6.15.2012
Personal Trianer Introduction complete. Awaiting final comments on Book 2
'Loving, don't die, so that 200 billion might have Life.' HUH?
6.13.2012
Friends, IMPORTANT - Those having difficulty, pain... with Loving's Death Fast...
I've continued to take modest calories to finish the books, and this will continue till they, and the audio versions are done. I'll do a recount as to days when they are done, drop 2 days for every day I've taken calories from day 39 - I'm guessing the Death Fast Restart will be somewhere around day 10-17 or so, by that method - but whatever the math comes out to, tho I still look like day 30 or so. I hope to restart by early next week.
A real good draft of "Resurrecting the Insanely Humane Unviolent Warrior in You, a Personal Trainer," 1d, went out last night - Here, and for online browsing, and to interact with your Personal Trainer tool, here. The Personal Trainer tool should go out tonight, selected email, and blog posts. I desperately need your immediate input, but I know of only one, maybe three that show any intention of doing so - I'll take what I can get, soon, and or go with what I've got already.
As you know by now, I meant what I said day 1, "I can do my part perfectly well by myself. I do not need support (tho when it is what helps the campaign, I'll gladly accept it; but not if it interferes.) I'm sure that a Navy SEAL would say the same, and it would be true. And YOU, in that which you are most practiced and competent, again, it would be true of you. What I'm doing now I've been doing since my early 30's - it just looks different. I know the territory, I know me.
I also meant what I said on two other counts, day 1, in so many words, that are similar to each other:
1. I can't do what others would need to do as partners in this campaign -
qualified PR,
qualified Promotion,
Press,
securing those who will join;
and Securing an Injunction against violating my DNR, and Legal Advice regarding anyone that might either watch over me the final hours or days, or
take me to a place safe from Resuscitation if the Injunction doesn't come thru, and someone offers me a place to die).
2. I can't do what 1000 here on Death Fast can do. But I can do what I can do, my part, regardless, and I'll joyfully do that. I'm quite relieved that soon I can fully resume my most crucial part.
MY POINT:
Gandhi was emphatic. It is far harder on those with me, than on I, when I'm in prison, or on hunger strike.
This is fundamentally and profoundly true. Think of a movie where the central character is working to 'save the word.' Lot's of movies to choose from, right? Grade A, thru grade Z. We grimace, while watching, right? We ache. We hurt. But now think if the character. Do they? Think now. No.
It is much, infinitely harder on the bystanders, the onlookers - Hell for them; Heaven for the one trying to save the world.
THE SECOND YOU NEED TO HATE ME, VILIFY ME, COMPLETELY DISTANCE FROM ME (I'M GUESSING ALMOST ALL HAVE DONE SO BY NOW), BE ANGRY AT ME... DO IT. I'll love you no less, not one smidgen. I want you do do what you need to to get thru this ok.
BUT, ONE LAST POINT - A REPEAT - I CAN'T FIGHT ON TWO FRONTS. I AM UNABLE. SO, IF YOU WORK TO GET ME TO STOP; IF YOU WORK ON OTHERS ASSOCIATED, WORKING ON THE CAMPAIGN, LOBBYING TO GET ME TO STOP, OUR DIALOG, OUR RELATIONSHIP, WILL STOP. Out of anger? Out of hate? Out of need. I will complete my part. I'll not fail you in that. And if terminating contact, fully, with you is necessary, that's what I'll do.
Loving u all
Book 2, final revision for your convenience 1d
Hi. about 25% of the essays are from book 1 - I hadn't proofed them - now I have.
6.12.2012
6.10.2012
Book 2 NEEDS your Review - Resurrecting the Insanely Humane Unviolent Warrior in you
Book 2 NEEDS your Immediate Review - "Resurrecting the Insanely Humane Unviolent Warrior in you. A Personal Trainer."
Here's the deal:
- Of the 95 characteristics, 95 essays, you have about 91. Don't panic when you come to a blank page. I thought I had them done, can't find those files. Please, don't wait.
- You'll find a thorough introduction to the trainer, and more than enough reading before I get the actual tool in your hands by mid week. I can't afford to lose any more blood to these mosquitoes tonight, so, by Wednesday.
- Maybe only 30% of the Essays have the link to their corresponding video log. :-( . The videos are all up on yt chan StartLoving4, but the links will be incorporated in the next draft to you.
FYI, also online http://trackingplanb.blogspot.com/p/book-2-resurrecting-insanely-humane.html
Well, that's all I've got strength for tonight, and I'm likely to be a little slow tomorrow.
Loving
6.09.2012
Looks like tomorrow, Sunday, night, book 2. Help?
6.08.2012
Huh. No one told me it was Friday. Oh sh*#
DF Day 30 - Is the LA Times makeing this up, or is someone helping them?
Environmentalist ends his hunger strike, says mass strike better Los Angeles Times - 3 days ago. Environmental protester ends hunger strike at Canadian Embassy. ... the name Start Loving, is still camped out at the embassy, protesting the ...
Uh, I never, EVER, EVER HAD EVEN THE THOUGHT I was ending it. I never SAID, or WROTE to ANYONE, that I was ending it. Hmmmm. '50% chance that in the coming weeks I could see a faster way of getting the 1000 here...' is what I said, and what I've written.
It ain't me that's giving them this stuff, and I'm the only one that has fully joined this campaign, so by definition, I'm the only one that could author it, in Truth.
The only other two authorized to EVER speak FOR this campaign to the press, or to anyone, per a prior email of several weeks ago are Brian and Hope, and I'm certain that they haven't and wouldn't make something like this up. They are deliberate, not careless, and I don't recall ever seeing significant ego in them. I'm TOTALLY certain they are not authoring this falacious stuff.
It is possible that LA Times just makes it up, possible; horrifying, but possible - they are one of less than 5 publications I've found over the years that at all values the truth. Are they too now just infotainment? The 1st article and then this, 75% of the stuff I don't recognize, sure didn't come from me, from the writing, the blogs, the book... from the extensive interviews.... HOWEVER, IT IS TOTALLY NOT MY RIGHT TO DICTATE OR EVEN TRY TO CONTROL WHAT THEY SAY. I RESPECT THAT BOUNDARY WITH THE PRESS. Will I have any more to say to them after this? I don't know.
But did they really make all this up, or is there a 2nd grade ego at play here, someone not authorized to speak FOR the vigil that is making stuff up for some grotesque ego gratification? I don't sense malice, but this would be excellent malice, too. But I don't sense malice. 2nd grade ego run amuck. Some of this has 2nd grade ego written all over it. Someone failing to do important work themselves, desperately wanting attention, to be important... and essentially, stealing a spotlight generated by the radically committed, disciplined, mature, responsible work of another(s).
LET ME BE CLEAR:
1. I have absolutely no moral right to tell anyone in the world what they can and can't say about this Death Fast, me, my writing, environmental science, US policy.....
EXCEPT.....
2. I have the total, complete, absolute moral right, thus far, as the only person that has fully joined, and conducted 92% of the cumulative work of this campaign, from years of conceptual work to 24hrs/day for 50 days now... to author what is said FOR the vigil, and to authorize who may or may not speak FOR the vigil - Brian and Hope.
AND....
3. I have the complete moral right to declare (what anyone with conscience or morality, operating above a 2nd grade level of maturity shouldn't have to be told) - you don't get to straddle the fence - IF YOU CHOOSE TO IN ANY WAY ASSOCIATE YOURSELF WITH THE CAMPAIGN, YOU WILL NOT SPEAK 'FOR' OR 'OF' (OR OF, OR OF, OR OF...) THE CAMPAIGN, UNLESS:
A. YOU ARE AUTHORIZED TO DO SO (just Brian and Hope thus far have earned that right, and myself), AND
B. YOU SPEAK EXACTLY WHAT HAS BEEN AUTHORIZED BY MUTUAL PRIOR DISCUSSION WITH ME (EXCEPT FOR THE LICENSE GRANTED BY ME FOR EXPEDIENCY EARNED BY THE CARE AND DUE DILIGENCE OF HOPE AND BRIAN), AND OR WITH STRICT, COMPLETE, ABSOLUTE ADHERENCE TO WHAT I'VE PRIOR WRITTEN OR EXPLICITLY WRITTEN.
For God's sake, is there really someone(s) that thinks this is some toy, this Death Fast, this campaign, the massive, disciplined, responsible effort that not they but another(s) have put into this, but in this the most crucial issue ever to face humanity, that thinks that this is some toy they can play with to gratify their own ego? My God, I hope not. My God, but that is so typical of the post 60's activist club, let's play 'activist' mentality, ultimately playing now with the lives of 200 billion? Wow.
For God's sake.
IF THERE IS ANYONE TO WHOM THIS APPLIES GET WITH THE PROGRAM, NOW, OR TOTALLY, AND COMPLETELY DISASSOCIATE YOURSELF FROM IT, NOW. NOW. IF THIS APPLIES TO ANYONE, CEASE AND DESIST, OR TOTALLY DISASSOCIATE YOURSELF FROM THIS CAMPAIGN, NOW, AND IF THEN YOU WANT TO AGGRESSIVELY TORPEDO ME, THE DEATH FAST, OR ANY FACET OF IT, I HAVE NOTHING TO SAY. BUT BEING AT ALL ON THE INSIDE AND USING IT AS SOME EGO OBJECT? MY GOD.
Loving
6.07.2012
6.06.2012
Day 31 Death Fast report - Taking Calories is taking away 1/3 of every day
Day 31 Death Fast report - Taking Calories is taking away 1/3 of every day Sleep, sleep.... sleep. Argh. I've been sure of this for some time, it is far easier, far less effort for the body to feed off of itself than to feed off of external calories. 20 essays left to proof read, then about 5 more essays to shoot, transcirbe, proof. Then the fairly arduous task of pulling it all together and getting the Personal Trainer right in layout, content and technology. I'm going as fast as I can. Gaia is not changing her time frames, she's not slowing on my account. Yesterday I skyped for 45 minutes with a middle school in Wisconsin, a teacher that years ago met me, was impressed by my journey and work, at the 32 year White House Vigil Thomas started. Gutsy guy, says the class was deeply, deeply impacted. John has set up an hour skype interview with an off-main-stream news outlet tonight. Hope has come from California to work on the books, any replanning of the Death Fast, media, interviews, video.... Loving |
6.05.2012
Day 33 Death Fast Roll Back - Update
- 'Loving, this Death Fast mission is the cornerstone of the Great Turning; Jesus work.' Occupy Brother (0 comments)
- Friends - Anyone wishing to input into Death Fast Replanning... (0 comments)
- Day 38 Holding. Friends, IMPORTANT - Planning from here forward of Death Fast (0 comments)
- Friends, IMPORTANT - Planning from here forward of Death Fast (0 comments)
- 1000 on Death Fast. Is the fastest road to that: A, or B. (0 comments)
- I've just stepped back, 1st time, to look at Book 2 - Resurrecting Potent Activism (0 comments)
- Death Fast Day 39 - partial hold till book are done (0 comments)
6.03.2012
'Loving, this Death Fast mission is the cornerstone of the Great Turning; Jesus work.' Occupy Brother
Friends - Anyone wishing to input into Death Fast Replanning...
From: Start Loving <start_loving@yahoo.com>
To: Loving [Start] <start_loving@yahoo.com>
Sent: Saturday, June 2, 2012 7:34 PM
Subject: Friends, IMPORTANT - Planning from here forward of Death Fast
6.02.2012
Day 38 Holding. Friends, IMPORTANT - Planning from here forward of Death Fast
Friends, IMPORTANT - Planning from here forward of Death Fast
1000 on Death Fast. Is the fastest road to that: A, or B.
I've just stepped back, 1st time, to look at Book 2 - Resurrecting Potent Activism
Death Fast Day 39 - partial hold till book are done
6.01.2012
Headed into Exhaustian, Very Fragile mode. Need your compliance.
Day 38 Death Fast status report
5.31.2012
Status Update - Death Fast Day 36 - Canadian Embassy, DC
Sent: Tuesday, May 29, 2012 7:42 AM
To: Reah Janise Kauffman
Subject: FW: Death Hunger Strike in support of 3.0
5.29.2012
I have a confession.
I can fight alone, forever. I have, I will.
But I am totally unable to fight on two fronts, especially when the new front is on what I thought was my side, and for days now, my fault, no one elses, I've been trying to fight on multiple fronts last few days.
No more. Enough. Finished, as of now.
I've just f*cked up on this campaign for the first time. I'm on day 35, I'm told, not 34. I'm exhausted, weak, depleted. But make no mistake, I can and will do my part.
But from now on, anyone, regardless of motive, regardless how nice or well intended or understandable, anyone wanting to talk to me about other than how to win this, now, how they can help, based on what I've already been clear on, will receive zero attention from me. ZERO. Anyone that sees a way to help, I think you are crazy if you don't, help every young person you know, by helping this. Frickin join it. But if you want to talk about me, me stopping - go talk to someone else, cuz I won't.
I just flipped the 1 finger salute to the two most disgusting, sneering, filthy guys in a Mercedes, with a camera, just scum. I don't regret it 1 bit. If it appears all over the internet, you won't like it, but I stand with the truth, and I gave them the truth. And the 1 in a million, the 1000 we need to join this now, they won't be dissuaded one spec. Nothing else matters.
I'm sorry if this isn't clear, but it is the best I can do.
Loving you all
ps: Fw: Status Update. Death Fast Day 34
From: Start Loving <start_loving@yahoo.com>
To: Loving [Start] <start_loving@yahoo.com>
Sent: Tuesday, May 29, 2012 1:06 PM
Subject: Status Update. Death Fast Day 34
Status Update. Death Fast Day 34
5.28.2012
Loving, here. FOR GOD'S SAKE, GET THIS SEEN. Hope, has given us some Hope here.
5.27.2012
Day 32: Starting to fade. THANKS to those helping me finish my work
5.26.2012
John, Johnny, Brian, how I'm spenging your support - Accountability
I'm a strong believer in accountability. You guys have been huge in the support you've been given - keeping me in electricity is a bear. I owe you an accounting. If and when you are not satisfied with how I'm using your time and equipment, computers, you need to let me know.
From the instant you bring them, like 7am, till you pick them up, like 9pm I'm gratefully on them, not a second is wasted.
Today was spent updating to rev 3 the book 1 (done), communicating to all supporters (done), updating the video logs into a playlist that is an exact mirror of the text doc book (25% complete), pasting in links within the book to the video logs (30%), updating the playlist so it IS the book 1 in video (30%), uploading the rev 3 of the book to Scribd for online avail (done), shooting an intro vid for the book (done), putting the book on both blogs via scribd (done), having a sister in Christ cover the wifi for a month (done).
Big day thanks to you three, in primary.
Next priorities: Finishing above; Creating an mp3 version/audio book of the Book 1, and publishing it online - about 14 hours of work to do right, roughly.
Then: Book 2, written for my friends and Family at Occupy DC truth be told - "Resurrecting the Potent pre1970's Activism, in Time.", about 20 video logs to transcribe, most not too long (maybe a day); then the same treatment as book 1, youtube, video version, completed book.
If you guys are willing to keep my going, wayyyyyyy longer even now than original expectations, I don't know how much longer, probably 3-5 days. If it is time for quits, totally ok. I'm blessed, the work is blessed by you patience and support thus far.
I've grooved a lot of new tricks, techniques, services with book 1 so book 2 should go smoother.
Loving u 3
5.23.2012
My beloved Barack - 3 strikes and you are out.
- Tracking Plan B blog - War Room blog . CO2 IS, IS, IS... WWIII, THE GLOBAL WAR OF MASS DESTRUCTION. Hunger Games for the next 50 generations.
- 'There's One True Religion, One Gospel; It's written in our DNA: 1. Loving ALL Creation, 2. Loving ALL People, 3. FULL STOP (There is no #3. Period. Ever. Same as Jesus, King, Gandhi....) FULL STOP.' Jesus
- Loving blog - Waging Unviolent War
5.19.2012
vid 'My Family is those waging their Being, their Lives for Humanity. Yours too.' sLoving
5.16.2012
6 hours in the ER, pumped full of blood chem, I'm good as, well, 21 days starved
- Tracking Plan B blog - War Room blog . CO2 IS, IS, IS... WWIII, THE GLOBAL WAR OF MASS DESTRUCTION. Hunger Games for the next 50 generations.
- 'There's One True Religion, One Gospel; It's written in our DNA: 1. Loving ALL Creation, 2. Loving ALL People, 3. FULL STOP (There is no #3. Period. Ever. Same as Jesus, King, Gandhi....) FULL STOP.' Jesus
- Loving blog - Waging Unviolent War
5.15.2012
'Death Fast Day 21 Update - Renal Failure… vid
- Tracking Plan B blog - War Room blog . CO2 IS, IS, IS... WWIII, THE GLOBAL WAR OF MASS DESTRUCTION. Hunger Games for the next 50 generations.
- 'There's One True Religion, One Gospel; It's written in our DNA: 1. Loving ALL Creation, 2. Loving ALL People, 3. FULL STOP (There is no #3. Period. Ever. Same as Jesus, King, Gandhi....) FULL STOP.' Jesus
- Loving blog - Waging Unviolent War