I've shared recently, that I have been Truly puzzled why my Saint of a dad didn't have me killed. I mean it.
Today, my Birthday Month, an acquaintance from high school, said 'happy bday.' I replied how kind I found him. He replied instantly, that he found me kind, when he needed it. That in fact, 'made an impact on' his life.
His reply to my comment he was kind: "as
you were !!! i was heavily bullied in High School --cuz i was a nerd
but you were always friendly and fair to me ---never forgot that ..made
an impact on my life actually !!!
I replied: "Truly, I have no idea why my dad, the kindest, most Loving human I've ever known, I don't know why he didn't have me killed.
I'm not kidding. I feel no guilt, I did the best I knew (inescapable,
for all of us), but oh God, I cringe at my total uselessness, total
self-absorption by any and all earthly scales. But Friend, maybe you
just gave me an insight into why he didn't have me put to death, but
rather lavished unconditional love on me I've found incomprehensible to
this very moment. Maybe he saw that at times, massively rare tho they
could be, I could be genuinely 'good,' I could be genuinely 'kind.' Truly, what you just
shared is quite valuable to me, a 'key' to my past, and my dad, that I'd
been missing. Be well friend. Loving
10.01.2012
James Meredith: "I am a warrior, and I am on a mission from God."
http://nation.time.com/2012/10/01/central-figure-in-mississippi-integration-defies-labels/
http://www.amazon.com/A-Mission-from-God-ebook/dp/B005O2YY1U/ref=tmm_kin_title_0
“I’ve always found the rhetoric of mainstream civil rights leaders and organizations to be far too timid, accommodationist and gradualist. It always seemed to me that they behaved like meek and gentle supplicants begging the oppressor for a few crumbs of justice, for a few molecules of citizenship rights.”
http://www.amazon.com/A-Mission-from-God-ebook/dp/B005O2YY1U/ref=tmm_kin_title_0
“I’ve always found the rhetoric of mainstream civil rights leaders and organizations to be far too timid, accommodationist and gradualist. It always seemed to me that they behaved like meek and gentle supplicants begging the oppressor for a few crumbs of justice, for a few molecules of citizenship rights.”
nd 'Mistakenly I've thought the failure mine, unable to get thru to Romm, Brown, McKibben.... No. They're not serious, yet.' Loving
nd 'Mistakenly I've thought the failure mine, unable to get thru to Romm, Brown, McKibben.... No. They're not serious, yet.' Loving
nd 'Modern Pics of Hell: Matrix; Hunger Games Wealthy; 2012 Middle Class Existance....' Loving
nd 'Modern Pics of Hell: Matrix; Hunger Games Wealthy; 2012 Middle Class Existance....' Loving
NYPost - Legend: Ryan - Truth-teller. Fact: Deceiver
NYPost - Legend: Ryan - Truth-teller. Fact: Deceiver http://nymag.com/daily/intel/2012/10/paul-ryan-legend-dissipates.html?imw=Y
'2012 Election - the Civics Lesson I NEVER absorbed.' Loving
I'm spending huge time at msnbc, and google news elections, and cspan.
This election season is the 'civics' lesson that maybe our country never received.
Don't miss it.
This election season is the 'civics' lesson that maybe our country never received.
Don't miss it.
'Tragically, My life is viewed as a Trial; Heaven, is how I experience it.' Loving
It's funny, so many people see my life as a trial. Never for a
nanosecond a year, do I experience it as a trial. I experience it as
the Life that I always suspected Jesus died to show us. Yes, it looks
like a Trial. I think that's the problem. Heaven, looks like a trial.
Pls give me an update. How are you and what are you up to. Loving
(what I go by. No 'Mr.' required. LOL.)
I don't know that anyone besides me saw Jesus life, not as a Tragedy, but as Heaven. I always did.
I was correct, it turns out.
I don't know that anyone besides me saw Jesus life, not as a Tragedy, but as Heaven. I always did.
I was correct, it turns out.
9.30.2012
Loving here. Confession - I was not born on Earth.
I find this post almost as weird as you may. But I experience it as a surprising new Truth for me, so I share.
No, nothing mystical involved here, and nothing to do with inter-stellar travel.
It came to me as I've reflected the last few days on an aspect of my lifelong, ever more acute social isolation.
There is much personal history of reflection I could resurrect and point to in my recent years of writing and vlogging that I could point to, but I won't. Anyone that has lestened to me will recall. Anyone interested, in several hours of reading, viewing what I've provided, will see what I mean, the precursers to this clearer insight I'm now experiencing and sharing.
I've always felt 'alien,' but I'm just now seeing how profound that is for me, and how deeply rooted. I am not speaking as to whether others have much the same feeling. That could be interesting, but it is not something on which I have thoughts at the moment.
Please hear this carefully - I've met few, if any, that I didn't think belonged on my 'planet,' which is not planet modern-earth. In fact, I've spent most of my life on the belief that we were all born on the same planet, and that everyone else left, and I've been trying to provoke a return.
It is still my belief that we all were created for, born for, the planet I am on.
But certainly my conviction that we were all born there, on the planet I was born on, has been replaced by the sense that I can think of no one else that was born there.
It is my thought that the planet I was born on, and re-inhabited in this recent decade, is preferable, the only Home of Joy. But this is not an issue of 'superiority,' 'good,' 'bad...' for me. It is an issue of sadness, perception of tragic lost opportunity, and consequent doom, unless there is a mass-migration.
The root of all this comes with the reflection in the last few days that my dad is the only person I can think of that I see was too, born on my planet. Yes, of course my vision is imperfect, tho I think it is very good.
He is the only other person I can think of that I've known, where their entire world consisted of working for the well-being of others, clinically, objectively. Nothing else, nothing 'equal to,' or 'higher,' not 'religion,' 'philosophy,' 'group affiliation,' ..., nothing.
I suspect that there are others that could read the above and find it not an unfamiliar perception - Jesus first comes to my mind in this regard.
No, nothing mystical involved here, and nothing to do with inter-stellar travel.
It came to me as I've reflected the last few days on an aspect of my lifelong, ever more acute social isolation.
There is much personal history of reflection I could resurrect and point to in my recent years of writing and vlogging that I could point to, but I won't. Anyone that has lestened to me will recall. Anyone interested, in several hours of reading, viewing what I've provided, will see what I mean, the precursers to this clearer insight I'm now experiencing and sharing.
I've always felt 'alien,' but I'm just now seeing how profound that is for me, and how deeply rooted. I am not speaking as to whether others have much the same feeling. That could be interesting, but it is not something on which I have thoughts at the moment.
Please hear this carefully - I've met few, if any, that I didn't think belonged on my 'planet,' which is not planet modern-earth. In fact, I've spent most of my life on the belief that we were all born on the same planet, and that everyone else left, and I've been trying to provoke a return.
It is still my belief that we all were created for, born for, the planet I am on.
But certainly my conviction that we were all born there, on the planet I was born on, has been replaced by the sense that I can think of no one else that was born there.
It is my thought that the planet I was born on, and re-inhabited in this recent decade, is preferable, the only Home of Joy. But this is not an issue of 'superiority,' 'good,' 'bad...' for me. It is an issue of sadness, perception of tragic lost opportunity, and consequent doom, unless there is a mass-migration.
The root of all this comes with the reflection in the last few days that my dad is the only person I can think of that I see was too, born on my planet. Yes, of course my vision is imperfect, tho I think it is very good.
He is the only other person I can think of that I've known, where their entire world consisted of working for the well-being of others, clinically, objectively. Nothing else, nothing 'equal to,' or 'higher,' not 'religion,' 'philosophy,' 'group affiliation,' ..., nothing.
I suspect that there are others that could read the above and find it not an unfamiliar perception - Jesus first comes to my mind in this regard.
The HOPE of Suffering Near Perfect Solitude, Ferocious Truth to one's Calling
A note from one of the less than 10 in my life that haven't totally fallen away, on facebook, this morning:
9.29.2012
***** ROFL: Sarah Silverman | Let My People Vote 2012 - Get Nana A Gun
Sarah Silverman | Let My People Vote 2012 - Get Nana A Gun
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ypRW5qoraTw
9.28.2012
When I restart the Death Fast....
When, maybe 'if,' I restart the Death Fast:
1. Over the next few days I expect to be posting my thinking, here. So, if you wish to know my thinking, you'll want to check this link, or better yet, subscribe to the daily summary. I do not expect to repeat what I post. If one is interested, they can read, and then we can discuss. Billions of lives depend on our every second, and I for one, will waste not a one, as you should demand of me, and yourself.
2. I'm not open to arguing, but with those of you that have earned it through your kindness (you know who you are) I am open to some further discussion and clarification, and to hear your thoughts, now.
3. But when (if) I restart, one of the things I've learned is that I can't retain the clarity I need for that part of the work if I allow ANY dialog. So, if there is to be any talk, NOW is the time. Once, if, I restart, other than what I've written, said, and blog, there will be zero communication, internet or in person.
I've been holding at the body-weight of Day 15, measuring my calories daily, verified on the scale this past Wednesday - 157 lbs, for me. When, if, I restart, I may start at zero, or Day 15. Not sure yet.
Yes, I am riding a bull, riding a roller coaster, sailing in a storm - external and internal. Detach, if and when you need to. I'll think none the less of you.
I experience my fits and starts this way - if my kid were pinned under a car, and it was only me that was there to get it off - I wouldn't know how, I'd grab this way, I'd grab that way, I'd try this, I'd try that, and I'd keep trying, I'd recognize I was failing, but I wouldn't stop trying, and trying new ways that seemed promising. That's how it is with me.
1. Over the next few days I expect to be posting my thinking, here. So, if you wish to know my thinking, you'll want to check this link, or better yet, subscribe to the daily summary. I do not expect to repeat what I post. If one is interested, they can read, and then we can discuss. Billions of lives depend on our every second, and I for one, will waste not a one, as you should demand of me, and yourself.
2. I'm not open to arguing, but with those of you that have earned it through your kindness (you know who you are) I am open to some further discussion and clarification, and to hear your thoughts, now.
3. But when (if) I restart, one of the things I've learned is that I can't retain the clarity I need for that part of the work if I allow ANY dialog. So, if there is to be any talk, NOW is the time. Once, if, I restart, other than what I've written, said, and blog, there will be zero communication, internet or in person.
I've been holding at the body-weight of Day 15, measuring my calories daily, verified on the scale this past Wednesday - 157 lbs, for me. When, if, I restart, I may start at zero, or Day 15. Not sure yet.
Yes, I am riding a bull, riding a roller coaster, sailing in a storm - external and internal. Detach, if and when you need to. I'll think none the less of you.
I experience my fits and starts this way - if my kid were pinned under a car, and it was only me that was there to get it off - I wouldn't know how, I'd grab this way, I'd grab that way, I'd try this, I'd try that, and I'd keep trying, I'd recognize I was failing, but I wouldn't stop trying, and trying new ways that seemed promising. That's how it is with me.
9.27.2012
Netanyahu praises Obama's stance on Iran Politico
| Politico - |
In his speech to the United Nations General Assembly, Israeli Prime Minister Benjamin Netanyahu
on Thursday praised President Barack Obama for speaking out against a
nuclear-armed Iran earlier this week at the U.N.. “President Obama
reiterated that the ...
Obama surges with Catholic voters: poll Seattle Post Intelligencer
| Seattle Post Intelligencer (blog) - |
The country's conservative Catholic bishops took out after the Obama
administration earlier this year, going to court against a mandate that
requires church-affiliated universities and hospitals to offer
contraception coverage in health care plans for ...
Webb to Romney: A 'thanks' would have been nice Washington Post
| Washington Post (blog) - |
Introducing
President Obama in Virginia Beach, retiring Sen. Jim Webb (D-Va.),
condemned Mitt Romney for failing to mention veterans or the military in
his GOP convention speech.
Major unions endorse mass sit-in to defend Canada's west coast ... The Herald
Major unions endorse mass sit-in to defend Canada's west coast ...
The Herald | HeraldOnline.com-22 hours ago
"More than 50 BC communities have said 'no' to these tar sands export pipelines and the tanker traffic they will bring to BC's pristine coastline," said CUPE BC ...
I approve this message: Sam Jackson "Wake The F**k Up" Pro-Obama Ad
Epic! Sam Jackson Debuts "Wake The F**k Up" Pro-Obama Ad (VIDEO)
Israeli Report Says Sanctions Hitting Iran Hard
Israeli Report Says Sanctions Hitting Iran Hard
http://abcnews.go.com/International/wireStory/israeli-report-sanctions-hitting-iran-hard-17335910#.UGSZ7lHAGCc
9.25.2012
NY Daily (GOP) News: ‘Mexican Mitt’ Romney can’t shake the fake in face-off with Latino TV
‘Mexican Mitt’ Romney can’t shake the fake in face-off with Latino TV
Clinton Global Initiative: Romney Personifies Small, Shallow, Snarky, Spoiled
Pres. Obama, Mitt Romney Address Annual Clinton Global Initiative Meeting
President Obama and Republican Presidential Candidate Mitt Romney addresses the 8th Annual Clinton Global Initiative Meeting in New York City on Tuesday. Full Story »9.24.2012
nd ''Family:' The price of your well-being, their last concern.' Loving
nd ''Family:' The price of your well-being, their last concern.' Loving
BREAKING: Eight People Climb Trees And Start Indefinite Tree Sit to Stop ... It's Getting Hot In Here
BREAKING: Eight People Climb Trees And Start Indefinite Tree Sit to Stop ...
It's Getting Hot In Here
This pipeline is a disaster for everyone it touches, from the cancer tar sands extraction is causing indigenous communities, to the water poisoned by inevitable tar sands spills, to the landowners whose land has been seized, and to everyone that will ...
See all stories on this topic »
It's Getting Hot In Here
This pipeline is a disaster for everyone it touches, from the cancer tar sands extraction is causing indigenous communities, to the water poisoned by inevitable tar sands spills, to the landowners whose land has been seized, and to everyone that will ...
See all stories on this topic »
Gallup: Half of those in poverty are political independents Washington Post
| Washington Post (blog) - |
Political independents in poverty
are more likely to lean Democratic and approve of Obama, Gallup says.
But there's a lot to suggest that they're far more politically
disengaged.
9.23.2012
SWEET! Obama Suggests Romney Wants to Take U.S. to War Over Iran Bloomberg
| Bloomberg - |
President
Barack Obama called on Mitt Romney to clarify his position on Iran and
Syria, raising the prospect that his Republican presidential challenger
might want to start another war in the Middle East.
nd 'Not God, but WE visit our sins on the 7(000)th Generation. Just warning us, God was.' Loving
nd 'Not God, but WE visit our sins on the 7(000)th Generation. Just warning us, God was.' Loving
122-day hunger strike ended on Saturday
| The Express Tribune - |
Ghulam Rasool Sehto's 122-day hunger strike
ended on Saturday. He broke his fast after personal assurances from
Senator Aitzaz Ahsan and Pakistan Baitul Mal Chairperson Zamurd Khan
that Sehto's demands for an end to water pilferage, ghost schools ...
Anti-Obama bumper sticker reflects the same old racial hate The Seattle Times
| The Seattle Times - |
Leonard
Pitts Jr. wasn't shocked to learn about a bumper sticker that reads:
“2012 Don't Re-Nig,” The anti-black sentiment, he writes, has been part
of the Obama narrative since before he took office. By Leonard Pitts Jr. Syndicated columnist ...
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