*** them. We don't have a problem with people finding reasons to stay on the sidelines. That's not our problem.

She throws up on you for the 8th time today, your beloved 2 year old daughter desperately ill with the flu. Do you yell at her yet? Do you cut off her food......

She throws up on you for the 8th time today, your beloved 2 year old daughter desperately ill with the flu. Do you yell at her yet? Do you cut off her food...... or threaten to end her housing because of her horrible Behavior? Of course not! You ache for her pain, care not how many times she throws up, only that you help her pain subside. And yet my sisters and brothers often draw my Fury and ire. The rich in their disgusting criminally selfish mansions. My sisters and brothers in their pickup trucks with their cursing at this vehicle and their hatred. The homeless, the poor, with their trash all over the place and their wretched appearance. All are terribly sick, victims of this diseased society, and yet too often they draw not my compassion and solidarity but my hatred. But what I've just written is a new Glimpse for me of the problem within me. And I'm glad of that. I'm learning a new way to see these horrible behaviors for what they are, sickness of this Society made manifest, needing my attempts, my best attempts, to be a cure.

Get the F off the road!!! This on a very not busy Route 1. Two lanes. This human solar hybrid micro RV on the road did not slow that young white male in his pickup truck 3 seconds literally.

Get the F off the road!!! This on a very not busy Route 1. Two lanes. This human solar hybrid micro RV on the road did not slow that young white male in his pickup truck 3 seconds literally.

Capitalism, materialism, militarism, the central amazing essential achievement: Nearly every heart dead Beyond toddlerhood. Truly.

Capitalism, materialism, militarism, the central amazing essential achievement: Nearly every heart dead Beyond toddlerhood. Truly.

11.07.2017

Career homeless. In Creator's eyes who is the more morally reprehensible, the career homeless for Generations, or trust fund adults, retired folks living off of Decades of looting the planet though their intentions may have been good, corporate capitalist terrorists destroying the planet?

Career homeless. In Creator's eyes who is the more morally reprehensible, the career homeless for Generations, or trust fund adults, retired folks living off of Decades of looting the planet though their intentions may have been good, corporate capitalist terrorists destroying the planet?

11.05.2017

Santa Barbara has Exquisite physical Beauty. But I find ugly what is not equally for all, especially for the poorest.

Santa Barbara has Exquisite physical Beauty.
But I find ugly what is not equally for all, especially for the poorest.

Problem: Our culture says the purpose of life is to get and use money. Our genes say create, nurture, protect life. Opposites.

Problem: Our culture says the purpose of life is to get and use money. Our genes say create, nurture, protect life. Opposites.

11.04.2017

We crucified Jesus then, and every day since, over one little word, the word, all. Do unto others all you would have them do unto you. Leave off the word all and we love him. Include the word all and we f****** kill him.

We crucified Jesus then, and every day since, over one little word, the word, all. Do unto others all you would have them do unto you. Leave off the word all and we love him. Include the word all and we f****** kill him.

Among the very nicest, any level of immorality is Justified to protect our over privileged. Among the very nicest of us, not one of the million is the exception to this. They call me a saint when I give to the poor, I call me a communist when I asked why there are poor. South America St..

Among the very nicest, any level of immorality is Justified to protect our over privileged. Among the very nicest of us, not one of the million is the exception to this. They call me a saint when I give to the poor, I call me a communist when I asked why there are poor. South America St..

11.02.2017

Help badly needed for lodging, places to park at night, in the Los Angeles Corridor South. Saturday night I arrive Santa Barbara. and a cyclist 50 miles east-southeast of there Provides a place on Sunday night. Moving south at about 60 miles a day from there working down towards San Diego. It is an absolute desert in terms of Walmarts that allow overnight parking, truck stops.

Help badly needed for lodging, places to park at night, in the Los Angeles Corridor South. Saturday night I arrive Santa Barbara. and a cyclist 50 miles east-southeast of there Provides a place on Sunday night. Moving south at about 60 miles a day from there working down towards San Diego. It is an absolute desert in terms of Walmarts that allow overnight parking, truck stops.

Quite possibly one of the most productive days of this mission. And quite enjoyable. Kettleman Village to Passo....

Quite possibly one of the most productive days of this mission. And quite enjoyable. Kettleman Village to Passo.... Robles? 7 miles left to the trip. 3200 feet of climbing,  about 60 miles of travel. Some harrowing parts of this high-speed Highway but most of it luxurious clean wide shoulders with huge drive by having little else to do but look at and Ponder this tiny little vehicle as they speed by. Flawless performance at the vehicle. Near 0 cooperation from the Sun in weeks on the first day in weeks when it really really would have been helpful. LOL. Extraordinary cooperation LOL, by the powers-that-be. Unless and until this vehicle has regenerative braking it is The Descent on Long climbs that is particularly miserable because it does nothing but waste energy putting it into heated and or melted brakes. The exception to that is a descent grade of 4% or less where when wind drag keeps the vehicle speed at a manageable 28 miles per hour or less without using much brakes. But at that speed vehicle is at least slightly unstable and on a narrow shoulder even if the grade would allow it prudence does not. So brakes are burned up to keep it at 12 miles an hour. And on the climb, a 2000 foot climb, the most significant on the trip they were working on the roads, putting down lines. Sew a flag person was stopping traffic One Direction or the other for maybe 10 minutes or more. Single-lane. So for many miles the traffic that was climbing with me was confined to one lane of this highway. Maybe by law I should have been in that lane as well but that would have been terrible. So I decided to use the other wise beautiful Lanes including the bicycle lane for myself. It was glorious! And it provided quite a slow-moving eyeful to those climbing alongside me. When I reach the top, a bit fatigued and very wet and it was chilly I anticipated stopping for a while and putting on my sweatshirts. But immediately I realized that next to me going my direction was no one and nothing. Silence. There was the possibility that my upcoming Lane was stopped behind me and that I would have a long time  many minutes I would totally open Lane and would not have to burn up my brakes. And that's exactly what happened for maybe 10 minutes. Absolutely fabulous. Now, in the last half-hour of this trip, the sun is out. So low on the horizon that it is doing absolutely no good. Just laughing at me. And per my just Pryor post I feel like I've cracked a major code. Today was a very powerful fluid output of this body. Very satisfying. The code  I cracked by the way is one that I now remember deciphering several months ago and I'm also aware that somehow for the last month I've totally forgotten it. Quite amazing.

Note to self. Remember that Cadence and force determines where the end of the stroke is, the bottom reach. Increased stroke power and decreased Cadence tends to move the bottom of the stroke down toward 4 or 4:30. Faster light or stroke tends to move toward three a clock.

Note to self. Remember that Cadence and force determines where the end of the stroke is, the bottom reach. Increased stroke power and decreased Cadence tends to move the bottom of the stroke down toward 4 or 4:30. Faster light or stroke tends to move toward three a clock. This may be the single most important factor to an effective stroke for me. What I forget everything falls apart. No power, stress on the legs, frustration, spastic action. When I remember then the primary part of the stroke, extending the leg to that optimal bottom point is fluid, balanced, synchronized, and supports efficient direction of all energy into the stroke. When I forget, absolute total disaster.

The fictional white male supremacist blue-eyed Jesus is precisely opposite the brown-skinned Palestinian Jew of 2000 years ago.

The fictional white male supremacist blue-eyed Jesus is precisely opposite the brown-skinned Palestinian Jew of 2000 years ago.

Never ever can we take responsibility for the outcome of our actions, while every breath taking responsibility for our actions. Never in control of any outcome are we. full effort is full success, rightly said Gandhi. We are called to be faithful, not successful, said Teresa of Calcutta.

Never ever can we take responsibility for the outcome of our actions, while every breath taking responsibility for our actions. Never in control of any outcome are we. full effort is full success, rightly said Gandhi. We are called to be faithful, not successful, said Teresa of Calcutta.

10.30.2017

Today was the exception. I am never ashamed of myself. On a fairly empty road on the outskirts of Fresno the biggest pickup truck I've ever seen, shiny maroon new, came alongside.....

Today was the exception. I am never ashamed of myself. On a fairly empty road on the outskirts of Fresno the biggest pickup truck I've ever seen, shiny maroon new, came alongside..... me as I'm in the bike lane paddling along. One minute next to me, the next second dropping back a little bit then next to me. The driver looking down trying to get my attention but not saying why. I didn't feel at risk but I was outraged at what a stupid thing to do. This went on for maybe 15 seconds the person saying something every once in awhile to try and get my attention and I finally screamed, what?! I turned and looked at the end of a joule and he said do you accept donations? As the words came out of his mouth shocked at my shouting, he quickly looked hurt and then angry at himself for running the words. I said no. Thank goodness a hundred yards ahead he was stopped at a light waiting for it to turn green so he could turn left. What an Incredible Gift To Me. I was able to stop next to him and to shout across the lane, sir, I am so desperately sorry. He clearly accepted my apology.

I think there is no personal price I would not pay to improve the outlook for creation.

I think there is no personal price I would not pay to improve the outlook for creation.

10.29.2017

What if the extreme moral teachers were giving us not nice platitudes but the minimum requirements for a chance at species survival?

What if the extreme moral teachers were giving us not nice platitudes but the minimum requirements for a chance at species survival?

You need to stop talking about the bad stuff other folks do if you personally consume at much Beyond a third world level.

You need to stop talking about the bad stuff other folks do if you personally consume at much Beyond a third world level.

10.28.2017

I am so tired of the left whining and doing squat with their lives and resources to make things change.

I am so tired of the left whining and doing squat with their lives and resources to make things change.

10.27.2017

It seems that my allegiance is not even to my own life, but to that which is good. I certainly didn't see this coming.

It seems that my allegiance is not even to my own life, but to that which is good. I certainly didn't see this coming.

If my best hope is to help even one person return to their Humanity, well, I can live for that.

If my best hope is to help even one person return to their Humanity, well, I can live for that.

10.26.2017

Without love it is nothing. Corinthians 13. Without money, you are worthless. America, 2017.

Without love it is nothing. Corinthians 13. Without money, you are worthless. America, 2017.

There is still much worth fighting for, Jane Goodall said a year ago. Very poignant I thought then. Quite incorrect I think now. Very very little Worth Fighting For Anymore. so little goodness left in the human soul, and as a consequence so little in nature not already destroyed or doomed. I'll fight on, but with these thoughts.

There is still much worth fighting for, Jane Goodall said a year ago. Very poignant I thought then. Quite incorrect I think now. Very very little Worth Fighting For Anymore. so little goodness left in the human soul, and as a consequence so little in nature not already destroyed or doomed. I'll fight on, but with these thoughts.

10.25.2017

A young hispanic man, maybe Thirty, hard hat, work clothes, not new car, may I please donate to your work? He handed.......

A young hispanic man, maybe Thirty, hard hat, work clothes, not new car, may I please donate to your work? He handed...... me $20. At the far end of the Lowe's hardware parking lot where there were few cars his presence in his car was unaware to me. He got out of his car and as he approached they noticed him. Something or some things in the vehicle apparently start his heart. Such a privilege for me.

Major update. Departed Silicon Valley. Stockton tomorrow is planned........

Yesterday and today two fairly short days distance wise. Apparently this mission is not to be destroyed yet. Yesterday afternoon the severe wobbling that was developing in the vehicle revealed itself as spokes in the rear wheel that had all but collapsed as one of them had snapped. Right on the edge of catastrophic failure. The pope is correct, God is no more of a magician than is gravity, the cousin. But that's slightly hard to believe sometimes. How this vehicle was spared catastrophe yesterday is unclear. And, after the first incredibly rude bike shop in Pleasanton, the second one was gracious and expert and had a clinic, a free clinic, at 6 p.m., on rebuilding bicycle wheels. If it doesn't kill you you grow. I grew. hoping to hear from the bike shop in Sacramento that they could machine a new hub for regenerative braking I spent the morning working on the vehicle after displaying it in the middle of a high-tech Office Park at the coffee shop. by midday, still not hearing from the Sacramento bike shop the trip resumed midday. After only 15 miles the spokes in the rear wheel were loose again. it is still missing a Spoke which hopefully will be replaced someplace tomorrow. With my newfound awareness skills and confidence The wheel was made serviceable again. to deal with stress and fatigue I've reported recently travel of only 30 miles was accepted, an affordable meal at a buffet Was a much-needed refueling stop this afternoon. More work on the rear wheel. Hopefully rest in the parking lot undisturbed tonight. departure tomorrow morning plans for a bicycle shop in Stockton to replace that spoke hopefully. then a long and fairly leisurely Meandering Trip South to San Diego and then East along the Southern United States. unlike the last several months where there was great worry about getting caught in snow at altitude the weather is not something that I know of as a driving factor in the schedule. Maybe it should be but if so I am as of yet unaware.

10.23.2017

I wish it were as simple as caring about a ethnic, gender, national group. But it's not. We need to Foster really good Souls.

I wish it were as simple as caring about a ethnic, gender, national group. But it's not. We need to Foster really good Souls.

If we lose the insects, then everything is going to collapse… there has been some kind of horrific decline. Link

https://www.counterpunch.org/2017/10/23/hidden-danger-of-ecological-collapse/

Insanely humane. Leonard Bernstein and Felicia stood up for the Black Panthers. Article

https://m.huffpost.com/us/entry/us_59e6c200e4b08f9f9edb7b11?ncid=engmodushpmg00000003

Don’t just accept increasing inequality, urges Pope Francis

http://www.catholicherald.co.uk/news/2017/10/22/dont-just-accept-increasing-inequality-urges-pope-francis/

10.22.2017

Sadly, importantly, I see I was correct. The right and the left are stupid, ignorant, with few exceptions. This is the problem.

Sadly, importantly, I see I was correct. The right and the left are stupid, ignorant, with few exceptions. This is the problem.

How terrible it will be for you, scribes and Pharisees, you hypocrites! You give a tenth of your mint, dill, and cummin, but have neglected the more important matters of the Law: justice, mercy, and faithfulness. Jesus

How terrible it will be for you, scribes and Pharisees, you hypocrites! You give a tenth of your mint, dill, and cummin, but have neglected the more important matters of the Law: justice, mercy, and faithfulness. Jesus

I reject the world's Jesus. Antichrist. I embrace the Palestinian Jew whose religion was loving.

I reject the world's Jesus. Antichrist. I embrace the Palestinian Jew whose religion was loving.

By his wounds you are healed. Yes, this is true, with the white jesus that white folks created, this is true. But with the Palestinian Jew we are saved by loving as he loved. Two opposite Jesus.

By his wounds you are healed. Yes, this is true, with the white jesus that white folks created, this is true. But with the Palestinian Jew we are saved by loving as he loved. Two opposite Jesus.

The most deadly malpractice: Liberal activists. Criminally ignorant of the experts that have come before.

The most deadly malpractice:
Liberal activists. Criminally ignorant of the experts that have come before.

Few people chose War. They chose selfishness and the result was war. David Dellinger, From Yale to jail.

Few people chose War.
They chose selfishness and the result was war.
David Dellinger,
From Yale to jail.

10.21.2017

Religious literalism is a mental disease. A deadly addiction. A cult mob.

Religious literalism is a mental disease. A deadly addiction. A cult mob.

What We crave we pursue no matter how impossible. Morality? Oh, we can't master that. B*******.

What We crave we pursue no matter how impossible.
Morality? Oh, we can't master that.
B*******.

Global pollution kills 9m a year and threatens 'survival of human societies'. Link

https://www.theguardian.com/environment/2017/oct/19/global-pollution-kills-millions-threatens-survival-human-societies

National Lawyers Guild Sues Morton County Sheriff, Police for Excessive Force. Link

https://www.democracynow.org/2016/11/29/headlines/national_lawyers_guild_sues_morton_county_sheriff_police_for_excessive_force

10.19.2017

Warning of 'ecological Armageddon' after dramatic plunge in insect numbers. Link

https://www.theguardian.com/environment/2017/oct/18/warning-of-ecological-armageddon-after-dramatic-plunge-in-insect-numbers

10.18.2017

Regularly Behavior makes me think, you're stupid, an idiot, ignorant, thoughtless, sick.... Well, yes, few today have retained any Mental Health. That's the problem.

Regularly Behavior makes me think, you're stupid, an idiot, ignorant, thoughtless, sick.... Well, yes, few today have retained any Mental Health. That's the problem.

How are we so stupid to believe that being kind and decent is only good for some reward in return, not joy in itself?

How are we so stupid to believe that being kind and decent is only good for some reward in return, not joy in itself?

Help needed. What if I am robbed and everything is gone? A birthday.....

Help needed. What if I am robbed and everything is gone? A birthday..... gift for me and this Mission, today, is the day, if you will. a major vulnerability for this whole mission is the fact that I have no permanent mailing address although My old DC address is still what is used. No, nothing that goes there can be received. Dead letter. if you know of anyone that would be extremely glad to let me use their address for banking, Social Security, that things can be mailed there then the vulnerability would go down dramatically. Let's say I am robbed and my credit cards and debit card are taken. There is no way other than impossible time and travel back to DC to get anything. I need to open a more National or Western account and to do that I need a mailing address where I can actually get things. my Commerce is extremely low and profoundly responsible. My financial history lifelong and recent is flawless. I can think of no risk that I will be. and because I have almost no Commerce the risk of junk mail should be extremely low. if you know of anyone please let me know. James

Massive emergency repairs required. The trouble began last night and continued for many hours. Not a.....

Massive emergency repairs required. The trouble began last night and continued for many hours. Not a..... problem this time with this miraculous mechanical machine, but with the bio machine operating it. Recently I've mentioned how my meditation and prayer life have gone by the wayside for the demands of this mission for many many weeks or months now. Last night in a paid for $21 spot in a Fairground created a space I've not had for a long time, complete control of my time in the morning. I think that's what my nervous system sensed and said, f*** it man, you're going to give me some attention and some much-needed repair. If showered me with an anxiety storm that lasted for many hours. It took three or four hours of attempted meditation to get back in control of my mind. We attach all sorts of stigma to what I've just written, don't we? That's ridiculous. We are extremely complex organisms and when placed under dire demand we need work to maintain them. By 10:30 this morning, although disappointed that departing at 4:30 for strategic points didn't happen, I felt much stronger for all the work. An alternative explanation for the anxiety storm that raged in me for many hours is that in going to Triple doses of Imodium for control of my cancer related diarrhea may have a psychological side effect. I have not researched that. I have not gone to Triple doses likely but with 1/3 less colon than I was born with and being on the road all the time I have needed to go to Triple doses to try and get things under control. I don't know if that will work. And no longer having any medical support, no doctor, don't have access to the stronger medications that are available.

Plague: Infects, consumes, takes over, destroys massive populations. White Christians. Jesus is used to cloak consummate evil.

Plague: Infects, consumes, takes over, destroys massive populations. White Christians. Jesus is used to cloak consummate evil.

The racist worldview of Arthur Balfour. Link

https://electronicintifada.net/blogs/david-cronin/racist-worldview-arthur-balfour

10.17.2017

Interesting perspective. I find their sense of entitlement disgusting. This from the long time resident of Berkeley, about the elites. She is homeless.

Interesting perspective. I find their sense of entitlement disgusting. This from the long time resident of Berkeley, about the elites. She is homeless.

James? A sad case of runaway compassion. This the wife......

James? A sad case of runaway compassion. This the wife...... of a co-executive in the dc-based company I worked with commented regarding the hunger strike I was on to stop the genocide in Darfur. 2007. Another person, who has known me longer than anyone, in the 1980s and 90s perceived me as terribly insecure. The following I've not thought of or grasped until just this moment. Why? I don't know. It just hit me. My dad is the most wonderful Soul I've ever known, the most important intellect, the greatest person I've known. He was a nationally recognized and respected, great teacher of music, but more importantly, of people. His love for me was infinite and I still can't figure out why he didn't have me killed for being such a criminally underperforming lazy self-absorbed child. I'm serious. He loved me deeply. I think he must have seen some goodness that was there. He had tremendous mood swings. Mostly to do with disappointment in himself but sometimes disappointment regarding me. He rarely if ever put those disappointments to words. This left me with the theoretical choice of blowing off his moods, which was totally impossible for someone that I so revered, or trying to milk understanding out of the most fleeting facial expression, the one or two words uttered, any tiny clue as to what was going on in that great man. It was Agony for me. It was excruciating for me. For days on end I would try and figure out what's going on. But no credit to me, maybe it was his intent, but it made me an astute listener, and astute Observer at learner. In fact, way way way way way way Beyond most people. No credit to me. But when I care about something I am an intense listener, an intense Observer. The rat has 100 or 1,000 or more times to sensitivity in their nose that we do. In the few things I care about I have those powers of observation. When I look at any good I have brought to life, to the world, it stems from these powers that were developed in this way. No credit to me. And these Powers enabled a New Jersey boy who really went skiing to become a world-class skier, acutely aching for the mountain to teach him how to ski. And a very substantial Windsurfer who rarely got to go. And some of the turned around failing business situations that everyone else saw was hopeless. And someone that started Living the unimaginable nightmare of global warming many years before even the experts. And now riding the potential of living likely on Mother Earth, and moving across the country in a similar way.

10.16.2017

Brando refused the Oscar defending Native American Rights. Hero.

http://m.thevintagenews.com/2017/10/04/why-marlon-brando-refused-the-academy-award-for-his-performance-in-the-godfather/

Portland Will Allow Overnight RV Camping and Tiny Homes on Private Property. Article

http://www.wweek.com/news/2017/10/15/portland-will-allow-overnight-rv-camping-and-tiny-homes-on-private-property/

Speaking about israel-palestine is really pretty simple. We need to put our faith in responsibly seeing the truth as clearly as possible and speaking the truth is clearly as possible. And we need to accept that not one in a million people want to know the truth. To those who do it is enough to clearly distinguish between the zionists, the equivalent of the KKK, and the Jews, the ones heroically fighting for justice for Palestine. It's really pretty simple. We just need to accept that almost no one wants to know the truth.

Speaking about israel-palestine is really pretty simple. We need to put our faith in responsibly seeing the truth as clearly as possible and speaking the truth is clearly as possible. And we need to accept that not one in a million people want to know the truth. To those who do it is enough to clearly distinguish between the zionists, the equivalent of the KKK, and the Jews, the ones heroically fighting for justice for Palestine. It's really pretty simple. We just need to accept that almost no one wants to know the truth.

It has been said that we know the price of everything and the value of nothing.

It has been said that we know the price of everything and the value of nothing.

Solar ebike Harvester micro RV vehicle. 17 technical videos.

Women cannot preempt sexual assault. Another dangerously dishonest particle. Link

Will there ever be honest discussion of this issue? Will there ever be an honest attempt to improve things? Almost certainly not. How dishonest to frame this as an all-or-nothing thing. Nothing it's all or nothing. It's all a matter of probability. Women make up half the population on this planet. To suggest that their behavior has no impact on men is Criminal. It is causing rape.

https://www.vox.com/culture/2017/10/16/16481698/metoo-hashtag-responds-to-mayim-bialik-victim-blaming?utm_campaign=vox.social&utm_content=voxdotcom&utm_medium=social&utm_source=facebook

If a water skier lets go the tow rope they almost immediately sink. The most dire needs of creation is my tow rope. Nothing less can keep me from drowning.

If a water skier lets go the tow rope they almost immediately sink. The most dire needs of creation is my tow rope. Nothing less can keep me from drowning.

To a friend. I feel the same way about myself, the tiniest tiniest Speck of nothing. But I'm unwilling to not do with that Speck of nothing everything I possibly can to create a better world.

To a friend. I feel the same way about myself, the tiniest tiniest Speck of nothing. But I'm unwilling to not do with that Speck of nothing everything I possibly can to create a better world.

Full effort is full success. Gandhi. Absolutely totally completely true. Full effort is the only thing we can control. And few of us try although most of us convince ourselves we have.

Full effort is full success. Gandhi. Absolutely totally completely true. Full effort is the only thing we can control. And few of us try although most of us convince ourselves we have.

Your life is not the major thing in influencing people. It is the only thing.

Your life is not the major thing in influencing people. It is the only thing.

Common dreams. Half of all Americans live at or near poverty.

https://www.commondreams.org/views/2017/10/16/yes-half-americans-are-or-near-poverty-heres-more-evidence

10.15.2017

Thank you for coming to Berkeley. We needed to see you. Mostly nondescript kind white men said outside the little service station in this crowded Berkeley California. To my surprise, and maybe to my discredit, Berkeley seems to be the second most Humane town that I have encountered in this last 11 thousand miles. Grants Pass being the most human but I think I've seen. I have no idea why.

Thank you for coming to Berkeley. We needed to see you. Misty nondescript kind white men said outside the little service station in this crowded Berkeley California. To my surprise, and maybe to my discredit, Berkeley seems to be the second most Humane town that I have encountered in this last 11 thousand miles. Grants Pass being the most human but I think I've seen. I have no idea why.

I'm just so exhausted. This Mission has really pushed me to the Limit. I have no Reserves.

I'm just so exhausted. This Mission has really pushed me to the Limit. I have no Reserves.

Somehow the journey gets harder. I'm not complaining. I'm blessed to have this Mission. But it gets harder. The degree of difficulty does not go down, it just keeps going up. Land is so.....

Somehow the journey gets harder. I'm not complaining. I'm blessed to have this Mission. But it gets harder. The degree of difficulty does not go down, it just keeps going up. Land is so..... scarce here that stores like Starbucks close up there wall sockets. gas stations close up their wall sockets. fast food places close up their wall sockets. And in these days that have shorter sun and so many Hills it is not possible to go all day on just What the sun provide some of these days.  and with Berkeley being the possible exception, the rest stops and Walmart's where it was legal to stay for the night are no more. and with all this goes I'm much more acutely awareness that we don't care about people in this Society, we care about their money, and if they don't have it, and they don't spend it, they are unwelcome. and I'm physically tired. I am emotionally and spiritually tired. the time I would be devoting to my emotional health and connection to creation has gone by the wayside largely To the moment by moment demands of this mission. Again, no complaints. Just a status update. although no one in my network other than one surfaced any housing for me in this part of the country, through my efforts I have uncovered several down in Silicon Valley that if they hold will provide a landing place and a base of operations for Three or four days of this vehicle being legally visible.  as I am stretched to the breaking point I suspect that those in proximity to me have felt that stress and largely Departed. Those who have not, your friendship is a great blessing.

10.13.2017

Or late to baby chicks out of 30000 survive. The rest starved. Link

http://www.miamiherald.com/news/nation-world/world/article178750751.html

It would be an honor to have you stay at my home, the individual, the cyclist, in Silicon Valley wrote to me tonight. I have been exploring every Avenue I can, especially a cycling Support Network, to try and secure legal places for the bicycle at night beginning mid next week. He has a business trip that may prevent but he clearly genuinely wants to help support this mission. This, one of maybe 30 contacts. Two others have shown some interest. I suspect the combination of scarcity of parking and political cowardice are the reasons. It's quite a concern that I may well wind up in the clutches of the police without that being my goal.

It would be an honor to have you stay at my home, the individual, the cyclist, in Silicon Valley wrote to me tonight. I have been exploring every Avenue I can, especially a cycling Support Network, to try and secure legal places for the bicycle at night beginning mid next week. He has a business trip that may prevent but he clearly genuinely wants to help support this mission. This, one of maybe 30 contacts. Two others have shown some interest. I suspect the combination of scarcity of parking and political cowardice are the reasons. It's quite a concern that I may well wind up in the clutches of the police without that being my goal.

If the heart does not rage at Injustice, it is not loving. But the reverse is not necessarily true. Life is teaching me this. Rage has risen within me, with my permission, much in recent weeks as some of you have noticed me Express. And to some degree it has displaced my loving. And one problem with that, maybe the biggest problem with that, but one problem with that is, Joy comes from loving, not raging. With this awareness I hope to bring things back into a better balance.

If the heart does not rage at Injustice, it is not loving. But the reverse is not necessarily true. Life is teaching me this. Rage has risen within me, with my permission, much in recent weeks as some of you have noticed me Express. And to some degree it has displaced my loving. And one problem with that, maybe the biggest problem with that, but one problem with that is, Joy comes from loving, not raging. With this awareness I hope to bring things back into a better balance.

Those who are against protest, simple. The status quo works for them.

Those who are against protest, simple. The status quo works for them.

Ecocide is a problem for the Trump mob how? It wipes out some of us and weakens the rest.

Ecocide is a problem for the Trump mob how? It wipes out some of us and weakens the rest.

We don't make the fires or hurricanes. We make them Armageddon.

We don't make the fires or hurricanes. We make them Armageddon.

10.11.2017

The big, very old locomotive engine was pulling just to Freight cars in this 80 mile long desolate stretch alongside California Interstate 5 north of Sacramento. Noticing it at the last moment chugging so slowly in the opposite direction to me on the opposite side of this Tulane Highway I waved my hand. The Horn of the train honked immediately. We both enjoyed that I'm sure.

The big, very old locomotive engine was pulling just to Freight cars in this 80 mile long desolate stretch alongside California Interstate 5 north of Sacramento. Noticing it at the last moment chugging so slowly in the opposite direction to me on the opposite side of this Tulane Highway I waved my hand. The Horn of the train honked immediately. We both enjoyed that I'm sure.

I infinitely choose the deep sadness of being alive in this hellish world we have created, instead of the alternative, a happy existence, living death, of blissful ignorance and denial. Our culture exists in tirely on making the opposite choice of mine.

I infinitely choose the deep sadness of being alive in this hellish world we have created, instead of the alternative, a happy existence, living death, of blissful ignorance and denial. Our culture exists in tirely on making the opposite choice of mine.

https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/ng-interactive/2017/oct/09/cia-torture-black-site-enhanced-interrogation?CMP=Share_iOSApp_Other%3FCMP%3Dshare_btn_fb

10.10.2017

The Destroyer, savior, of my life. Watch this, or f*** you. Unfriend me. Or watch this. This is the Seminal, definitive, authoritative statement of where the f*** we are. Watch it or go to hell.

https://m.facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=10212450091880260&id=1620551416

Unfriending probably 10 per day, sad, angry, resentful. But mostly simply acknowledging that the word friend means something, and a friend not in deed is no friend.

Unfriending probably 10 per day, sad, angry, resentful. But mostly simply acknowledging that the word friend means something, and a friend not in deed is no friend.

Important! Video archive of solar bicycle car Harvester micro RV, on Vimeo, despite my friends...... .

Finally, weeks after imploring my friends to help,  with no help forthcoming,  the archival footage of this  miraculous, strategically important,  e-trike  micro solar Harvester RV  is up on the web. https://vimeo.com/237673278

How much am I a wimp? Very little, I think, but very much, possibly. I have quite the cycle recently of Agony of despair, and my cup runneth over. Absolutely, I have no complaints. LOL.

How much am I a wimp? Very little, I think, but very much, possibly. I have quite the cycle recently of Agony of despair, and my cup runneth over. Absolutely, I have no complaints. LOL.

An activist is one who serves from the soul in solidarity. They cannot be bought, or hired. Just kept alive.

An activist is one who serves from the soul in solidarity. They cannot be bought, or hired. Just kept alive.