Start, Wage, Loving: For Joy Serve Soul In Solidarity

6.19.2012

June 19, 2012: Death Fast Restart - Global Warming's Death. Fast.

"Plans are worthless. Planning, is everything." General Dwight D. Eisenhower

"I'll allow just one tyrant in my life, the still, small voice, within." Gandhi

"There is no God higher than the Truth.... Truth is God." Gandhi

"I consider myself a soldier, though a soldier of peace." Gandhi

"Those with the privilege to know, have a duty to act," Albert Einstein

Gandhi was adamant about 'oaths,' He took many, against eating meat, to continue on a hunger strike until his demands were met, etc. Odd, I think, because for him the greatest living human was Leo Tolstoy, who's writings on the contents of the original Greek Gospels created the man we know as Gandhi, and central to Tolstoy's translations is the commandment - 'Take no oaths,' one of only five.

In any case, as I've often written, stated and lived, for me there is only one thing that does not change - the ultimate value of life, and all of creation, and the ultimate, all encompassing duty, the ultimate joy of devoting one's life to the ultimate service of life, Heart, Creation. And at this the most consequential moment in history, the only unalterable in my life, is to do my part with every breath, of preventing the Global Warming Meteor from destroying the future of the next 2000 generations; even if I have to base it on the profoundly inadequate information we are provided by the environmental intelligencia - 'we're in trouble,' in dozens of scholarly articles every day, is not .01% of the information we need to responsibly act. Everything else, tactics, strategy, what to do in the very next second, are open - whatever seems most promising, most useful, most hopeful at that instant. "I'll allow just one tyrant in my life, the still, small voice, within." Gandhi

The death fast began, well, I don't remember when, but about 60 days ago or so. I did not expect by today to any longer be alive by today, June 19th.

But the Death Fast continually changed the field, and that continues. "Plans are worthless. Planning, is everything." General Dwight D. Eisenhower. The Death Fast was, and remains, the only realistic hope to be seen anywhere for averting environmental Armageddon. This came clear to me about 9 weeks ago, and has only gotten clearer, since. The next generation bunker buster is the correct weapon for destroying Iran's deep labs. Both are obviously the correct weapon. The time and place of deployment, however, are variable. And neither, is sufficient, but without them, mission accomplished is impossible.

This first Death Fast, has changed much on the field of battle where Loving fights. I expected to see zero change, zero, within my time But I was incorrect. Among the changes:

Allies, and maybe even a partner or two have emerged. I say maybe out of caution, and respect. "I think she said she 'yes' to marrying me, but I want to give her time to be sure.' This changes things dramatically. What might we do together that Loving couldn't by himself. Loving, who has been on the field longer than they, if he is around a bit longer than just another 40 days or so, can they profit in strength and speed from that?
A group of 'supporters' quickly emerged, and mostly departed as they came to understand what it was about. But have all fled, permanently?
Two books, never earlier contemplated, but suggested indirectly by pleas for written source material, have been drafted and made available - "Global Warming's Death. Fast," and "A Personal Trainer for the Insanely Humane Unviolent Warrior DF." Should Loving remain alive for now, to promote these, explain these, tour with these, to help others modify one or both for wider audiences, use them to recruit for a later Death Fast restart? Where would the travel funds come from? The organizing support?
Among those who have been touched by the Death Fast, one of the most promising by far has spoken with fiery passion of leading a mass 40 day hunger strike here in DC in about 6 months time. Would my help there be useful; more useful than some other options?
Another of the most promising potential INSHE warriors has also has had thoughts of spending the next 6 months recruiting for a Death Fast, and has long argued that Loving could be better serve by working along with, and doing likewise.
"Plans are worthless. Planning, is everything." General Dwight D. Eisenhower. Loving has for the first time gained slight, but meaningful direct access to the global warming club (no, the club members, my brothers and sisters all, utterly don't see themselves that way; club members never do, but they clearly live and work by club rules, not real-world rules). And, well, if there is a plan other than Death Fast in front of the Canadian Embassy, they've been perfectly effective in hiding any trace of it from Loving; Amadinejad would be envious. There is no plan. There is no 'failure is not an option' team - think Apollo 13, unless it is the best kept secret in DC. And, those most qualifed by scientific and visibility, are ferocious, relentless, brilliant... about not stepping up to this. Given factors 1-5, does Loving re-devote to doing what Hansen, Brown and Romm refuse to do, and so far, refuse to even help in the tiniest way with? "PLANNING, IS EVERYTHING," Eisenhower. Oh, they have regular forecasts, weather reports, wishes, demands, wants, directives.... BUT ZERO PLANS. ZERO PLANNING. ZERO 'FAILURE IS NOT AN OPTION' TEAM. And without these Environmental Armageddon is a CERTAINTY. If not Loving, who? If not now, when? If not here, where? As pitiful an effort as it would be, does Loving do what he can to assemble, centrally from the writings and talks of Hansen, Romm, and Brown, an updated Plan B 5.0? An evolution of the Tracking Plan B blog? TPB
"Those with the privilege to know, have a duty to act," Albert Einstein. Well, Loving has more experience and success turning around failing, desperate situations than anyone on the scene regarding environmental Armageddon, except Obama. But all on the stage so far, like Lincoln's McClellan, indicate they'll talk, write, demand, but by their relentless, brilliant behavior they make clear that they won't plan to win, and they won't fight to win. So, praying every nanosecond that those already on the stage stand up, does Loving, regroup, and given factors 1-6, make yet another pitiful attempt to fill the gap - Planning and Leadership, giving himself a little more time to do so? AS THINGS STAND, THE VACUUM IS PROFOUND, AND COMPLETE. Four of this country's finest citizens, as things stand, will be among the most reviled people in all of history - Pr. Obama, Lester Brown, Joe Romm, and Jim Hansen, in that order. Albert Einstein, "those with the privilege to know, have a duty to act." Blogging for the umteenth year in a row is not acting. Saying to audiences all over the world, year after year for a decade or more, "War time speed!" and adding that this means 'call your senator,' , is, well, acting at war time speed;' it is hard to imagine how the fossil fuel industry could do more harm than this. And Pr. Obama, like all three others, even he can't stop it. But he can do his part of the job. He will be remembered as the President, the most powerful man on the planet, that decided to finesse, rather than openly declare war to unhide the future obliterating 1. hidden costs of carbon fuels, and 2. the future eviscerating subsides to coal, oil, fishing, agribusiness.... His job is leadership, and instead he, along with the other three, have decided that Nevil Chamberlain is to be their model. We're doomed, if they don't step up.
From all day long watching 2 years ago December over the Health Care fight, I've recalled the end of the year political wrangling, horse trading window that exists year end, particularly this year with the Bush Tax cuts again to be decided on. [Right?] The Bush Tax Cuts are an abortion. However, environmental Armageddon for the next 2000 generations is worse. Even if 1-7 didn't pan out, would a Death Fast restart be more advantageous now, or mid November, in however small an attempt to bring moral pressure to bear (the ENTIRE hope in any case) at that more opportune time - end of December?

The two options I see are:

1. Return to Death Fast this week, as intended when the temporary halt was initiated 3-4 weeks ago so that the books could be completed. There remains about 4 more days of work before the editing is done, audio versions, and video versions completed.

2. Postpone the Death Fast restart until year's end, early to mid November, here at the Canadian Embassy. I expect that if this option in pursued my primary base of operations will remain here, in front of the Canadian Embassy, 24/7 - keeping the flame alive in however small a manner. However, earlier there may have been talk of some R&R in PA, and or in Santa Cruz. Such options would be considered.

I don't know what I'll decide these next few days. I'd prior announced that input from those who had read both books deeply, would be deeply welcome, and needed. That remains the case.

Loving

Well, these and other

6.18.2012

RETRACTION: Fw: Legal attack by Lester Brown, Earth Policy Institute?

[Do we think that our brothers and sisters on the right, the deniers, 'see' their denial? Although not the final word on the subject, Chris Mooney's 'The Republic Brian,' a meta-study of recent research makes it clear - pre-cognition the brains of the right, and the brains of the left, liberals, progressives, environmentalists... PRE-COGNITION screw with the input. For each group, their brain knows full well, what they want the 'truth' to be and it automatically renders as absurd, outrage, plot, conspiracy, lashing-out... the 'news' it doesn't want to hear. I've taken license here, you decide if it I am incorrect. The right (Is it slander, malice, lashing out, that I say so?) murderously denies the climate science. The left murderously denies the personal price that many will have to pay in terms of funding, reputation, relationships, jobs, income, and even their personal lives to give the next 2000 generations, 200 billion people a planet they can do more than just barely survive.]

About 2 hours ago one of the two thought leaders in the environmental movement who's basic humanity and even courage I've come to respect, told me essentially, that me thinking that EPI would come after me legally was absurd. There is a price for shutting a member of the human family out of the process, as I've been by the established activist movement in general, and the anti-global warming club more recently - a good, decent, honest family member will not 'go away,' right? Would you? If you haven't seen the movie, massively disturbing, massively courageous, "John Q," you need to. Denzel Washington. Now, the bad family member will rant, carry on, be concerned about themselves.... Pitiful. But the good family member will never, go away. They will constructively, and relentlessly hold themselves, and all on whom their 'family' depends, to the highest standards. That's Loving, and everyone alive, and the next 2000 generations are my immediate family. Yours too. Right? Immediate Family, right? Americans, Africans, Bangladeshis....

The point? Deprived of any and all inside information, kept out of the adult conversation, I WILL ACT, as best I can. If my begging for better information is ever responded to, no one will be more joyful than I.

So, one of two in the anti-global warming club who's moral integrity I've been shown reason to respect, quite angry, quite disappointed in me, said my guess at possible EPI, Lester Brown is absurd.

I accept that, and I retract, now being in possession of what I hope to be better information, what I emailed earlier today.

Loving

----- Forwarded Message -----
From: Start Loving <start_loving@yahoo.com>
To: Loving [Start] <start_loving@yahoo.com>
Sent: Monday, June 18, 2012 10:22 AM
Subject: Legal attack by Lester Brown, Earth Policy Institute?

Good morning.

FYI -

If you see me disappear, go missing, or my web sites come down...

Several recent emails from Lester Brown's Earth Policy Institute raise the specter in my mind that they may consider legal action against me and my work for sharing non-confidential comments from Lester Brown in email exchanges. If you view my book on Scribd you will see it in the first few pages.

Global Warming's Death. Fast. DRAFT 6 M

Resurrecting the Insanely Humane Unviolent Warrior in You. Fast. Draft 1 G

May I suggest you download, READ, and prepare to distribute widely should the worst transpire?

I had hoped that Lester Brown and EPI were bigger than this. I still hope that Lester Brown and EPI are bigger than this. But if my worst fears are born out, they may come after my sites to which I've devoted years, and in one case a decade to, from which I've derived not a penny, nor would ever do so, and in the process they would deprive the future of an honest attempt to be of service. Maybe this is not their concern. They and we may learn much now.

In as much as I live to fight Global Warming, rather than living handsomely off-of the fight of Global Warming, I have no funds or possessions for them to go after, and I've informed them of this, oh, except for $300 worth of laptops and some old, very dirty now, clothes. They know where I can be found, and that even if I had the funds, I'd not fight them legally. That is not my way. That is not the hope for Global Warming's Death. Fast.

I pray Lester Brown and EPI are bigger than this, and not, as my worst fears suggest, living off of the biggest threat ever to face humanity, rather than fighting to stop it, regardless of personal cost.

Loving

6.17.2012

Deadliest Global Warming Denial - The Left Intelligentsia, of their Personal Responsibility to Stand

6.16.2012

It's not nice to screw mother nature - Col - most houses burned ever

Wildfire destroys most homes in Colo. history

CBS News - ‎35 minutes ago‎

Updated 9:59 PM ET (AP) DENVER - Additional crews were arriving Saturday at a wildfire in northern Colorado that has scorched about 85 square miles and destroyed at least 181 homes, the most in state history.

Colorado wildfire ranks as most destructive in state historyReuters

1500 firefighters battle Colorado High Park FireSan Francisco Chronicle

6.15.2012

Personal Trianer Introduction complete. Awaiting final comments on Book 2

http://youtu.be/7MDm-QYqJx4

Full book for download here: http://www.scribd.com/doc/95152089/Resurrecting-the-Insanely-Humane-Unviolent-Warrior-in-You-Fast-Draft-1f

Okay, so if you're an insanely humane warrior or insanely humane warrior want to be by whatever name, if you feel that you need to become the caliber of someone that did the freedom rides, many of the

activists in SNCC, southern nonviolent coordinating committee, many in Tahrir square…. If you have the guts to realize that you may not be of that caliber yet, but are yearning to become that caliber then that's what this personal trainer is for. I've had that yearning, I still have that yearning, to be better. I've been burning with the desire to become something that could significantly, for one person, stand in the way of environmental Armageddon and by using, in essence, this tool for the last 10 months, I dramatically, dramatically progressed, as the lead video in this book sequence shows you graphically, the progress I made, and at the top of

the spreadsheet, the Personal Trainer I'm about to show, there is a link to that initial video, these two live links in column B, the first two live links in blue that you see on your page, the first two entries

will take you if you're online, right to those videos. And if you haven't

seen them they are the right place to start, now.

I hope you've read the book one or several times, trying to drink in deeply the meaning of each of the 95 characteristics. Those 95 characteristics are numbered here in column A, the numbers in column A correspond to the characteristic number in the book, and each of these links in blue in column B will take you to an online site that's been built with each of those essays. So even after you've read the book several times and then begin using this Personal Trainer, you'll undoubtedly come to a title that just doesn't ring a bell, or don't ring clear enough, or that you disagree with; click on that link and it will take you directly to the essay.

Now a standard feature of Excel is that in a workbook there can be multiple pages, or tabs, along the bottom starting at the left.

Each of these sheets is of the same format in this trainer. The first three are ones that I prefilled for thinking about each characteristic relative to what I know about Alice Paul, and two groups from the movie "Battle in Seattle," and that's what we've been looking at here. If I click on the

second, this I went through and thought about what I had seen in the movie Battle in Seattle, the people that I call the window smashers, I don't remember seeing them a lot, but there was one brief point. For me it was in stark contrast to the third tab here, which are the WTO Crane hangers, the male and female leads who we see early on dangling from one of the few things that makes me really scared, which is heights, and they are hanging from a really high crane. I and my rating, if by any chance you can see this cursor, I rated it once, I thought of those two characters once and I did a composite rating of them, scale of -5 being, oh my God, just totally on the wrong planet, pulling in the wrong direction, to +5 being, wow, nailed it. Not with any thought of influencing you, except to empower you with my views for the window smashers. Most of my ratings, which are on your sheet if you fire it up, starting in column F, I rated it once, going down through all 95 characteristics, and then I simply

copied right to give you a better visualization - black areas are clueless -5,-4,-3 ,the most that I found for the window smashers was, oh, kind of neutral, zero, so it begins to get a lighter color there. The numbers you put in which could be 4, 4.1, 4.2, -4.01... this is a gut rating, you can put in whatever you want and it will it will give you a visual representation from - 'in the dark,' black, to 'bright hot blue flame,' which is what you find with a five.

The crane hangers again, not to bias you at all friends but I think I owe you a picture of where my head is at. You see quite a bit of blue flame when I think about the crane hangers from the Battle in Seattle movie you must see.

Incidentally, in each of these first three, which refers to movies that are available, hopefully you have them, hopefully you've seen them, but if you haven't, let's see, row six or so in the column D,E,F area, here you would see a live link to where you could I get the movie Battle in Seattle, and in a similar place on the page you find the same thing for Iron Jawed Angels. And for the fourth or fifth tab which is Freedom Riders.

Now for freedom riders I did not at all go through and do a rating, because I wanted to give you in this case the opportunity to not have my input, to see the movie, and a link to it in row six I believe, column F, watch the movie and then do your own rating for all 95 characteristics. One of the tabs is of course, 'You."

Now, if I haven't mentioned it, on each of these, hopefully you can see that in column B, over to the right in row 2, you see a button called "insert new column.' You don't need to do that yet because this first column D, which is in gray will is fresh and ready to begin to take your ratings. So let's say you are rating yourself -

the first characteristic is '001. Every breath square in harms way, shielding the innocents with my own body. That's what the heart does.' That's how the first characteristic reads. 'Wow, I'm really there,' you say to yourself. I'm a '4.' It just color-coded your entry, and it so happens that green, not black, not brown but green comes up for a '4.' The second characteristic - '002. My theory is that the best time to cure a deadly epidemic, mass disease, mass insanity is now; well before it goes terminal. 'Wow, I'm really on with that. I'm just staying focused and my sense of urgency is huge. That's a 4.6 for me,' and 4.6 it's getting toward blue, hot flame.

This tool, and the color coding, is very much biased toward someone that probably like a Gandhi, probably like a King, almost has a binary rating scale for themselves - A. I'm either what the world needs to see, or B. I might as well be clueless. The point isn't to beat oneself up. The point is to save our target clients. So, the difference between a -5 and a zero is not going to get a whole lot of a color change, not much progress indicated; I mean, what's the real difference between a horrible doctor, and a really, really bad doctor? It's going to be pretty dark really up through 3.5, or a 4, a 3 anyway, up through there is not much of a color change but from 3 to 5, is where we begin to be significantly hopeful to the world, then the colors accelerate in how much they change a relatively small improvement.

So the third characteristic – '003. I'm being the change, I'm dying, totally giving up my life to save the world.'

By the way, were all dying for something aren't we? A date with that girl, recovery of my marriage, the promotion, the car, the meal.... At least in this society those are the things, but among the potent activists, INSHE warriors, they're dying for the suffering to stop. They're dying for the injustice to stop. They're dying for a future for humanity. Were all dying for something friends. We're literally giving everything we have for something. So hopefully, you'll not be distracted by some sense of morbidness with my frequent use of such words as dying.

The twist of this is, the insanely humane, you know what, you know where their bodies are always? Literally or figuratively they're in the way of harm, that's what the heart does. That's what the good mom does, that's what the good dad does. So, you know, if you find my language of 'dying' offensive, or morbid, then you probably are going to know really quick that this material isn't for you. If on the other hand, you'll pay any price, any discomfort to try and do your part of saving the world from the insanity that's in the final stages of dooming us, you're probably going to be okay with the language, and eventually you may be pretty glad someone had the courage to remind us of what humanity does - it puts its body in the way. To die? No. To be reckless? No. To save the innocents, to shield the innocents.

So, coming back to the Personal Trainer tool, next characteristic – '004. I'm being the change, I'm dying, totally giving up my life to be the change the world needs to see, and needs to be.' 'You know, I really don't think, I'm so distracted, I just don't have that mental focus, yet. I think that's a -2 for me now.' So now we are getting down and into the in-the-dark colors. Next characteristic – '005. I'm living, I'm fighting, I'm worthy because I'm dying for, every breath, I'm devoted to our neediest family, that's a Martin Luther King paraphrase.' 'Wow, that just doesn't apply to me right now. I get it. It just doesn't apply to me right now. I'm about a -4;' giving you an idea what the colors look like for the different numbers in the too. So now we are in dark territory.

So that's the process. Let's put in some values as though you had just completed all 95 characteristics for your first time, and now four hours later, you decide, 'you know what? I want to go through this again.' And by the way, that's the way I am in the first weeks of using a tool like this. I don't have time to let slip by, my clients don't need me to 'try' but to win; I need to get fixed in my mind, I needed to become top of mind, top of consciousness with these characteristics, I need to reshape myself so they are part of me. I just clicked the button that says 'insert column,' it just put in a column with today's date; it doesn't have time; I don't know if we should be that anal about things right now. However, you can have it automatically put in the time, just learn a little about Excel. So here, you have a new column - it has pushed your previous rating, it's retained your prior rating, and pushed it off to the right. So if you keep rating and adding columns your earliest ones will be pushed further and further over to the right. Your most current ones will be more toward the left, right next to the black column, which is right next to the 95 characteristics; and it's all ready for you to put in ratings.

It's a real good idea that when you save your work the first time you "save as" instead of saving 'to' what I sent you, or what you downloaded, 'Aspiring Insanely Humane Personal Trainer,' putting your name at the end of the title, using 'save as,' and save it. So now you'll have the original file in case anything ever corrupts your working sheet, so you could start over again. Hopefully that will never happen. (However, 'Jesus Saves,' and you should too.) I strongly recommend however that every once in a while you do a 'save as.'

So every once in a while, every four or five days that you've used this, and again do a 'save as' and create revisions for yourself. So this is the one with your name, let's do a 'save as' on that as though you've been using this for five days and let's do an 'r1,' revision 1. Call it what you want but every four or five days do that, this has a macro in it, you'll start creating a lot of data, and every once in a blue moon a spreadsheet will go corrupt, and you probably just don't want to lose the months worth of visual reference for yourself.

And if you follow the steps I just recommended, including doing a 'save as' and adding your name so that you left the original file intact, freely go do some experimenting, some playing, see how this works. See how the various links work. Actually, why don't we do that now, see if we can get lucky, let's pull up the link 'my personal trainer,' I just click on that link, it takes us to an online version of the book, insanely humane warrior.blogspot.com, to the 'intro to your personal trainer.' So with that you can go to the YouTube video which hopefully you've reviewed first. But if you haven't, now is the time to do it. It's a good introduction of the version of this, more importantly, to the process that brought me to the point where I could finally see this way to stop environmental Armageddon, this death fast, why I'm here in front of the Canadian Embassy, with the first weapon we've had that can actually, that can actually stop this. Hunger strike, Self immolation, too weak. All of this covered in something called, "Global Warming's Death. Fast," a book which can be found on both of the blogs 'Start Loving' and blog 'Tracking Plan B.' So, this is simply to show you that the links are live. This link brought up that introductory video which is interspersed with me, but also graphics interspersed explaining the tool again.

Don't struggle with this friends. I have tried to provide you plenty of good material, please go to it, use it. If you're one of the ones reviewing this soon and now, then for the next three, four days I expect to be available on e-mail start_loving@yahoo.com and by all means feel free. If you do your part of the work, and contact me and let me help you through, and then maybe you'll become trainer to others.

So 'insert column;' on several of these, you'll see links to movies that by God you need to see. I'm sorry, you just need to see them. Battle in Seattle, Freedom Riders, Iron Jawed Angels, absolute must sees.

Limber up by seeing those movies or recalling them if you've seen them, and then giving your own ratings for each criteria, and if you like, look at mine, and if you don't want to look at the ratings I gave, delete mine, but limber up without getting personal to yourself first, by looking at independent references, Alice Paul, Crane Hangers, the window smashers, the Freedom Riders. After you see that movie, using the next tab, think about the environmental movement today.

You know, Eisenhower, Allied commander of World War II was known as a consummate planner, and he said, 'Plans are worthless, but planning is everything.' Preparing the mind, shaping the mind, developing the mind, that's what this tool is all about.

Godspeed friends.

'Loving, don't die, so that 200 billion might have Life.' HUH?

6.13.2012

Friends, IMPORTANT - Those having difficulty, pain... with Loving's Death Fast...

Friends, IMPORTANT - Those having difficulty, pain... with Loving's Death Fast...

I've continued to take modest calories to finish the books, and this will continue till they, and the audio versions are done. I'll do a recount as to days when they are done, drop 2 days for every day I've taken calories from day 39 - I'm guessing the Death Fast Restart will be somewhere around day 10-17 or so, by that method - but whatever the math comes out to, tho I still look like day 30 or so. I hope to restart by early next week.

A real good draft of "Resurrecting the Insanely Humane Unviolent Warrior in You, a Personal Trainer," 1d, went out last night - Here, and for online browsing, and to interact with your Personal Trainer tool, here. The Personal Trainer tool should go out tonight, selected email, and blog posts. I desperately need your immediate input, but I know of only one, maybe three that show any intention of doing so - I'll take what I can get, soon, and or go with what I've got already.

As you know by now, I meant what I said day 1, "I can do my part perfectly well by myself. I do not need support (tho when it is what helps the campaign, I'll gladly accept it; but not if it interferes.) I'm sure that a Navy SEAL would say the same, and it would be true. And YOU, in that which you are most practiced and competent, again, it would be true of you. What I'm doing now I've been doing since my early 30's - it just looks different. I know the territory, I know me.

I also meant what I said on two other counts, day 1, in so many words, that are similar to each other:

1. I can't do what others would need to do as partners in this campaign -
qualified PR,
qualified Promotion,
Press,
securing those who will join;
and Securing an Injunction against violating my DNR, and Legal Advice regarding anyone that might either watch over me the final hours or days, or
take me to a place safe from Resuscitation if the Injunction doesn't come thru, and someone offers me a place to die).

2. I can't do what 1000 here on Death Fast can do. But I can do what I can do, my part, regardless, and I'll joyfully do that. I'm quite relieved that soon I can fully resume my most crucial part.

MY POINT:

Gandhi was emphatic. It is far harder on those with me, than on I, when I'm in prison, or on hunger strike.

This is fundamentally and profoundly true. Think of a movie where the central character is working to 'save the word.' Lot's of movies to choose from, right? Grade A, thru grade Z. We grimace, while watching, right? We ache. We hurt. But now think if the character. Do they? Think now. No.

It is much, infinitely harder on the bystanders, the onlookers - Hell for them; Heaven for the one trying to save the world.

THE SECOND YOU NEED TO HATE ME, VILIFY ME, COMPLETELY DISTANCE FROM ME (I'M GUESSING ALMOST ALL HAVE DONE SO BY NOW), BE ANGRY AT ME... DO IT. I'll love you no less, not one smidgen. I want you do do what you need to to get thru this ok.

BUT, ONE LAST POINT - A REPEAT - I CAN'T FIGHT ON TWO FRONTS. I AM UNABLE. SO, IF YOU WORK TO GET ME TO STOP; IF YOU WORK ON OTHERS ASSOCIATED, WORKING ON THE CAMPAIGN, LOBBYING TO GET ME TO STOP, OUR DIALOG, OUR RELATIONSHIP, WILL STOP. Out of anger? Out of hate? :) happy

Out of need. I will complete my part. I'll not fail you in that. And if terminating contact, fully, with you is necessary, that's what I'll do.

Loving u all

Book 2, final revision for your convenience 1d

Online read and Downloadable here: http://www.scribd.com/doc/95152089/Resurrecting-the-Insanely-Humane-Unviolent-Warrior-in-You-Fast-Draft-1d

Hi. about 25% of the essays are from book 1 - I hadn't proofed them - now I have.

I suggest you switch to the attached now, and if you've already made comments, suggestions, changes in a prior draft(s), just send me both(s)/all.

Soon I'll send you the personal trainer, and the very last part of the attached - last few pages on personal trainer will update, but not the 95 characteristics, except for your suggestions.

Loving

Resurrecting the Insanely Humane Unviolent Warrior in You. Fast. Draft 1d;

6.12.2012

2 vid segments of the Livestream Interview - from Hope

http://www.youtube.com/user/HopeForPeaceNow/videos

6.10.2012

Book 2 NEEDS your Review - Resurrecting the Insanely Humane Unviolent Warrior in you

Book 2 NEEDS your Immediate Review - "Resurrecting the Insanely Humane Unviolent Warrior in you. A Personal Trainer."

Here's the deal:

Of the 95 characteristics, 95 essays, you have about 91. Don't panic when you come to a blank page. I thought I had them done, can't find those files. Please, don't wait.
You'll find a thorough introduction to the trainer, and more than enough reading before I get the actual tool in your hands by mid week. I can't afford to lose any more blood to these mosquitoes tonight, so, by Wednesday.
Maybe only 30% of the Essays have the link to their corresponding video log. :-( . The videos are all up on yt chan StartLoving4, but the links will be incorporated in the next draft to you.

What is ahead?

Uh, NOTHING that should delay your reading, and return of major comments to me. Please. Hurry. Use word revisions if you have it. Otherwise, just, using whatever software you have, make the comments, changes, corrections right in the book, and send to me, I have compare software that will show me what you've done, I expect.

I haven't much time or energy left. Major, high impact items, and small edits that I missed. I don't want you to waste time. I can't assimilate a lot of major revisions, or small detail stuff. Just stuff that might not be to time consuming, and might make the content much more useful, or easier to read. BUT REMEMBER PLEASE: A. I want this in my voice, weirdisms and all. B. This is not, is not, is not... a mass market book. This is for the 2 in a million, 4 in a million, 8 in a million that are yearning to step up, and have maximal acceleration in doing so. If someone wants to make a similar item for a broader market, let's talk! But it will not be I that do it.

Yes, I'll be sending you a new Draft soon. Don't wait, please. Leave the burden on me if you get another revision and switch horses mid stream. Just roll, and I will too.

Please read this, give me your feedback, fast, because by mid-week also I expect to give you a much better draft 6 of Book 1 - Global Warming's Death. Fast.

FYI, also online http://trackingplanb.blogspot.com/p/book-2-resurrecting-insanely-humane.html

Well, that's all I've got strength for tonight, and I'm likely to be a little slow tomorrow.

Loving

6.09.2012

Looks like tomorrow, Sunday, night, book 2. Help?

Hi. I just couldn't clearly see the end of this book 2 project, but now I can. Barring any calamity, like being bled dry by these mosquitoes, or being too slow to escape threats like tonight's that I be arrested for using the same electrical outlets I've used all of the last 3 weekends (what was that about?), Sunday night, tomorrow night, you will receive a really solid Book 2 that I, the next 2000 generations desperately need you to read, deeply, and to make whatever strong, negative or positive comments that you think can have a major, constructive impact on the value of the book. All 96 essays, 96 character traits of history's effective, unviolent warriors, are 100% done, 6 are partial but need finishing touches, much or the preliminary credits, who is the book for, dedication... has been done. A huge portion remains, the spreadsheet based Personal daily Trainer, but I've given that much thought technically, design, function... so I expect it to roll out quickly.

A day or two later you'll receive book 1, I'm quite sure, including incorporation of the one set of detailed suggestions I received, from Brian. Draft 6, new dedication, new first essay targeted at Romm (Rome), Brown, Hansen, telling them among other things how they could save my life (Yes, literally. I'm entitled to a little gallows humor.)

I'm functioning very well, and this is likely to continue at least thru the end of this week. Can't project beyond that.

Those that do a detail read of both books, will have probably qualified themselves to see if they think the Death Fast as currently planned and executed, can be improved, thought thru, and in all likelihood any thoughtful, deep, deep from the heart replanning from and with such individuals can be monumentally important, to the next 2000 generations.

Confidentially, Hope has reported what may be a monumental step forward - Lester Brown's organization's plan to begin blogging on the Death Fast - the first real spine shown by any of the global warming leaders, ever, except for Hansen under Bush 2. Hasn't happened yet. Let's stay quiet on it, and see.

Loving

6.08.2012

Huh. No one told me it was Friday. Oh sh*#

I didn't realize till just now, so 6 hours of my 14 hours of battery life are locked in a coffee shop. Weekends I have to leave to power in the evenings anyway, so no huge deal, but if anyone sees me gone by mid afternoon tomorrow and sunday, that's the deal, I'm up sucking electrons.

If you don't have a really, really solid book 2 by sunday, I'll be really, really surprised. Am making great progress.

Loving

DF Day 30 - Is the LA Times makeing this up, or is someone helping them?

[IMPORTANT NOTE: I don't know what happened here. I don't. But it is sooooooooooo typical of what happens. So, I've chosen to put it out to you all, a massive risk (that the wrong people will misunderstand, and any perpetrator, if there is one, will use it for more mischief), but it has gotten to that point. And if there is no basis in Truth, whatsoever for my concerns expressed and implied below, it is still a Godsend of an opportunity to tune up on a rarely unseen, rarely escaped, almost ALWAYS encountered risk in organizations, in groups of people working together. And it kills worthy mission, after mission, after mission....]

To those that have had any direct contact with this campaign, as 'support,' requested or (usually) not, by me -

Judas, is that you? No, the point isn't that I'm Jesus. sadly, I'm not.

Where the Hell is LA Times getting this stuff? This headline-

Environmentalist ends his hunger strike, says mass strike better Los Angeles Times - 3 days ago. Environmental protester ends hunger strike at Canadian Embassy. ... the name Start Loving, is still camped out at the embassy, protesting the ...

Uh, I never, EVER, EVER HAD EVEN THE THOUGHT I was ending it. I never SAID, or WROTE to ANYONE, that I was ending it. Hmmmm. '50% chance that in the coming weeks I could see a faster way of getting the 1000 here...' is what I said, and what I've written.

It ain't me that's giving them this stuff, and I'm the only one that has fully joined this campaign, so by definition, I'm the only one that could author it, in Truth.

The only other two authorized to EVER speak FOR this campaign to the press, or to anyone, per a prior email of several weeks ago are Brian and Hope, and I'm certain that they haven't and wouldn't make something like this up. They are deliberate, not careless, and I don't recall ever seeing significant ego in them. I'm TOTALLY certain they are not authoring this falacious stuff.

It is possible that LA Times just makes it up, possible; horrifying, but possible - they are one of less than 5 publications I've found over the years that at all values the truth. Are they too now just infotainment? The 1st article and then this, 75% of the stuff I don't recognize, sure didn't come from me, from the writing, the blogs, the book... from the extensive interviews.... HOWEVER, IT IS TOTALLY NOT MY RIGHT TO DICTATE OR EVEN TRY TO CONTROL WHAT THEY SAY. I RESPECT THAT BOUNDARY WITH THE PRESS. Will I have any more to say to them after this? I don't know.

But did they really make all this up, or is there a 2nd grade ego at play here, someone not authorized to speak FOR the vigil that is making stuff up for some grotesque ego gratification? I don't sense malice, but this would be excellent malice, too. But I don't sense malice. 2nd grade ego run amuck. Some of this has 2nd grade ego written all over it. Someone failing to do important work themselves, desperately wanting attention, to be important... and essentially, stealing a spotlight generated by the radically committed, disciplined, mature, responsible work of another(s).

LET ME BE CLEAR:

1. I have absolutely no moral right to tell anyone in the world what they can and can't say about this Death Fast, me, my writing, environmental science, US policy.....

EXCEPT.....

2. I have the total, complete, absolute moral right, thus far, as the only person that has fully joined, and conducted 92% of the cumulative work of this campaign, from years of conceptual work to 24hrs/day for 50 days now... to author what is said FOR the vigil, and to authorize who may or may not speak FOR the vigil - Brian and Hope.

AND....

3. I have the complete moral right to declare (what anyone with conscience or morality, operating above a 2nd grade level of maturity shouldn't have to be told) - you don't get to straddle the fence - IF YOU CHOOSE TO IN ANY WAY ASSOCIATE YOURSELF WITH THE CAMPAIGN, YOU WILL NOT SPEAK 'FOR' OR 'OF' (OR OF, OR OF, OR OF...) THE CAMPAIGN, UNLESS:
A. YOU ARE AUTHORIZED TO DO SO (just Brian and Hope thus far have earned that right, and myself), AND
B. YOU SPEAK EXACTLY WHAT HAS BEEN AUTHORIZED BY MUTUAL PRIOR DISCUSSION WITH ME (EXCEPT FOR THE LICENSE GRANTED BY ME FOR EXPEDIENCY EARNED BY THE CARE AND DUE DILIGENCE OF HOPE AND BRIAN), AND OR WITH STRICT, COMPLETE, ABSOLUTE ADHERENCE TO WHAT I'VE PRIOR WRITTEN OR EXPLICITLY WRITTEN.

For God's sake, is there really someone(s) that thinks this is some toy, this Death Fast, this campaign, the massive, disciplined, responsible effort that not they but another(s) have put into this, but in this the most crucial issue ever to face humanity, that thinks that this is some toy they can play with to gratify their own ego? My God, I hope not. My God, but that is so typical of the post 60's activist club, let's play 'activist' mentality, ultimately playing now with the lives of 200 billion? Wow.

For God's sake.

IF THERE IS ANYONE TO WHOM THIS APPLIES GET WITH THE PROGRAM, NOW, OR TOTALLY, AND COMPLETELY DISASSOCIATE YOURSELF FROM IT, NOW. NOW. IF THIS APPLIES TO ANYONE, CEASE AND DESIST, OR TOTALLY DISASSOCIATE YOURSELF FROM THIS CAMPAIGN, NOW, AND IF THEN YOU WANT TO AGGRESSIVELY TORPEDO ME, THE DEATH FAST, OR ANY FACET OF IT, I HAVE NOTHING TO SAY. BUT BEING AT ALL ON THE INSIDE AND USING IT AS SOME EGO OBJECT? MY GOD.

Loving

6.07.2012

Day 29 - Rollback Ended, GW Death Fast Resumed

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f491zSygqTc

6.06.2012

Day 31 Death Fast report - Taking Calories is taking away 1/3 of every day

Sleep, sleep.... sleep. Argh. I've been sure of this for some time, it is far easier, far less effort for the body to feed off of itself than to feed off of external calories.

20 essays left to proof read, then about 5 more essays to shoot, transcirbe, proof. Then the fairly arduous task of pulling it all together and getting the Personal Trainer right in layout, content and technology.

I'm going as fast as I can. Gaia is not changing her time frames, she's not slowing on my account.

Yesterday I skyped for 45 minutes with a middle school in Wisconsin, a teacher that years ago met me, was impressed by my journey and work, at the 32 year White House Vigil Thomas started. Gutsy guy, says the class was deeply, deeply impacted. John has set up an hour skype interview with an off-main-stream news outlet tonight.

Hope has come from California to work on the books, any replanning of the Death Fast, media, interviews, video....

Loving

6.05.2012

Day 33 Death Fast Roll Back - Update

In book two, unlike with one, I'm doing a full read thru edit to make it easier on you. That should be finished today. Barring any unforeseen roadblocks I expect to pull together the Personal Trainer part, and forward, etc, by Wed or Thursday, and send the draft to you, praying for a fast but deep read and comments, suggestions.

Then, I expect to take Brian's edits of book 1, the only ones I received, and do the final edit that book 1 will receive, and send that to you.

If I get lucky tech wise, I think I see how to make both books into audio books, a format that some groups only use.

Also, so all during this week, the above, I also, having received some authoritative input on my assumptions regarding the timeframes of Environmental Armageddon, I am hoping to secure some pointers to further articles from my source that can help me understand the view that I was offered as to what more accurately the risk curves look like. As of now, my views have not changed, but I'm open to the new input if I can get it.

REMINDER, as I conclude the above later this week I expect, the Death Fast will resume. I'll take calories till then, but cease, and resume the Death Fast. -

YOUR HELP IS NEEDED. When the above is concluded, per recent posts on the SL Blg blog,

I am considering how to move forward. Please review those last 6 or so posts. I NEED YOU IN THE REPLANNING, I NEED YOUR INPUT, however for it to be qualified, input, and I can't accept anything other than that, 1st of all from myself, it will be required that anyone wishing to contribute to the replanning:

A. Have deeply read and grasped all the content of Book 1.

B. Have deeply grasped and seriously attempted to use, the Personal Trainer, Book 2

I won't have a lot of time. Tho I am rolling back the day count 1 to 2 days per day that I'm taking calories, that is aggressive, so when I restart, I physically and mentally won't have a whole lot of time for replanning, so I pray that you are ready for book 2, are NOW spending the time to grasp book 1, and will ready to contribute late this week.

Loving

6.03.2012

'Loving, this Death Fast mission is the cornerstone of the Great Turning; Jesus work.' Occupy Brother

'Loving, this Death Fast mission is the cornerstone of the Great Turning; Jesus work.' Occupy Brother to me yesterday, Saturday. Paraphrase. And if I misquote I apologize.

Since I've been in DC these 8 years or so it has been one day more shocking and horrifying than the prior day as to how hopeless what calls itself activism, religion, humanity., US democracy... is. Totally unexpected. Totally horrifying. Totally consistent... with some recent exceptions, slivers of hope in DC (and HOPE in California). Over the last 9 months there have been two, and recently a trickle more folks, after a drought of 8 years, that give me some hope, in DC Occupy, McPherson. One of the two, visited me briefly yesterday, Saturday, bringing me some Ensure, and electrolytes, and Love, and now clear respect for my need to remain in 'Isolation' to complete my part of the work.

But we spoke briefly, and I paraphrase - 'Loving, this Death Fast mission is the cornerstone of the Great Turning; Jesus work.' If I miss-quote the idea, I apologize.

This too is my view. I cry, I weep at the thought of it, the awe, the worry, the overwhelming emotion. This Death Fast, what it represents, the strategy it is part of (read the 4 Waves of Death Fast before we are done, here, PAGE 28, hurry).

Why is this it? Because it is, and if you read this essay, and the book more broadly, you'll see it.

But the reason for this note, this morning - the Personal Trainer in final stages of compilation now, as I review it, AS I SUBMIT TO IT, USE IT, AS I AM NOW, JESUS IS CHEERING. GANDHI IS CHEERING. MLK JR IS CHEERING.

One of my great horrors, heartbreaks, despairs is: "Jesus death took away our sins." Oh my God, the horror, the deadliness of these perverted notions is, well, Genocide, extinction of the species if we don't finally get past them. Jesus DEATH DIDN'T TAKE AWAY OUR SINS, OUR 'ERRORS.' HIS DEATH BLAZED THE WAY FOR US TO DO S0 - HE SHOWED US, REMINDED US WHY WE ARE HERE - TO SERVE, TO MARCH TO THE DANGER, TO THE NEED, TO THE EMERGENCY, NOT FLEE IT. THIS IS OUR CROSS, OUR BANQUET!!!, OUR FEAST!!!! (NO, I REALLY MEAN IT, OUR JOY, WHY WE ARE HERE) OUR REASON FOR BEING!!!!! WHAT COULD BE MORE WONDERFUL?

We have 200 billion live in our hands, right now, this second, this year, and then their fate is sealed. There is no way we can wash our hands of this.

"If you Love me, you will do greater works than these, because I go on to the Creator (and you have more time here to work, to learn, to stand on My shoulders, to build, to go beyond what I've shared with you).

This, now, today is the time of Armageddon. What is unclear of Armageddon is, how it will play out:

A. Do we allow it to be the time of the last and final destruction, that we unleash on our children, grandchildren, greatgrandchildren... for the next 2000 generations, or,

B. Do we make it the TIME OF THE FINAL DESTRUCTION OF THE REIGN OF HEAD/FLESH OVER HEART, OF GREED OVER LOVING, OF ENMITY OVER SISTERHOOD/BROTHERHOOD/UNIVERSAL FAMILY; OF ALL OUT WAR OF CONSTRUCTION REPLACING THE UP TILL NOW ALL OUT WAR ON CREATION - RAPING AND PLUNDERING OUR MOTHER EARTH, GAIA, AND OUR NEEDIEST BROTHERS?

And, what outcome is your life dedicated to, (because it is)? "We are all extremists. Are you an an extremist of hate, or an extremist of Love?" MLK Jr paraphrase.

Global Warming's Death. Fast.

Resurrecting the Inanely Human Unviolent Warrior in You - A Personal Trainer.

Loving u

Friends - Anyone wishing to input into Death Fast Replanning...

Good morning.

An obvious oversight to last evening's note - Anyone wishing to input into any Death Fast replanning as introduced below, to be at all qualified, would need to have read for deep, deep understanding and grasp, not only the forthcoming book 2, "Resurrecting the Insanely Human Unviolent Warrior in You," but also the recently released book 1, "Global Warming's Death. Fast. Till enough are seen dying for it, global warming won't stop," available here.

----- Forwarded Message -----
From: Start Loving <start_loving@yahoo.com>
To: Loving [Start] <start_loving@yahoo.com>
Sent: Saturday, June 2, 2012 7:34 PM
Subject: Friends, IMPORTANT - Planning from here forward of Death Fast

I'm holding on day 38, taking half ration calories so I can think again, and finish book 2, and maybe replan.

I expected zero interest, as that is what I've had on every campaign since the Darfur campaign 5 years ago. Yet:

* The world's leading activist, Diane Wilson, endorsed the book 1, "Global Warming's Death. Fast.", and by implication, applauded the Death Fast weapon.

* There has been interest, from my friends and Family in Occupy DC since day 1, AND IT SEEMS TO BE MATURING, AS ACTIVISTS SHOW RAPID MATURING, BY THE DAY.

* Hope and Brian have really invested themselves near full-time on getting up to speed on the details of the campaign, issues... approaching true partnership. Two others are showing some inclinations to move in that direction as well.

* There has been an international article, thanks Brian, LA Times, and also Chicago Trib, Vancouver, International Hispanic....

* Hope penetrated Earth Policy Institute and they took an endorsing stand - Lester Brown's group, Plan B 3.0.

* It appears that with fiery passion, clear vision, deep wisdom and humanity, someone is near joining the Death Fast, but with a question about optimal timing....

What does this mean for the current Death Fast? I don't know yet. I'd rather not decide in a vaccuum, but this is way to advanced for input from those that are not yet equipped, in my view.

Book 2, Resurrecting the Insanely Humane Unviolent Warrior in You - a Personal Trainer, is soon to be completed. It is a much more challenging book to write, and to use, than the first, so it is going slower than I anticipated, but coming along well. It so happens, that anyone that reads it in DETAIL, and uses the tool a few times deeply, would in my eyes, be qualified to provide useful input to me as to what Loving should do now to best serve humanity - A. Resume the Death Fast when the book is written (the current 80% probability), or B. Consider leveraging the points above and moving from this Death Fast, into recruiting mode for one to begin in about 6 months? or C. ?

As soon as the book 2 is sent to you in a better edited draft from me than book 1, 2-4 days from now, I'll resume the Death Fast, currently holding at day 38. But I'll be plenty lucid for another 3-6 days for review of incoming major issue/suggestion edits from EACH of you I pray, and for those who do so, and who indicate that they are seriously using the Trainer, I'll invite them to submit input/join in a discussion of how Loving, and the Death Fast, should go forward.

Loving

6.02.2012

Day 38 Holding. Friends, IMPORTANT - Planning from here forward of Death Fast